Thursday, December 31, 2009

TRUTH BE TOLD, I'M ANGRY . . . (& a few other notes)

Angry that my sub forgot to teach Gentle Yoga yesterday.  There, I've said it.  Not the way I'd hoped to end 2009.

Trip to Tubac (another lyric or song title?), was nice.  Beautiful day for the drive, good lunch, and moderate success at shopping.

Today is another clear day in Tucson.  Not so, I understand, in Salt Lake -- I hope by the time we arrive home the inversion has cleared.

Going to move a bit (practice) this morning, then we are to meet a friend for lunch, then -- who knows.  New Year's Eve is always a bit laid back for us; as in, we rarely make it to midnight.

Back to paragraph 1 -- why be angry?  Because my Gentle Yoga students are important to me.  They are gracious students who have been loyal and supportive to me.  To learn that they were re-paid by being forgotten is NOT what I wanted to hear this week.  To my students, I apologize.

To the sub involved -- not quite sure what to say.  This is not the first time a glitch has happened in subbing.  Got to think about that one and talk face-to-face.

Short & sweet(?) -- have a safe New Year's Eve celebration!

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

EVERYONE WON'T LIKE ME (!?!?!)

First task of the morning, sit for a short meditation.  Then, to the computer, with my coffee.

This morning, I was welcomed by an e-mail from a student wondering about classes.  In my December newsletter, I did state that I would have information about a class now on 'holiday hiatus'.  This student was holding me to my word -- as in, the January newsletter came out and I didn't make mention of plans for that particular class' future.

Fortunately, or unfortunately, there are people in my life who keep me on track.  Whether it be while teaching ('you forgot the right side'), while running the studio ('what about the future of the class you said you'd tell us about'), or my personal life ('don't forget to do this').  Keeps me on my toes.

The interesting thing is that there are 4 classes each week that will fit this student's needs.  Two taught by me, one by another instructor, and the 4th by this student's instructor of choice.   In my newsletter, I addressed this -- as in, when encountering a different instructor, take a breath and go with it; do not stay away from a class just because there is a sub or someone you don't know is teaching it -- we can learn something from every teacher we encounter.

Since this student has attended a few of my classes (or been subjected to my subbing), I must accept that she has learned that she doesn't enjoy something about me or my teaching.  Enough about that -- I'm getting depressed and I've lost my train of thought; as in, where was this all taking me, what am I learning?  Not sure, so I'll change the subject -- AND, I'LL READ 'THIS WEEK'S FAVORITE'.

Today to Tubac (I love phrases that sound like song titles or lyrics).  Tubac is a small artist's community south(?) of Tucson.  I am a lover of almost everything Native American, especially jewelry.  The last time we visited, I found a great store (they call it a trading post), where the cabinets were filled with old and new jewelry.   A veritable silver & turquoise mine!  There are lots of wonderful artists living in this old community -- pottery, sculpture, paintings, etc.  Will be fun.

I hope you have a great Wednesday,

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

CHECK ONE THING OFF THE LIST . . .

A list while on vacation?  I realized I created just such a monster in my blog entry yesterday -- a list of things I hope to do and accomplish.  Aren't vacations about relaxing, going with the flow, enjoying whatever happens?

Yes and no (at least for me).

In order for me to enjoy my time, to feel good about it, to feel safe, I just realized the three A's we apply to our Anusara® practice will play heavily (even on vacation).  If you don't know (or remember) what the A's are, here's a reminder or brief introduction:
  • Attitude
  • Alignment 
  • Action
Many people function just fine with a go-with-the-flow schedule, allowing life to happen so to speak.  I am not one of those people.  I need a bit of structure (even on vacation) to make the most of the events I'm experiencing.  These three A's fit quite nicely into my life (even on vacation).

Before we left SLC, I began to think about the trip -- how it would go.  The drive down, the dogs, the length of time away from the studio and my 'routine', how to handle family members (cats & birds) left at home, etc., etc., etc.  This was setting my attitude.  And - especially for a vacation - a positive and informed attitude is super important, don't you think?    So, there's the first A - ATTITUDE.

How I dealt with each of the issues mentioned in the paragraph above reflects my alignment.  Aligning with an intention for a positive outcome and then creating an atmosphere in which the positive is able to happen.  Stocking the car for a drive through unknown territory, paraphernalia for 2 dogs, hotel that is 'pet friendly', studio ready and instructors forewarned, housesitter arranged for.  In other words, taking my attitude and aligning for the best possible outcome.  The second A - ALIGNMENT.

The action?  Well, in my mind, it is a result of "first + second = third (without complications)".  If I cultivate the appropriate attitude (think of all the variables and how to handle them), then add the needed alignment (put my plan to handle said variables into place), I'm on the road to the desired action -- a successful journey.  The third A - ACTION.

Why did I even think of this?  In reading a friend's blog, she mentioned fear -- that fear is insidiously working it's way into many of the activities of her life.  I don't think that's unusual (mainly because I've been in that position and still find myself in that less-than-comfortable spot at times).  So, what's my best antidote?  You got it --

Think about vrksasana (tree pose) for a moment.  Cultivate in your mind an attitude to stand tall, firmly supported by the strong foundation of your standing leg (attitude).  Now, begin to put that into place -- apply the principles; the pieces of the pose (align it).  As you stand tall, open your vrksasana (tree) to the sun -- ta da!! (there's the action).

My life, my yoga -- it all works a bit better when I step back, examine, then apply the basic "3 A's" tool.

Enjoy Tuesday,

Monday, December 28, 2009

VACATION, NOW WHAT?

Sitting in my mother-in-law's living room with husband and dogs (we left cats home with the housesitter).  Drove from SLC to Tucson, taking 2 days to get here.  Nice, uneventful drive -- everyone arrived happy, dogs and us.

But, now what?  #1 on my list - I do plan to get over to YogaOasis (maybe tonight), and - hopefully - take in one of Darren's classes.  In previous visits, I've tried -- only to be foiled by subs (good classes, but not Darren).  So, to date, I have yet to study with him, unless he is assisting John.

Other plans:  We'll get in some good walks, thanks to the dogs.  We have to find Howard his Christmas present (he wants a specific kind of cowboy boots, not available in SLC - this brand may not be available here, but maybe another brand will offer similar styling).  There is a beautiful 'Y' within walking distance, so we'll spend time there.  And, we will enjoy visiting with my mother-in-law -- a very gracious and vivacious 80+ years old.

When not going, we'll be reading, napping (my choice), practicing yoga (also my choice), studying a bit (a good time to review and prepare for future events), learning more about the Mac and maybe organizing photos (I know there are on-line tutorials I can do, while I'm away from my one-to-one sessions).

Daunting, tho, to wake up to no routine activity, no studio to clean, no class to teach.  The blog and e-mail will remain constants.  However, as I've written this, I've become aware that there are lots of things I can and will do - in addition to enjoying 'no routine'.

Enjoy your holiday week,

Saturday, December 26, 2009

NOW WHAT?

Gifts delivered, gifts opened; food prepared, food eaten; memories made, memories to be enjoyed (we hope) -- now what?  Perhaps, savor those memories.

I remember one of my yoga teachers using just this as a theme, as in - hurry, hurry, hurry get the pose nailed, now what?  Instead, he encouraged us to embrace the process of learning the pose, the steps necessary, the openings needed; then - once accomplished - enjoy.  Keep doing it, keep working (it only gets better).  Even work on the safe exit required by our yoga poses.

His intention -- to have us think about the process, rather than just 'nailing' poses.  Many of us do think 'check', 'check', 'check', those are done -- now what, what's next?  Obviously, that class and theme had a significant impact to have remained in my 'memory bank'.

I was in a class last week, working on urdhva dhanurasana.  Wayne had us do the pose a couple times by ourselves.  Then we worked in three-somes to help each other.  For many, it was a step back because several students had urdhva's that were very advanced.  What did I notice?  I noticed that, when helped by others, I could feel the energy working in my shoulder blades, I was able to notice my arms -- how straight they were, and how vertical to the floor.  The help took some of the effort away, allowing me a deeper observation of the princples and actions involved.

Something to think about as I work to empower my students in class.

Now, on to the New Year's celebrations.  Enjoy Saturday,

Thursday, December 24, 2009

EMPOWERMENT

Last week, when I was 'playing', I asked another yoga instructor to sub my Gentle Yoga class on Wednesday.  (Actually, I wasn't 'playing' that morning -- we needed to go to an appointment and I needed to drive; so, there was a valid reason for subbing out the class.)

Yesterday, I returned to the class to hear accolades and compliments for the sub.  I should be happy, right? I should be, but I have some reservations about being TOO happy.  After all, this is my class, my students, and I guess -- truth be told -- it was a bit hard hearing that they liked someone else; that someone else made a positive impact on them.

Human nature in the form of jealousy sticking its ugly head out of the sand.  Step back, take a breath, look at the situation, put on my beginner mind and accept it.  There are many wonderful yoga teachers in our city.  I happened to find one to sub this class who my students enjoyed having as their teacher for the day.  It's not the end of the world, and - after telling me how great it was - they followed with the statement I was still first and foremost in their hearts.  Good for them; at least it made me feel better.

So, what does this teach me (besides I'm not the only person who can teach this class)?  My students are smart, they are discerning, they know when they are getting good and valuable information, and they are able to be honest with me.  All good things.

Having said that, now I've made myself feel better.  Better yet, I'll feel comfortable knowing that there are teachers out there who can sub my classes and who have the skillset to work in my classroom environment.

My theme yesterday revolved around empowerment.  Empowering my students is demonstrated when I can look at the group and say 'they know how to take care of themselves'; they know what is good information, good teaching, and what might not be suitable for them.

I have been taking Christina Sell's on-line mentoring class for the past 10+ weeks (a 12-week course of study).  Her repeated message is that our job is to empower our students, not just to lead them through poses as if they had a ring in their nose (my words, not hers), but to truly teach them yoga -- the sanskrit, the philosophy, the poses, the reasons why we do things in an orderly way, etc., etc., etc.

So, for all my angst about being 'replaceable', I am happy; happy that this group of people is showing the signs of being empowered in their yoga practice.

p.s. I highly recommend Christina's program, if you are an Inspired™ instructor or have just finished an Anusara® teacher training course -- it has been incredibly helpful in empowering me.

Merry Christmas,

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

SLOWING DOWN, BUT STILL MOVING FORWARD

As in, slowing down for the Holidays.  The house is decorated, the gifts are bought (and shipped, if necessary), now just slow down and wait.   A nice feeling to begin this day.

When Anusara® initiated the category of Inspired™ instructor, I was among the first to sign on. I viewed Certification as something I might do some day; but, at that time, Inspired™ was enough.   As I completed my Level II Teacher Training with Martin & Jordan Kirk, in 2007, I decided to step out of my protective shell and say it, "I want to be Certified".  That set me on a 2-year path to this moment.

I began working with my mentor, Sundari, and I began to infuse my studies with the goal of being Certified.  A bit unreasonably, I hoped to be Certified by the time I turned 60, and I would joke with fellow students -- "CBS, Certified By Sixty".  I even joked about having a t-shirt made up.  Glad I didn't.

So, here I am 60 (+ a few weeks) and I mailed my application with Sundari's recommendation last week; now I wait for word that I am accepted.  Once that happens, a new journey begins.  New trials -- like, getting very familiar with my video camera.  Not to mention the test (I remember once a young woman, whose profession was some kind of scientist, saying it was like writing her thesis all over again -- that is a bit daunting).

But, I know this stuff.  I study, I read, I practice, I meditate, I look for ways to improve my teaching and to empower my students.  I am ready.

What does all this have to do with the first paragraph of this blog -- my whole journey in yoga has been slow and steady.  A gradual progression that makes me happy, makes me feel good about myself and the impact I have on others.  So, onward -- slow and steady, even if I'm a bit giddy about it all.

Have a great Wednesday,

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

CHRISTMAS' PAST, PRESENT & FUTURE

Are we ready for Christmas?  Are we ready for family, gift-giving, celebrations, traditions, etc?  Are we also ready for some disappointment?  Some disillusionment, when expectations are not met?

Such a fragile time for many people.  It's important for me to remember that.  I was reminded by a phone call this weekend.  A friend, now divorced, dropped her children off at the ex's home.  In that short time, she was bombarded by festivities, old friends, her children's excitement in that environment -- a glimpse of 'Christmas Past', so to speak.

'Christmas Present', for her is good.  She's found a path to a profession she loves and a life that fulfills her.  She's more independent, more confident.  She does her best to maintain the relationship for her children with their Father.  Her ex's decision to leave was one of those challenges that has turned into a blessing -- at least, 95% of the time.

And, 'Christmas Future' will be even better.  She will continue to grow.  Her children will thrive with her love and support.

However, the glimpse of 'Christmas Past' was disturbing to her.  Caused her pause, caused her to question the present and the future.   No need.  Her present and future is so much better than the past; but those reminders and glimpses of the past are still painful.  

My friend doesn't practice yoga; but this is her yoga.  This is her opportunity to view these challenges as blessings, to recognize (and accept) her greatness, and to proceed on her journey to a fulfilling, yet different future than she had planned 5 years ago.

My yoga is to recognize her pain, accept it, not try to argue with it; but, also insert a reminder, here and there, to her of her beauty, her gifts, her fortitude, her perseverance.

May your holiday season meet and exceed your expectations.  If it doesn't, then look deeply for the blessings -- they are there.

Enjoy Tuesday,

Sunday, December 20, 2009

PLAY

The theme for Saturday's 9 am class was "Play" -- patterned after my departure from routine during the past week.  My taking time to 'play'.

First, I looked up the word 'play' on yourdictionary.com -- I was surprised by the amount of information provided for this relatively short word.  The dictionary is a good resource to expand my verbiage (I also discovered that I have been misspelling this often-used word in my writing; so, forgive me.).  

For me, it is so effective to use themes that have a basis in my own life experiences -- I am able to teach the class AND remember to infuse it (the class) with stories, similes, reminders of why we are 'playing' (or whatever personal life experience I choose to use).

This is good practice for other themes -- themes that relate to yoga philosophy, poetry, other life experiences that perhaps I haven't personal knowledge of.  Those themes I introduce, then tend to get lost in the technical -- forgetting to return to them during the class; I just teach poses.

So, yesterday, we 'played' in class.  A flowing warm-up, moving with the breath -- allowing students to think a bit for themselves.   Then some standing poses, warming up the hips.  Balancing in vrksasana; modified natarajasana; then using a strap for a more full experience of the pose (natarajasana); moved on to ardha chandrasana and then ardha chapasana.   After all this, there was little time to 'play' on the floor, but we got in a couple twists and - since someone was struggling with some psoas issues - we gave that a little extra attention.  Apanasana, then to savasana.   Good class!

If you're looking for a chuckle, read MariaCristina's blog -- she's doing Darren & Noah's workshop this weekend in L.A.  One or the other by themselves is a challenge; the two together, formidable!

Enjoy your Sunday,

Saturday, December 19, 2009

AN UNUSUAL WEEK

Last blog post for me?  Wednesday.  Totally forgot on Thursday, ran out of time on Friday.  My perfect 1+  month of posting is wrecked, but it was so worth it.

My friend, Sundari, arrived on Tuesday to stay with me for a few days.  Running errands, shopping, exploring different restaurants (if you're in SLC, we highly recommend the Himalayan Kitchen), drinking tea, talking -- all these things got in the way of blog writing.  But, it was so much fun.  And, perhaps, healthy to take a break from the routine.

When I travel I try to do a bit of research, find the nearest yoga (preferably Anusara), and take a class.  Some trips, that just doesn't work and I end up finding a spot and doing some yoga by myself wherever I'm staying.  What I find when I am not able to be in my regular routine of public classes and home practice, is that I return more attentive, more energized, more appreciative.

Not sure what or why that is.  Perhaps, when in a routine, it becomes that - a routine, and - whether I intend to or not - I become a bit less attentive, more accustomed to what happens next.  When I break out of it for a few days, then I return with a greater capacity to receive.

So, I am back in the routine.  While I loved the break, the departure from my regular activities, a chance to 'play' -- moving back to the routine feels good.

My Gentle Class yesterday morning was so fun; better yet, they had fun.  We broke out of the Gentle 'routine' and a couple students who were ready, gave a supported pinca mayurasana a try.  The glow was evident, the sense of accomplishment palpable.  Loved it.

Signing off to prepare for this morning -- 9 am Level 1.

Have a great Saturday,

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

THE CRISIS THAT WASN'T

Yesterday, I had a number of planned and unexpected activities come up -- the major unplanned activity was arranging for, then waiting for a furnace repairman; then I had a car delivered; then I did some major paperwork (also unplanned).  All this, as I waited for my friend, Sundari, to arrive for a few days.

Why tell you this?  Because I cannot tell you how many times I have sat and waited and waited and waited for people to arrive to do work or deliver something.  Yesterday, it was as if everything was moving two clicks ahead of me.  Furnace repairman?  To arrive between 8 & 10.  At 7:45 I walked out front with the dogs, and there he was sitting in the driveway.  Car delivery?  Expected no sooner than 11:45.  At 11:30, as I was getting ready for the day - phone rings.  Where are they?  In my driveway.

And Sundari, who drove down from the Jackson area, and had told me she would call from the road, calls as she is 2 blocks from the house.

None of these were negatives.  They were just unexpected -- as in, I've gotten used to waiting, used to using my patience skills.  Regroup -- now use my acceptance skills.  Receive and accept the gifts that these events gave me.  A shift, isn't it?  From expecting to be left waiting - probably impatiently and (perhaps) a bit irritated - to unexpectedly being given time back.  Because, for me, time spent waiting is not always productive time.

Once Sundari arrived (about 2 pm), we settled in, visited a bit, then she came with me to YogaHour.   Fun to have her there and - because the class is just an hour, and more laid back than many yoga classes - she was able to offer a bit of input.

Back at home, more visiting, some exploring on the Mac (I have a Mac, now -- did I tell you?).

Today, I'll teach at the Jail, then we're going to find a nice place for dinner and maybe do some shopping.

Enjoy the day,

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

CHILLY ARRIVAL CHANGES PLANS

Home, where it ought to be toasty and warm; but, where it's a bit brisk.  Thank goodness we have two furnaces (one for each level).  I walked in from the airport yesterday to a cool upstairs.  Thought the housesitter was just being economical, until I looked at the blank (?) thermostat.

Changed the batteries in it, 'assumed' all would be well (it worked earlier this year on the other thermostat), and left for a few hours.  Came home to an equally cool house.  Something's wrong.  Something else.  Something that may cost a few $$$ and some of my time waiting for service people.  Luckily there is that other furnace on the lower level - so some heat rises to the main living area.  In the meantime, the coolness will keep me moving - packages to get ready to send off, house to clean a bit more deeply, etc.  (Looking for the good here, folks!)

The furnace issue will change my plans for the day.  I had hoped to get to Wayne's class, then run some errands, come home in time for Sundari's arrival (she's spending a few days with me), teach YogaHour, then relax.  Oh, I also have a car to pick up sometime (maybe they'll deliver).

I often hear (and talk) about the changes people experience in their attitudes when they begin a committed yoga practice.  This is one good example.  I could be thinking "oh, no, the ceiling is falling, the ceiling is falling -- my day is ruined, I'll never be able to get things done, I better cancel everything!"; instead, I'm accepting the fact that there is a problem, and figuring out ways to work around and with it.  That doesn't mean I don't have moments of panic, it just means I deal with them differently than I might have 12 years ago.

BTW -- there is a pilates exercise, done on a contraption called 'the chair'.  It's a pretty good imitation of a press-up.  Able to get in at least 3 of those yesterday.  Feet don't go higher than hips, and not balancing totally on arms, but it certainly has the 'action' of a press-up in it.  Feel pretty good about that.

Also, had my second session on the Mac yesterday.  This furnace issue will give me the morning to clean up some files and organize documents, class plans, photos, etc., a bit.

All the while, I'll think about this past weekend.  That will keep spirits afloat.  AND, I have a warm lower level to do a practice in and some press-up attempts.

Enjoy your Tuesday,

Monday, December 14, 2009

HOMEWARD BOUND

My 'weekend for me' is almost ended.  In about an hour, I'll head to the airport to fly home.  The memories, tho, will live a long time.

One of the big events of the weekend was taking in a holiday show/production while with my son and family.  Other than "The Grinch ...", my other choice was "The 10 Tenors".  When thinking about what show, I also kept in the recesses of my mind the desire to take Jack (age 3) with us.  You may be thinking 'what? a 3-year-old to an ADULT program?.  Yes.  So - since I'd seen 'Grinch' (and it was sold out), I chose "The 10 Tenors" (a group of 10 young men from Australia, now touring the US).

Bought the tickets (one for Jack), and hoped that his mood, etc., would bode well for tolerating and perhaps enjoying the program.  All weekend, I'd observed him singing (he knows words to songs, now) whenever an opportunity presented itself.   Sunday arrived, Jack was prepped by his Mother about expectations, and off we went -- Jack very proudly wearing his cowboy boots.

Did we survive?  Yes, it went well; in fact, it went super.  If I only had the first 15 minutes of the program for my memory bank, I'd be happy.  He sat in his own chair, his eyes wide, his mouth open.  Occasionally, he looked at me, as if to say "whoaaa".   The rest of the program, he sat in Mommy's lap, drinking from his 'sippy' cup and eating M&M's as they were metered out to him.  A little fidgeting in the second half, but I'd give him an 8+ (on a 1-10 scale) for performance.  Good job, Jack.

Another 'best part' of this -- to participate in a new experience unfolding for this little person.

I did do some yoga this weekend.  Took in Geri Portnoy's class yesterday morning.  I enjoy her teaching style -- she is so calm and measured, with lots of interesting stories to use in her theming, and always something I've not experienced before.  Yesterday's -- a brief foray into the Dance of Shiva arm movements -- fun stuff.

Whenever I attend a class away from 'home base', I find myself thinking 'how would I say that', 'can I incorporate the verbage this teacher used', stuff like that.  That's understandable, as I move along this path; I just need to pull myself back to the class and let myself enjoy and learn from the teaching.  Not get too involved in the comparison game, and to just be a student in a yoga class.

So, back to SLC, where I see (on my Mac) it's snowing.  I am very happy it's warmer.  Heard there was a misstep at the studio while I was gone.  Winter auto woes will take their toll occasionally -- this one, a broken key while unlocking the car door, leaving instructor stranded in one part of town, as class was to begin.  The 'key' to this?  Take a breath, do what we can to notify people, and hope their moods are forgiving.

Enjoy Monday,

Saturday, December 12, 2009

A WEEKEND FOR ME !!!



I sound pretty pathetic -- as in, I don't EVER get time for myself; so celebrate, everyone, I get 'a weekend for me'.  Not true,  I do get time for myself -- my family is more than understanding of "me time".

This weekend, however, is especially special.

We are with our son and his family - wife, Jessie, and sons, Jack & Brady (see the picture).  Truly a beautiful family with a HUGE heart.  They are helping me celebrate my 'sensational' sixtieth birthday, a couple weeks late, but we planned it this way.  Each day of this weekend is a little more celebration.  Last night was enjoying the boys, receiving a wonderful album they'd created with pictures of my life and letters from both Derek and Jessie.  These letters bring tears to my eyes each time I read them -- and I've read them a number of times in the past 10 hours.

I also received a Lululemon gift card (talk about the way to a woman's heart; especially a woman who teaches and practices yoga).

The little touches are as meaningful and as important -- everywhere I turn - doors, mirrors, etc., are signs wishing me a 'Happy Birthday'.  We have activities planned through the weekend and - even if we were just 'couch potatoes' all weekend - it would be fun no matter what, being with this loving group.

What I love is the love being passed out by these two little boys -- Jack showing us all his important 'stuff' and telling us about Santa (this year, he is liking Santa Claus), and Brady loving up to Howard with lots of hugs and smiles (and, eventually, to me).  So much fun and - I've said it before - this makes my heart sing.

So, on with the weekend!

On the yoga front, I might try to take in a class sometime this weekend at Yoga Del Mar; but, my priority is enjoying these individuals who are going all out to make sure this birthday is special for me.  I do plan to find a corner and continue my press-up work, however.

Enjoy your day,

Friday, December 11, 2009

AHH, FRIDAY !!!

Long week - perhaps because it's been a week of anticipation and surprises.  

Yesterday was a good, albeit long, day.  Wayne's class in the am (handstands and urdhva dhanurasana - both with moderate success).   Then errands.  Then home to let the dogs out -- it's so cold that I hesitate to leave them out for any period of time.  Then teach YogaHour -- worked on handstands in that class.  Then YogaSpecific.

YogaSpecific was fun -- my 'post Title-9' group is returning (their term for themselves).  They are so open to whatever I offer, and so appreciative -- makes teaching so rewarding.  As we practiced, I frequently talked about the feet and their role, and asked them to spread their toes, etc.  It was quickly apparent that their toes had spent way too much time in shoes.   So, a little 'foot' yoga.

It's always interesting to watch student's reactions to their feet - the stiffness ('how do I get my fingers between my toes?'), the result of a bit of massage ('they feel so much more mobile'),  and - most visible - the realization that they can't move their toes quite as well as they'd like.

Not everyone's cup of tea - working with the feet - but, after a few chaturanga dandasana's and some standing and balancing poses, these students were happy to be on the floor massaging their feet.  BTW, if I plan this into a class, I usually do it more towards the beginning.  This class, however, it was a spur of the moment switch in directions (remember 'fluidity').  And, they liked it.  Too often, I see students who only want the 'work out' that comes with their yoga practice; the 'stretching'.  I love it when students are willing to try something new, and - in the process - learn the valuable role than every part of our bodies play in our yoga.

Got to get busy, can't tarry much longer over this wonderful, new machine!

Have a great Friday!

Thursday, December 10, 2009

BLOGGING ON A MAC !!!

So, here I am, early morning, working my way through my 'laptop routine', as I call it.  It's a slower process this morning, not because this Mac is slow but because the operator is climbing the learning curve.  It sure is a fun hike, however; lots of beautiful scenery to be seen along the way!

What have I done so far?  Checked out Facebook, modified my e-mail addresses a bit, written an e-mail, read a few favorite blog entries, and now I'm here.

My first e-mail was to a new instructor to The Yoga Center, Don.  Don will sub a class for me next week - Gentle Yoga; so, he attended the class yesterday.  My Gentle Yoga class is more than just a class to me.  I was reminded, as I wrote the e-mail that they are my friends, as well as my students, and I was so pleased that Don took the time to come observe and participate in the class.  I know he will teach it differently, but he now has an idea of who attends and what we work on.  I certainly appreciate his attending, because I want my friends to enjoy their subs and I want to feel o.k. having a sub once in a while.

Then I went to Facebook to check on what people are doing, then to the 30-day Tigress Challenge.  I am so excited to be able to view videos now (every time I clicked on a Facebook video, I received a message "you need to update . . .".  Well, that sounds simple enough, but on the old computer updating meant risking locking up.  So, I had just given up on that front.)  Today, tho, was a different story.  Videos viewed -- she makes it look SO easy.  The press-up walk looks interesting -- will give that a try today.

Today - Wayne's class, then home to do whatever needs doing, then 4 pm YogaHour and 5:45 pm YogaSpecific.  The cold weather is keeping people home, I notice -- as I ran errands yesterday evening, there were NO crowds to deal with. Wonder how that will affect yoga classes (remember, the room is warm).

So, evaluation of the Mac -- good experience, and looking forward to the challenge.

Stay warm (according to my Mac, it's 8 degrees out there right now),

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

FLASH BACK MOMENT

 Yesterday I taught YogaHour at  4pm.  It was a small, but fun group.  And, I was teaching it on the tail-end of a busy day.  Here's a brief rundown of Tuesday's activities: 
  1. Up early, blogging and studying (now, I can study my new MacBook!)
  2. Wayne's class -- yes, I braved driving in the snow to get to class.  Freeway was a parking lot, so took lots of side roads and zig-zagging, but I made it with time to spare.
  3. Then to pick up the MacBook, which is now loaded with my stuff from the old Dell.  I also decided to take the time to 'get acquainted' with it (their name for your first one-hour training session).  Wow! Can this machine do a lot.  Loving it! 
  4. Now, stop by the VW dealership.  Yes, we are considering a trade-in.  Buying or leasing a new car is kind of like going to the dentist -- NOT something we look forward to, always a challenge.  We have found, however, a nice young man to work with and perhaps this will be a different experience -- we can always hope.
  5. Pilates is next -- I haven't done pilates in a couple weeks.  Interesting how I felt during the session -- stronger and more receptive.  That happens with yoga, as well.  I think when we return to a regular activity after a brief hiatus, we return with a more open mind.
  6. On to The Yoga Center (my studio).  Write the rent check and deliver it.  Respond to a couple messages I wish I hadn't gotten, then YogaHour -- fun, small group.  We tried "L" at the wall, all but one proceeded to kicking up to handstand. 
That is still an elusive move for me (kicking up).  Not sure why.  If I have help, I can get up and I enjoy being up.  I'm even feeling a bit more independent during handstand.  The process of kicking, tho, just has me scratching my head.  That is part of my motivation for trying to press-up, instead.  I know it would be much easier to kick up, but when it's this elusive (7 years of trying), what is one to do?

As I watched students trying to kick to the wall, I experienced a memory 'blip' or flashback.  That of attending my first teacher training with John Friend in Miami, about 4 years ago.  During the training, I asked him to observe me trying to kick up.  Used a bolster, I kicked, unsuccessfully.  We just tried once, he stopped me and said "you're not ready yet".  Tears in my eyes, I thanked him. 

There is rarely a kick-up attempt that doesn't bring that memory back; as in, when will I be ready?    And, I worry somedays that it's taken on a life of its own and I've developed a mental block to the actions needed.    

Challenge #1 - Press-up; progressing, tho no lift-off yet
Challenge #2 - Welcoming attitude/presence; working well and surprisingly easy to work on
Challenge #3 - Fluid, energetic teaching; also easy to work on because it's fun
Challenge #4 (new on my list) - MacBook Pro conversion; with all the help available, this one ought to be easy to work on

So, today -- Gentle Yoga; then go 'discuss' with the VW salesman.

Hope your day is great,

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

MORE IS GOOD, RIGHT?

Yesterday I received my Christmas present early.  This is practically unheard of in our home -- we never give or open gifts early, it's a matter of our Christmas tradition. 

But, this is a year of change, I guess -- as I sat working on my laptop yesterday a.m. (cursing a bit as it slowly moved through its motions), Howard walked out and asked if I would be upset if my Christmas gift arrived early.  "Of course not", I replied.  And, voila!, he walked out with a small box and bag containing a Macbook Pro!!!

Wow!  Totally blown away.  I had considered asking for a new laptop, but thought it extravagant; after all, I was dealing with the 'slowness', and it was working, eventually.  I had also (secretly) been watching Mac users with some envy -- they all seem to fly around their keyboards, using multiple screens, have music, etc., etc., etc. 

Now I have one - a Mac.  And, now I have ANOTHER challenge.  To become a 'switcher' (I think that's the word the author of MacBook for Dummies gives people like me.).  That same author says we are VERY intelligent people -- that's a good thing. 

So, down to the Apple store with both computers in hand (to transfer data); will pick them up today and get a short intro.  My very generous husband also purchased tutorials and support -- so, lots of help for this challenge. 

This is short because I'm using his computer, and he needs to get to work on it. 

Exciting days ahead,

Monday, December 7, 2009

SHOVELING AND FEELING MY ARMS - Could that be the blessing of this challenge?

Sunday morning SLC awoke to a thin blanket of snow.  I walked the dogs, then shoveled it off.  It's cold enough that nothing was going to thaw and - rather than drive on it and make it a mess - thought it best to get the snow off.  It's so cold, that I think a leaf blower would have done the job. 

All this to tell you that I shoveled.  And, I felt my arms - big time.  This must be the result of trying to press-up to handstand several times each day.  Hopefully, it's a sign that the muscles in my arms will be stronger when this challenge is done.  (30-Day Tigress Challenge on Facebook). 

So, that is an update on Challenge #1 -- the press-up.  To date, my arms are sore.  No lift-off, but Amy promises to post some notes this week which, I hope, will contain some secret formula.  I'll keep you posted. 

Challenge #2 -- create and sustain a welcoming atmosphere in classes, and work on my own personal dealings with others.  I had a great opportunity on Saturday to do that in two classes; introduce everyone, that is.   On a personal level, I've been practicing my interpersonal skills whenever out in public shopping, etc.  Even on Facebook, I've been extending out a bit -- offering comments where appropriate and - hopefully - meaningful.  And, I took time yesterday, to acknowledge the help that instructors have been offering up at the studio. 

FYI, we no longer have a cleaning person at the studio.  That means, the work falls to me.  Not surprisingly, I am noticing that each instructor is stepping up and helping out when they have time and see something that needs taking care of.  That effort must be acknowledged, because I'm loving it.  I never thought I'd be so happy to see empty trash cans, or clean mirrors, or closed blinds -- certainly brings new meaning to "it's the little things". 

Challenge #3 -- Staying fluid, energetic, inspiring in my teaching.  Well that's a tall order, but one that I feel will be easy to handle.  Because - you see - I LOVE TEACHING!  Who knew that I would be here at this point in my life; who knew that I, a person who could barely utter 10 words to groups without hyperventilating due to nervousness, would be able to teach a 90-minute class and NOT be plagued by that same nervousness.  And, who knew, that I would still be reading and studying and practicing with passion many years after beginning to teach. 

As to other challenges, because there are 'others'.  My task will be to deal with these as they arise, look (sometimes deeply) for the blessing, and work through them.  Not all are as life-changing as the 3 I've chosen to highlight here.  Sometimes a challenge can be having to change course and sub a class at the last minute (as I did on Saturday).  Being able to work with those smaller challenges is equally important since they affect all the others --- how I handle small issues affects my overall attitude and approach to any bigger projects in my life. 

Today -- got to get my Drivers' License renewed, run errands, do laundry, and whatever else comes up. 

Enjoy Monday,

Sunday, December 6, 2009

MORE THAN I EXPECTED . .

Saturday was a fun teaching day for me.  I taught at 9, my regular "Level 1, Anusara-Inspired™" Yoga Class".  A student who has not attended before arrived and made the comment -- "this class sounded 'fancy', so I was reluctant to attend".  Perhaps I should scale the name back to just "Level 1".  Something to contemplate. 

FYI, my studio is anything BUT 'fancy'.  We are just regular people doing yoga.  What distinguishes us is the excellent quality of teaching at this studio.  I know this.  And, the great thing is that our students are making a point to share their good experiences with me  -- who could ask for a better compliment?

So, the 9 am class went as planned.  I video'd it - mainly for my own information.  One of Wayne's "needs polish" comments was that I be more 'in the seat' -- meaning more in command.  So that was my goal yesterday -- fewer choices, more commanding in my verbal instruction.  I feel like I did it.  I have yet to watch the video, so - we'll see.  Proof is in the pudding, it's said. 

I got a call just before my 9 am class started from Jacqueline, who teaches the next class.  A heads-up that she was in Ogden at an appointment, and worried that road construction and weather might delay her on-time arrival.  Would I wait?  Would I start the class, if needed?  Yes to both.  A call from her 5 minutes after her usual start-time, to tell me that it was snowing, roads were a mess, and she was in a single lane of traffic on I-15 going about 10 mph.  If she were lucky, she'd be an hour late.  So, we decided I better just teach the class.  This class is being introduced to Anusara® principles, so I was able to teach a similar class to the one I taught at 9. 

Theme - challenges are blessings, sometimes we have to dig deep to find the blessing, however; heart quality - steadfastness; UPA - muscle energy.  We did a nice slow warm-up using the breath, then through some standing poses and on to Ardha Chandrasana (this pose is a great one that demonstrates muscle energy from periphery to core -- at least to me).  Some 'ah-ha' moments in the group -- a good thing.  And, I had fun teaching.  They were open to me (even though I was a last-minute stand-in), and they put their 'beginner mind' hats on with gusto. 

As I sat during their savasana, I thought -- this could have gone two ways - good or bad.  It could have been a trainwreck if either my attitude or the students' attitudes had been unaccepting of the circumstance (For example, if my attitude had been "Oh dear, I have to teach another class!", or if their attitude had been "Oh no, we don't have our regular teacher.")

Then, the best part -- Jacqueline arrived during savasana (unknown to the students).  She and I sat at opposite sides of the room, looking over this great group of resting individuals.  Then she started chanting!  What a great way to have this class end -- I loved it!  And, I know the students appreciated her chant that, in a way, blanketed them with security and love.  Wonderful!

Challenge Update:  3 attempts to press-up yesterday.  Standing on BIG blocks, hands on floor, head & back pressing into wall, backside in the air.  Not a pretty sight, I'm sure; but the entry and exit are getting easier.  Also, no lift-off, but I was able (in this awkward position) to begin to feel and apply principles -- always a good sign for me that progress is being made.  

So, today's Sunday.  Cold and snowy, and I have two dogs staring at me wondering WHEN I am going to walk them.  Better get busy. 

Have a great Sunday,

Saturday, December 5, 2009

AH, SATURDAY

Up early to continue working on class thoughts for today.  All week I've used "finding and accepting challenges" as a theme; so, will continue.   My personal story for all this is my search for a challenge now that my 'alphabetical birthday count-up' is over; as in, now what? 

If you've been reading, you know that I have a few now - challenges, that is.  First, I signed on to Amy's '30-Day Tigress Challenge'.  That is one hot commodity.  The night (Tuesday), I found it and added my name to the roster of participants, I was #18.  This morning, 248!  Looks like others were looking for challenges, as well.  Or, the thought of doing a press-up is just too enticing to be passed up.  Update on my progress:  Feet are staying well grounded on the blocks.  FYI, that's not what I am working towards -- I want lift-off!  Keep working, Leslie.

Challenge #2 - Assuring that my classes are welcoming, both from my standpoint and that of regular attendees.  So far, so good.  If I had classes of 20, 30, or more, this would be more of a challenge.  My classes are small enough that introductions are easy to handle.  I suppose that if (when) classes are that large, I - at the very least - must ask people to turn to the person beside them and (if they haven't met) introduce themselves, that could work.  I often sit on a mat with a stranger beside me and think "this is kind of uncomfortable, I should introduce myself".  I will if we partner.  Otherwise, I tend to just sit there -- what's that about?  Shyness?  Fear of rejection?  Snobbery?  Too early to think about that personal foible.  Just add it to the 'challenge' list.

Challenge #3 - I experienced Thursday night; that of teaching a very diverse group of students, both in skillset, physical conditioning and personality.  That will be an ongoing challenge and one without a set of guidelines to follow.  Each group I encounter will be diverse.  Maybe not as diverse as the class I described, but everyone comes with their own stuff.  Then mix in mine, and voila!  My challenge in all this will be to be accepting, stay fluid, stand firm, be compassionate, be enthusiastic without going overboard, encourage where appropriate.  All this, while I keep my sometimes 'flip' or unthinking comments to myself.  (Is this another challenge lurking on the outskirts?)

Well, must get on with planning for this morning.  One thing about teaching Anusara® yoga that I doubt many students see or realize, is that it isn't "canned" -- there isn't a script I've been given to use when teaching a particular group of students.  Each class is individual, like us; each class revolves around a theme or quality that our students ought to be able to relate to.  And - I love this part - each class will provide (hopefully) a "Wow" or "Ah-Ha" moment for students.  Even if it's something as simple as feeling their pelvis tilt during janu sirsasana -- granted that sounds like a pretty boring 'wow' moment, but I loved it when I had that first experience of feeling my pelvis tilt; and every time it happens, I'm lovin' it. 

Caveat:  I'm not saying that other styles of yoga are "canned"; I hope to convey that there is work that goes into planning classes.  Different styles do different work. 

Have a great weekend,

Friday, December 4, 2009

JUST NOTES - - -

Thursday was a fun yet challenging day -- I asked for challenges, right? 

I attended Wayne's class in the a.m. -- fun class during which we did some inversions and backbending poses.  For the first time, I was able to get up into Sirsasana II by myself and stay there.  That is, after a failed first attempt.  Word of warning -- the Revolution mats are mercilous with your hair.  How do I know this?  I tried getting up in Sirsasana II the first time, only to fall off to the side (very  nice cartwheel action, tho).  Unfortunately, the mat did such a good job of being 'sticky' that when I re-set myself for a second attempt -- there, staring me in the face, was a BIG lock of my already-short hair.  Luckily I have very thick hair, so I don't think it will show.  Despite that, I am very pleased about Sirsasana II -- that's a first for me without help and without feeling like my neck is taking an unhealthy beating.  I was very aware of pressing my head into the floor; extending the neck, rather than collapsing into it.    

After class, I took a few minutes for my Tigress challenge -- 3 attempts at press-up handstand.  Attempts is a good word -- I find that putting my feet on blocks, my hands on the floor, and my back against the wall makes an interesting place to exit from.  But, I did it.  I plan to watch Amy's video this morning; maybe (I'm sure) I'll pick up a tip or two to help. 

Then home to do a bit of housework and laundry.  I recently saw an ad -- "no one should have to do housework".  Well, maybe no one 'should', but some of us do (that doesn't mean we like it, however, or that we're going to run out and get a housekeeper).  I guess I'd rather use our financial resources elsewhere; after all how much mess can 2 people, 2 dogs, 2 cats and 2 birds make?  A lot! 

Back down to the studio to teach 4 pm YogaHour and 5:45 Yoga Specific.  YogaHour was fun - nice group of women, a couple of who had never done Virasana.  Their comment:  "a whole new world".  The jury's out on whether they like the 'new world' of virasana.  Few do, I find, on their first (or second) attempt.  I also challenged them to take their hand into a 'new world' during the second round of trichonasana; i.e. if they put their hand on their shin, try taking it to the floor; or, if they put their hand on a block, lower the block height.  Wonderful to watch!

My regular crew of 'boomers' or 'post-Title 9' (as one liked to refer to herself, age-wise), didn't show for Yoga Specific.  I have a feeling that their lives are full and that yoga, while good for them, is not a priority yet - especially during the holidays.  I could be wrong; I'd love to be wrong -- I enjoy them all. 

Instead, the group was small, very small -- as in 3 very diverse students.  One, very strong; one, with a beautiful practice yet not quite the stamina of the first; and one, struggling with some physical issues.  Each required a different set of instructions.  I guess you could say, that the blessing of this small group was that it was small -- any more, and I might have been tearing more of my hair out.  While I love the challenge of figuring out what people can (will) do and then giving them that, sometimes I wish for a class of equally-matched students (careful what I wish for).  This experience, tho, is so good for me and so challenging. 

Challenge was the word of the day.  Now, what will Friday bring?  Cold outside, that's for sure. 

Enjoy your day,

Thursday, December 3, 2009

NOTICING

I got a 'hammer-over-the-head' reminder yesterday when I read Christina's blog of a human tendency that is less than flattering -- that of (sometimes) not welcoming (noticing) the new person in the room. 

It's a trait I've experienced personally -- so, I thought it o.k. to expand on her thoughts from my viewpoint.  Click on her blog link to get the whole 'scoop'.

So, what's my experience?  6 years ago, I attended my first John Friend retreat at Inner Harmony.  I was one of 4 students in a group of 60 who had never participated in one of his events.  I went by myself, as I often do.  56 of the attendees had met or were friends with one another from previous events or circumstances.  They were excited to be together again.  While cordial, some failed to 'notice' me.  

Fortunately, I met some really great people at that event, and my zeal for pursuing more was not dampened by feeling excluded at times. 

Yesterday's reminder of that week and the way I still feel and act sometimes - especially now that I move closer to the inner circles - was a good one.  It offers me a challenge for the next month (and the rest of my life). 

This challenge has two components: 
  1. To step up -- to interject myself when I am in new settings (because I often attend classes and events by myself, and my tendency to be introverted adds to the challenge). 
  2. To notice the new person, to make conversation when appropriate; at the very least, to smile.
My challenge will extend beyond the yoga world.  I can do this anywhere.  

Most importantly, tho, as a teacher of yoga, I must make sure that my classes are welcoming, and that my regular students are welcoming.  How to do that?  Well, I start by always introducing the new person in the room.  Fortunately, my 'regulars' step up to the plate and support me in this.  They do a great job at making new people feel welcome.  What a blessing!

Well, one thing I've learned in the past 4 days of being sixty -- the challenges are there, I just have to open my eyes and look for them.

Going to Wayne's class this a.m. (will get in 3 attempts at a press-up, even if I have to stay after class).  I teach YogaHour at 4 pm, then YogaSpecific at 5:45 (tonight's topic:  "If you can't (your words), you won't").

Have a nice Thursday,

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

NOTES ON BEING A 60-YEAR-OLD YOGA INSTRUCTOR (and other things)

I've been sixty for 3 days now.  That hardly makes me an authority on the subject, but I can give you a brief preview of things to expect.  By the way, I was mistaken when I wrote 'sixth decade'.  I am actually entering my 7th (seventh) decade (WHOAAA !!!).

So here are some observations: 

1.  I attended Wayne's class yesterday, feeling strong.  Looking around at the room; everyone younger than me; yet I am doing everything they are doing.  A twinge in my right shoulder caused me to move a bit more slowly into Warrior II (no fluorishing, cartwheel openings), but that's been an issue for longer than I've been sixty - so, does it count? 

2.  I am hankering for a goal (notice my language sometimes shifts to sayings that are 'older than dirt'; that's also been happening for longer than I've been sixty).  So, last night I logged onto Facebook one last time and saw Jane Norton's entry about joining the group "30-Day Yoga Tigress Challenge" - it's a group created by Amy Ippoliti (who I have yet to meet).  Purpose of the group -- to take on a challenge each month.  Looks to be a relatively new creation, and the description talks about challenges that are not always yoga-related.  This month's challenge, tho, is to work on a press-up handstand, giving it 3 attempts every day. 

After Wayne's class yesterday, I took a moment to do "L" at the wall, take one leg up, then briefly start to move the other foot away from the wall.  Did that on both sides.  Seems like a perfectly reasonable goal to work on press-ups from here.  My recent 'independent sensation' during handstands gives me motivation to at least give it a try.  What can happen?  I will get stronger, even if the press-up is elusive. 

I am so tired of trying to kick to the wall without success, that another method of getting into handstand without help is desperately needed for my psyche.  Do tigresses ROAR?

Still open to other challenges, but this seems like a good one; and the Facebook connection will give me some friendly support.  So, onward!

3.  Any emotional unheavals in the past 3 days?  None -- considering the looming parental issues, always-present studio issues, and day-to-day home front activities, things have been amazingly calm.  I hope that calm will last at least until after the holidays. 

Summation:  Physically and emotionally, I am feeling not much different. 

I received wonderful phone messages, e-mails, and cards from my friends and family -- all echoing the same sentiment.  That sentiment:  How proud and amazed that I am doing what I'm doing; and that I must wear that mantle with pride.  I plan to. 

I must tell you the story of a student of mine.  S began coming to my class about 9 months ago (when I started YogaHour).  She had recently relocated to SLC from Houston, and was well aware of Anusara and John Friend.  Unfortunately, one of her first forays into a yoga studio here was not a positive experience.  The instructor's attitude was discouraging; as in, 'we're going to be doing things you might not want to do'.  This, before the instructor had seen S's practice -- just an over-the-counter judgment.  As you might expect, S left without taking the class; and has little positive to say about that instructor, if the name comes up. 

Now, S is a year or two older than me.  My belief is that the instructor just saw her age; and I - having attended that person's classes - know there are people in that person's classes less capable than SS has been a faithful student for these 9 months.  Her adhikara (studentship) is exemplary, and I see strength and integrity in her yoga practice.

So, a cautionary note to yoga instructors, including myselfNever judge a book by its cover.  I'm sure the yoga instructor of which I speak would argue that didn't happen.  I think it did -- I think we do tend to look at people, make judgments, and let those judgments color our expectations -- even if it has nothing to do with age. 

S and I are among a growing group of older yogis who have skills and - where the ability to do a specific pose might escape us - we have wisdom.  That's what 7 decades does for us. 

Teaching Gentle Yoga this morning at 10.  Then practice, to include 3 attempts at a press-up handstand.

Enjoy your day.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

DECEMBER

I woke this morning, feeling the need for a new challenge -- the 'count-up' was fun and challenging to find words, and then to write a blog entry around those words.  At the same time, it was educational -- I'm sure my vocabulary expanded, if only a bit. 

So, what to do? 

Reading other Anusara® Certified and Inspired instructors' blogs, I notice that many give themselves challenges -- for example, MariaCristina is going through the syllabus poster pose-by-pose, from the beginning.  

Last year, Christina Sell challenged herself to practice 3 hours every day, and she did it.   Each year she assigns herself a pose to work on -- either to accomplish or perfect. 

I could try to emulate these challenges.  My excuses: 
  1. The syllabus poster -- I might find it a bit overwhelming, especially once I got into Level II poses.  Of course, it would be a way to push myself WAY out of my comfort zone.
  2. Three hours of practice each day -- well, that just doesn't sound appealing at all.  Not that it wouldn't be good for me; 60-90 minutes right now is more than satisfactory. 
  3. A pose to accomplish or perfect -- I believe I tried that earlier in the year; didn't stick.  A good one, tho -- one that I ought to re-consider.  Maybe a different pose, tho.  
I'll keep you posted.

Have a good Tuesday,