'DVESHA POSES' WEEK

Yesterday's class signaled the end of what I term "dvesha poses" week.  Dvesha is a Sanskrit word which means something like "least-liked" (I have learned to never say that a Sanskrit word means something specific, because I'm learning there's a lot of variance in definitions.)  It seems that, in each class this past week, I taught a pose that would fall into my list of "dvesha poses".

The class I planned for yesterday worked towards utthita hasta padangusthasana - definitely one of my dvesha poses.  My theme was why we do poses we don't necessarily enjoy; the heart quality, wisdom; with an emphasis on the spirals - inner & outer.

In my early yoga life, teachers would say "we do the poses we don't like because we probably need them".  I was  never sure if that meant I had a character flaw, therefore I needed to do the pose; or perhaps it just meant I couldn't do the pose.   Both might be true, but how about using more palatable reasons - like, 'we do them because each effort brings us closer to enjoying the pose' or 'we do them because they add just enough sour to our life to balance the sweet, and the result will be a more even-tempered approach to life (& poses) '.  I tried to re-frame the reasons to do disliked poses in the positive (in true Anusara® style).

This presents another 'comfort zone' situation -- because when we step out of it to do an uncomfortable pose, we call on another part of ourselves.  A part seldom seen, but always there.  This part of ourselves that reflects our wisdom -- our desire to know more about ourselves, our personalities; how we react to situations, 'least-liked' poses, like that.  This stepping out gives us knowledge of our capacity and when we know that (and, in doing these poses, expand our capacity a bit), our enjoyment of this life expands.

So, in yesterday's class, we warmed up, then moved to the wall to do some preparatory work.  We also used the wall and straps in first attempts at the pose.  Students became 'one with the wall' and it made for a fun class.  And, everyone made it to their best expression of the pose.

And, whether utthita hasta padangusthasana is included in their dvesha pose list or not, it was a fun class to teach, and comments from students afterwards indicated they enjoyed it, as well (the best part).

Have a nice Sunday,

WHY NOT?

I debated telling people about my journey (see yesterday's post).  Many teachers I have met are pretty quiet about theirs.  I'm sure they tell the people close to them, but doubt they announce it on Facebook, or in their blogs, or in their studio newsletters.

My purpose was not to get accolades or garner support (though I appreciate and welcome any and all info, advice, support), the reason I chose to tell EVERYONE truly came from my own excitement.

Perhaps it also reflects a new attitude about myself.  That of accepting my greatness.  When I completed my Immersion studies with Martin & Jordan Kirk, we (the participants) sat in a circle, each of us reflected a bit on our experience, and at the end, Martin & Jordan (and BJ, who was assisting at that time - this was before she began 'rocking' the world with her own teachings) presented us all with a rose (I think) and a small, dime store-type pin (no offense).  Just a metal disc, with a pin attached to its back.  But what a powerful tool -- I have it today, hanging in one of the rooms I use most, I also carry it with me to workshops and trainings.  Why?  Because the message on that pin is "Accept Your Greatness", and I often need reminding of that.

I hope I never lose that pin -- it is a good reminder for me, for one who came into this practice of Anusara® with a 'less than' attitude, and who - to this day - has a tendency towards self-deprecation and a lot of inner critic.

Now, as much as I love the pin and the meaning attached to it, I find I am beginning to move out of the 'less than' mode and towards the 'great' mode.  Over and over in my head plays the tune "before the parade marches by" (sang both by Carol Channing & Barbra Streisand).  FYI, I'm a big Broadway fan.  So, what line sticks with me?  "before the parade marches by, I'm gonna get some life back into my life".

I once went into class with Adam Ballenger, right after hearing that tune.  At the start of class, Adam asked me a question, to which I blankly stared back at him.  Then, he asked what I was thinking about?  Well, having just heard that tune, the words and melody were strongly stuck in my head.  My response?  "Adam, you describe this class as a 'peppy' one, so I was just replaying the parade song in my head to get in that frame of mine".  Then I sang a few bars for the group.  Not sure he appreciated it, but it was true.

Once in a while, I really step out of my container!

So, all this to say, I am pleased, I am proud, I am excited, and I am so happy to be able to share these emotions with as many people as will listen.

Enjoy your Saturday,

WHAT TO WRITE?

Several times yesterday, I thought -- "this is a good topic for my blog, maybe tomorrow".  Little things that happened in classes, little acknowledgements by students, breakthroughs for some, stuff like that.

All my memory, tho, was wiped clean with one e-mail.  The one e-mail from Anusara® telling me that I am accepted onto the Certification 'path'.

Yesterday's sequence of events (I am writing them down because this is such a momentous time for me, I need to remember it!):

• Attended Wayne's class.  Before and after the class, Wayne and I talked about the process once an application for Certification is submitted to Anusara®.  My parting comment to him as I left Kula, "well, maybe I'll get to The Yoga Center and find an e-mail telling me that I'm accepted".  
• Had a bite of lunch, shopped for a chocolate stash at Whole Foods (not sure where I will find this stuff in downtown San Francisco, so better be prepared).
• Home to throw some laundry in, do other 'home' duties.
• To The Yoga Center.  Opened my e-mail at 3:25 pm, and there it was -- the e-mail telling me that I'm accepted!
• I just sat and smiled.

Then, wouldn't you know, Sundari (my good friend and mentor) calls within 5 minutes of my opening that e-mail.  Now, that's coincidence (or something else)!  She was just calling to check in, to say 'Hi'.  After I told her the news, we both just kept saying "that's great", "yeah, it is", that's great", "yeah it is".  Then a bit of chat about our day; she was off to skate ski, I to teach YogaHour.  

When Howard arrived in town last night, I shared the news with him, followed with "now the work begins".  His reaction, "that's great; but haven't you been working?"

Yes, I have.  This 'new' work will have a different flavor, a challenging flavor, a more satisfying flavor, a flavor of work enhanced just by being accepted.  

Are you wondering about the breakthrough moment mentioned in paragraph one?  Well, the class was lying in supine tadasana, working to create contact between their thighs and the floor.  I offered a manual adjustment to one student with a puzzled look on her face, and then - ta da - thighs to the floor.  Her eyes opened wide, a smile spread across her face -- small breakthroughs are sometimes as monumental as the big ones.  

Have a great Friday (I'm still smiling),  

The Third Goddess

The last of the teleconference series with Sally Kempton was last night.  Focus:  Saraswati.   The Goddess of wisdom and communication, who demands that we be very precise and present in order to enjoy her boons (gifts).   (Interesting to me that this fits right in with my recent efforts to incorporate clarity into all my communications.)

It has been so interesting to learn about these Goddess energies.  Kali:  Fierce energy, full of drama and intensity; Lakshmi:  Nourishing, loving energy, opening us to give and receive love; and Saraswati:  who presides over the awakening of discernment (Sanskrit word, viveka), wisdom.

Saraswati (be sure to pronounce her name with emphasis on the second syllable, because when you invoke her through the beej mantras, she may not respond otherwise -- she is that precise) is also known as the 'virgin' Goddess (virgin of the soul), because she chose her studies over her marriage to Brahma.

Sally spent most of the session talking about these qualities of wisdom and discernment.  Interesting, yet I found it equally interesting that Saraswati has a streak of jealousy in her.  What?  A Goddess who is jealous?  Yes, she is said to be a bit jealous of the other two (Kali and Lakshmi).  How do we handle this?  Well, one way is to be sure to call her first.  Nice to know these Goddesses have some qualities of us mortals.

There is much to contemplate -- this is just a mere scratching of the surface.  But, oh, so much more than I knew 3 weeks ago.

Going to Wayne's class this morning, then teaching 4 pm YogaHour and 5:45 Level 1.

Enjoy your Thursday,

A FEW UNEXPECTED DAYS OFF-LINE

Saturday, after class, I rushed home, finished packing, had a bite of lunch with my husband,  then we headed for the airport.  I was flying up to Spokane for one of my frequent visits back to my hometown, to visit family.  

Arrived in plenty of time, checked in, thru security, into Crown Room, sit to send a last-minute e-mail.  No wireless internet connection.  Horrors!  I left it at home.  One e-mail was somewhat critical, so I called Howard, who was remaining in SLC, and asked him to send it.  From this point forward, I would rely on my Blackberry for incoming e-mail and needed (short) responses.  At least for 4 days.  

Let me tell you, I was anticipating a long 4 days.  The first day, I started my routine only to sit and look at a screen telling me I had no connection.  Day two, a bit better -- I worked on organizing photos.  Day three, withdrawal almost complete, I used the laptop for my contemplation homework.  Day four (and, on my way home), I contemplated all the e-mail and other tasks that needed to be done upon my return to internet-connection land.  

Spokane was Spokane.  Pretty much always the same.  My parents are still living in the Valley, and I stay with them.  I do believe they would like me (us) to spend more time there, and I'm trying.  Visits are more frequent, and the next one will be a bit longer.  As they approach their late-eighties, their thoughts are worrisome -- compounded by bodies and minds that are continuing a slow degeneration.  This visit we broached some pretty tough subjects.  As a good friend reminds me, this is part of my yoga.  

Somewhat caught up on internet tasks, teaching Gentle Yoga at 10 am, then to the Jail to teach.  

Hope your Wednesday is a great one,

KICKIN' IT UP

I will be attending John's training and weekend workshop in San Francisco in Feb.  Excited about that, and already planning the logistics -- plane, hotel, etc.   Can't forget subs for my classes.

And, my classes are not the easiest to sub out.  YogaHour (4 pm) twice a week doesn't seem to be appealing to anyone I ask to sub; as in, no one ever wants to sub it -- so, I usually just cancel it (poor students).  Gentle Yoga is gentle, yet it is a challenging class to teach -- why?  lots of different physical issues and levels of ability to take into consideration.  My level 1 classes also present their own set of challenges -- Thursday's class is attended by various levels of experience and even a few limitations, and Saturday -- well, I never know what Saturday will bring.

So, in preparation for the February week, I sent out an all-call for willing subs.  Had one immediate response, from a skilled instructor with previous experience teaching all these populations (even has taught some of these classes for me).  This instructor happens to be off that week (lucky for me), so offered to do all but one of my classes (even YogaHour).  Taking into consideration that I subbed for this person last year (10 classes in 10 days!), I accepted - quickly.  A newer, yet qualified, instructor offered to sub the one remaining class, and I'm set.

Having all the planning done, I can relax and focus on getting the studio ready for a week away.  And, I am excited about the week.  Not only will we learn about the new Immersion curriculum (I don't assist in teaching Immersions yet - and, you must be Certified to teach them solo), but it will be good to know what is being taught as I venture into this year.

The other part of my excitement is because this will be the first time I've attended a "kick-off" training for John's year of Anusara® trainings and workshops.

Any reservations?  Well, I'll be thrown in with the 'best of the best', since this training is in San Francisco.  There are wonderful, amazing Anusara® teachers all over the country (world), and a TON of them live, work and practice in California.  So, I've learned that attending a California event is definitely asking myself to 'kick it up a notch'.

With that in mind, it's time to plan what I'm going to teach in a couple hours -- maybe there's a theme in this blog -- something about 'kicking it up a notch' perhaps?

Have a nice Saturday,

EMPOWERMENT

That is the noun I must apply to the just-finished on-line mentoring course with Christina Sell.

For 12 weeks, Christina has posted a series of vignettes.  In these little videos (sometimes 10-15 in a lesson, each about 1-3 minutes long), she broke down the elements of our teaching, gave us tips, mapped out formulas, provided 'pep' talks, etc., etc., etc.

This morning, I listened to the last, the 12th.  I feel sad that it's over, yet I also feel she has given me so many tools that I am extremely grateful.  I'll miss tuning in each week to the 'secret' blog (access only to those who registered), and adding more information and methods to use to improve and develop my teaching skills.

Much of the information she gave us I have heard in other trainings.  The difference?  No distractions, no questions to take us off track, no interruptions.  If I or someone from the group did have questions, we were welcome to write in after viewing the lessons and ask them through the comment section.  For me, very effective.

Now, tho, the work begins (continues).  Video'ing my classes on a routine basis -- not just when I think about it.  It must become a habit.  So, any students of mine reading this, prepare yourselves to see the camera a LOT.  These may not be videos that anyone else sees, but I (and my students) must get used to that little camera in the room.

Me and my video camera will become one!

Have a nice Friday

FIRST KALI, NOW LAKSHMI . . .

The second of the 3-class teleconference series with Sally Kempton was last night.  Another night of marveling at Sally's voice and her command of the information she is transmitting.

Last night, she introduced me to Lakshmi.  I have a small statue of Lakshmi in my studio.  Purchased it at an Anusara® training from Manoj (sp?).  To date, I have had a small bit of knowledge of Lakshmi, but have never really explored her.   I think I bought the statue because of its attractiveness, not realizing the importance of understanding Lakshmi and her energy.

And to introduce Lakshmi, Sally used stories -- the stories are, to me, invaluable in communicating to students just what these foreign-and sometimes odd-looking statues in the studio mean.  Then I have a theme, or at least a supporting piece of information for an already-established theme.

For example, what better way to tell students about the meaning of Virabhadrasana than by knowing the story of Virabhadra's 'birth', and then having a student in the class with dreadlocks!  Perfect.  It also begins to set the stage for talking about the Nataraj.  I haven't yet found a best source for these 'stories'; so, every time I hear one I write it down and save it.  The opportunities may not happen often, but they do happen and I like to be prepared.

And, a few weeks ago someone asked me where I find the 'stories'.  Mainly word of mouth, but I've also found Wikipedia to be a reasonable source.  There's always a lot of information, then the task is to condense it into a relatable story for students, a story that's short and interesting and gives them an image that can help to support what I am teaching.

So, now I have more 'stories', and more images and information of Lakshmi to contemplate.  I rushed in with Kali -- she is so powerful that I wanted to share her with students right away.  I'll move more slowly with Lakshmi -- that is a reflection of my personality.  It is much easier for me to talk about the fierce energies, I think, than the soft, loving ones.

One phrase that Sally repeated many times during last night's session:  "Honor Lakshmi by becoming Lakshmi".  Become that person who is emotionally balanced; fiscally responsible; honors commitments; sets intentions that benefit others; maintains cleanliness - body, mind, environment; and practices unconditional loving-ness and forgiveness; etc., etc., etc.  BIG.

Have a nice Thursday,

EARLY, EARLY . .

Busy day, today.  So, up early -- have already sat in meditation, now enjoying a cup of coffee, re-listening to the class from last Wednesday with Sally Kempton.   Next, walk the dogs.  Then time on the phone with my study partner for the "Dancing with the Divine" series.

Busy days are good for notes.  So, notes it is:

1.  Nice class with Bridget on Monday.  Because of her weekend experience(s), we worked on core strength.  First we did standing poses, then some core strengtheners, then re-visited the standing poses -- for comparison purposes.  Effective.

2.  The remainder of the day was spent exploring fireplace inserts, reading, relaxing.  Any thoughts of traveling over to visit Sundari in Wilson were tempered by the weather -- driving over the pass in questionable weather to Jackson is a challenge, at best.

3.  Up early Tuesday to drive home from Idaho.  Left the house at 5 am, as the snow came down and blew around us.  Fortunately, it hadn't been snowing for very long; so, not a bunch of accumulation on the ground -- as in, not much to blow around.  Blowing snow is NOT fun to drive in.  Dropped Howard in Idaho Falls (airport); dogs and I continued on to SLC.  Roads were o.k. until the Malad Summit -- then fog, then a light layer of snow on the roads until just north of Ogden.  I've driven in snow for much of my life, but that fact doesn't make it easier.  I just kept reminding myself to breathe and relax the grip on the steering wheel.  Stay alert, but soften (kind of sounds like our yoga, doesn't it?)

As I threw (not literally) one of the dogs into the back of the SUV as we loaded to leave, I pulled something -- so the drive was compounded by pain around my floating ribs in the back (even with a liberal dose of Ibuprofen).

4.  Arrived safely home, to see everyone shoveling snow (a pulled rib muscle, and now I get to shovel!?!?!).  Decided to unload, have some lunch, rest a bit, then think about the snow in the driveway.  (I also was secretly hoping one of those guys with the BIG snowblowers, having seen me drive in alone, would  do my driveway, as well.  Didn't happen).

5.  Snow shoveled, cleaned up, headed into the studio to teach YogaHour at 4 pm.  2-3 students for 7 months, has now blossomed to 11.  Blew me away.  So much fun to teach a larger group, and challenging in a different way.  All different levels of experience, from beginner to more experienced.

6.  Today?  Teaching at 10 am (Gentle Yoga), then teaching at the Jail.  I am hoping that one of the more disruptive students has been released.   We'll see.

Tonight, #2 of the 3-class series with Sally.

Got to get on with the day.  Have a nice Wednesday --

WATCH YOUR KNEES . . .

We took our dogs for a walk yesterday morning.  Cool, crisp, sunny, with enough snow on the ground to make it even more beautiful!

As we walked, the dogs ran ahead and around us (hence, the 'watch your knees' title).   Soon, we were joined by the neighbors' dogs -- just 3 of them (sometimes, there are more!).  So, 5 dogs in all.  Some larger (hunting dogs), one smaller (our little mix of australian shepherd and corgi).

What a party!  Dogs running every which way; dogs playing tag; dogs playfully ambushing other dogs; dogs clamoring for attention; dogs running; dogs jumping; dogs, dogs, dogs.

So fun to watch the free abandon of a bunch of compatible dogs.  Ruby, in particular, was so happy to see us that she jumped in circles, then would come in for a bit of loving, then off she ran with the others; only to repeat the cycle over and over.

Why write about this in a yoga blog?  Because I think there are days when we just have to pause, look around us, and enjoy what's happening outside of our little (big) yoga world.   And, scenes like this remind me to let a little 'free abandon' into my sometimes very structured life.  My 'free abandon' will look very different than Ruby's; but I loved seeing her enjoying the moment, and expressing it so fully -- with all herself.

Our 2 dogs:

Today, yoga with Bridget.  Then, shopping for a fireplace insert and tankless water heater.  Even the prospect of a really, truly heating fireplace and a worry-free water heating situation can bring out moments of 'free abandon' expression -- which, in this case, looks more like an inward smile.

Have a great Monday,

THE POLLS ARE IN . . .

What could I mean by this title?  That last week's class, with Hanumanasana as the apex pose, was a hit!  Each person I've seen who participated in the class has told me they enjoyed the class -- and, that usually doesn't happen.  Sure, people say "thanks for the nice class", as they leave (sometimes true, sometimes not).  Rarely, however, do they come back 3, 4 or 7 days later to tell me they liked the class.

Well, that class is a keeper!  And, for me, a confidence builder.

During last Saturday's class, one student (as we were doing Hanumanasana) said "I need to tell you a story".  Well, everyone was pretty chatty after class, so she left without telling me the story.  She was back in class yesterday, and I asked her if she still wanted to tell me 'the story'.  Her story?  That when she started yoga, 15+ years ago, her intention for starting a yoga practice was to learn to do the splits!!!  I think that, with maybe 5 exceptions (in 15 years, mind you), she has attended class EVERY Saturday morning.  Either she is a patient waiter, as in - someday, "someone is going to teach me the splits"; or something else about the practice speaks to her.

I think it's the latter -- I know I wouldn't have 15 years worth of patience just waiting for one pose.

So, yesterday, we worked on eka pada rajakapotasana (epr, for short).  Warmed everyone up, worked on pieces and parts that need to be present to do the pose (and also are frequently mis-aligned).  A varied level of experience in the class, so we worked with a strap.  A good pose to teach the value of muscle energy and softening -- all at the same time.

Might get the cross country skis out today -- that's if we can find the boots.

Hope you have a great Sunday,

A BUSY COUPLE DAYS . . .

And, a busy morning, so I am defaulting to notes (besides, I love notes -- they offer a break from the usual, which - as a result - serves to enliven the usual).

First,  I have been talking about Kali for the past couple days.  Not that I'm an expert, but I know much more than I did pre-Wednesday's teleconference.  The thing is, what to do when my students give me a questioning look as I tell them bits and pieces of what I'm learning.  It may be too early -- maybe I ought to wait until the entire series is done, digest it a bit, then spring it on them.  It's just that Kali makes sense to me -- I can see when she has come to life in my life; the events that were transforming.  Starting yoga was one of those events (as in, 'you better get off your ___ and do something woman, or you are going to sit in this house and shrivel up to a grumpy, old person' -- like that).  And the impact of her presence was immediate and palpable -- as in, it wasn't (and still isn't) always comfortable, but there is such a shift in my person that I wouldn't give it up for anything.

Second, wonder of wonders -- Thursday night, for me, was a HUGE group.  Fun to teach, while being a challenge.  We humans (ages 40 and up) have done a lot of stuff, exercise-wise, to our bodies.  As a result, students present with a plethora of issues to address as a yoga teacher -- not to mention, the stiffness that can be an element of aging.  Add in the personalities that come with those issues, and you can have a real fun time (as in, challenging).  I do see students giving it their best shot, following instructions, and opening a bit.  The tricky part is knowing how much each student can be "picked on", especially when they are new to me, as a teacher.  Luckily, in a bigger group, so long as everyone is safe, no one gets "picked on" too much. (And, I can be a nag, at times.)

Third, "if I ask, I must carry thru" has been my mantra as I teach lately.  So, we've been working at the wall a lot.  For example, I offer the wall as support for the back foot in a truly WIDE-stanced trichonasana.  My belief (at least it works for me) is that once a student experiences a pose in it's full expression, it will be hard to return to their 'old way' -- they might try, but that 'niggling' thought of how it felt with a wider stance, for example, will be there.   This mantra offers a secondary benefit (for me and them).  It requires that I really LOOK at what's happening when I offer an instruction.

Fourth, well fourth is -- I'd better let this go and work on my plans for 9 am Level 1.

Enjoy your Saturday,

KALI ON MY MIND ...

Last night's session with Sally Kempton was amazing -- to sit and listen to someone whose information I've only read, was enlightening and I now understand why people enjoy and relate to her teaching.

This on-line and teleconference course is titled "Dancing With The Divine" and is an exploration of the Goddess energy within us all (and everything) through meditation, contemplative practices, etc.

First, was Sally's voice -- calm, soothing, yet peppered with intonations and just enough 'slang' to make her message understandable and interesting to listen to.  Have you ever sat through a session on philosophy, intent on 'learning this stuff', only to find yourself nodding off (for me, a result of not fully understanding what the speaker has to say and - truth be told - what he/she did say was boring)?  Well, none of this here.  I was fully present through every one of the 90 minutes that Sally spoke.

Then came the stories -- stories of Durga, Kali, Lakshmi & Saraswati; though we made it just deeply into Kali last night.  I love to teach a class, using the icons of Hindu deities that rest on the puja at The Yoga Center.  First caveat to students -- I don't pray to or worship these statues, they are here to contemplate, to remind me of their 'stories', their qualities and flaws, and - perhaps - to incorporate some of the positive attributes these deities represent into my life.

Her guided meditation was powerful -- leading us into a space that took us up to Kali, introduced us to her, and offered us use of her 'tools' to begin our journey into understanding and embracing the Goddess energies around and in us.

We all, men and women, have the Goddess energies within us -- and our journey, our path, will be towards balancing them within ourselves.  Just enough of each to give us a powerful, compassionate, beautiful presence in the world.

So, it was good.  No need for the earlier trepidation.  I survived.  I learned.  And, I look forward to next week.  Though I need to find a land-line with a better speaker situation.  A bit of a stiff neck this morning from cradling the receiver.  A little yoga, perhaps?

First, tho, I've got to take this Mac in for a lesson and to figure out why the e-mail is being less than cooperative (couldn't be operator error, could it?).

Tots Yoga went o.k. yesterday -- as with all classes at The Yoga Center, growth is slow.  So, the fact that two were in the class for the first class was good.  I am glad it's Melissa and not me teaching that group -- would wear me out, not to mention the creativity required to keep their attention and work on their focus skills.  Whoaa!!

Gentle Yoga continues to grow.  Perhaps its just January and resolution fever; or perhaps it's a recognition that this movement is good for everyone.  This class, in particular, offers camaraderie, laughter, a bit of chatter, AND the magic of Anusara® Yoga.

Have a nice Thursday,

p.s. Grandson Story:  Part of Jack's Christmas present from me was a wall hanging made up of 4 OLD postcards of trains, framed and ready for hanging.  I hesitated sending it right at Christmas (not sure why); instead, sent it this week.  Got a call yesterday -- "Thank you for my picture, Grandma Leslie".  (Such a big boy for just being 3!)  I guess the surprise of a package in January was exciting for him.  The fact that this odd gift for a 3-year-old was well-received, tells you a bit about his enduring love for trains. It also tells me about the power of appreciation -- his call, his mother's description of his reaction, her expression of gratitude over this late gift -- all this makes me so happy.  There's a lesson there I need to remember.

TIME TO LEARN MORE ...

Going through my usual routine this a.m., and - while visiting Facebook - noticed a friend's comment about her state-of-mind.  Comments concurred; that it is a challenging time right now to 'keep our cool'.  One comment referred to 'Mercury Retrograde' and referenced a blog.  


Well, as with many things, I've not paid a lot of attention to Astrology in my life.  As I've become immersed in my practice and training, I hear more about it -- in particular the phenomenon referred to as 'Mercury Retrograde'.  Time to learn more.  Google.  Read.  Here is an excerpt from an on-line site (I looked at several and this, to me, gave an understandable and relatable explanation of the astrological phenomenon MR.):


Dec. 26, 2009 - Jan. 15, 2010
"What is Mercury Retrograde? Three, and sometimes four, times a year, the planet Mercury appears to be moving backwards in the sky for a period of approximately 3 weeks. "Appears" is the key word here, because, technically speaking, no planet actually moves backwards in their orbits around the Sun. In fact, they don't even slow down. Retrograde-station-direct cycles are essentially illusions that result from our point of view from Earth, simply because the Earth is also orbiting the Sun at a different speed than the other planets. Mercury turns retrograde more frequently than any other planet. It can never be more than 28 degrees from the Sun, and whenever it reaches its furthest distance from the Sun, it appears to change direction.


As the planet of communication, Mercury retrograde tends to breed a certain level of confusion. Mercury rules our "lower" mind--how we perceive and interpret information that we receive from our environment, and how we relay that information to others. Mercury has rulership over such things as speaking, negotiating, buying and selling, listening, formal contracts, documents, travel, the mail and shipping, and so forth. All of these areas of life are affected when Mercury is functioning in a sluggish state. Decision-making is challenged during Mercury retrograde. Needless to say, it is not advised to sign contracts, engage in important decision-making, or launch a new business. Delays and challenges are more probable with Mercury retrograde. It's a time when being careless with money, our personal information, or paperwork can be costly.


There is a positive side to Mercury Retrograde. This period is best used for re-organizing and reflecting. We look at the world a little differently--through different filters--and can come up with some very important inner revelations. It may be difficult to communicate them under this influence, but not everything needs to be rationalized. Mercury retrograde periods can be times of heightened inner awareness, when meditation, benefiting from keeping a journal, reworking old plans, and reviewing past work are favored. Minor breaks in the mechanical aspects of communication can actually re-connect us to other means of communication, such as when there is an unexpected power outage and we're forced off the computer and television, finding different and often satisfying ways to entertain ourselves."


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So, now we know.  One person's astrologic interpretation stated that this is a good time to clear out old issues and align for new movement in our life.  I like that -- sets the stage for the shift in my teaching.  Which, interestingly, I felt strongly yesterday.  


Yesterday's YogaHour included a nice group of 7 students; 3 newer to the practice (as in, they had each done one class prior to yesterday's).  Additionally, one had a number of physical issues which didn't create pain, but did affect movement.  What 'shift' did I feel?  A comfort level teaching the levels of experience and the compromised physical issues that presented themselves.  I was able to teach, have fun, tell a story as we moved through Warriors I, II & III (Virabhadra's "birth" -- especially fun since one of the students in class had great dreadlocks), all while incorporating my one-word theme of 'expansion'.   


Today?  A new class - Yoga for Tots (not taught by me).  I'll go in to orient the instructor to the studio.  The class runs 9-9:35 am; then at 10 am, I will teach Gentle Yoga.  Tonight - Sally Kempton Teleconference.  


Enjoy your Wednesday,

FINALLY ...

Tomorrow night my studies will expand as I begin a 3-class teleconference series conducted by Sally Kempton, "Dancing With The Divine Feminine".

Previously, I have read her book and many of the articles she has written (I literally printed each out from her website, read each, checking them off as read; devouring the information she transmits in her writing.).  For a couple years now, I have received invitations to participate in one of these series; the time wasn't right or schedule didn't work -- something always in the way.  The next 3 Wednesday evenings I'm keeping open, just for this.

I notice a bit of trepidation.  I know how to act in an asana workshop, I know how to conduct myself in a yoga training;  I have not, however, placed myself in a dedicated philosophy/meditation workshop or training - until now.  It's happened sporadically (i.e. Paul Muller-Ortega in Park City a couple years ago, and John's messages during the many workshops & trainings I've attended with him).  Or, as mentioned above, through reading -- Sally's work, Douglas Brooks' writings, Paul Muller-Ortega; plus the many cd's and dvd's out there.  Can't forget the Immersions -- got lots of philosophy there, as well.

My knowledge, or lack thereof, will be revealed -- to me.  I almost wrote 'to Sally and everyone participating'.  Take that back -- I am most worried that I will realize how much I don't know.  To be honest, the philosophy has been tough to absorb.  Perhaps because, in the Immersions especially, there was so much being offered, that I just was not able to fully embrace it all.

Not that I haven't learned anything over the years -- I do notice that each time I re-visit a reading or a point of philosophy, it becomes clearer.  Maybe it won't be as bad as I worry it will be.  No better time than the present to find out and start to fix it.  Right?  Right!

Besides, I am excited to work with Sally and the other who will participate -- a great opportunity.  I'll keep you posted.

This morning I will trek down to Wayne's class, then some errands, then to The Yoga Center to meet with a prospective instructor and to teach YogaHour at 4.

Hope you have a great day,

MONDAY NOTES

The first full week of January was a great one, and I am excited to begin week two.  My resolutions, for the most part, are in place -- especially the 'biggie'.

Using the word 'biggie' in reference to one of the biggest journeys of my present life reminds me of a major irritation.  What better place than this blog to get it off my chest.

What IS is it about the use of the words 'peeps' and 'pals' that irritates me when I read them used in relation to someone's yoga students?  Perhaps it falls into the same category as the waitperson who calls us 'guys' when walking up to our table.  When looking at a couple (male, age 65; female, age 60), what possesses a 20-30 year old to call us 'guys'?    (Perhaps I shouldn't be so picky -- just looked up 'guys' in the on-line dictionary and it is a "noun, when used informally refers to people of either sex".)

Maybe the key to my irritation is the word "informal"; and that the use of this 'informal' way of referencing students/friends reflects a casual (and grasping?) attitude towards the relationship.  As though, if we refer to our students with familiarity they will feel included, part of the group, and - therefore - stick with us, who cares how good our teaching is?

This whole thought process goes back to the "look at my audience" teaching that Sundari emphasized in our training in October.  A comment heard one way by one person, will take on a totally different meaning to another.  A comment meant as a compliment, may be heard as a criticism (I know this one to be true; the student had the 'moxie' to tell me.).  I think we can apply the same formula to how we refer to the people we are teaching.

When I look at students, I try to see individuals; and it takes me a while to know the nuances of their yoga class personalities.   I am not sure I will ever use informal verbiage to refer to our relationship -- these relationships are too valuable to assign cliches to (cliche:  a noun defined as a phrase that is overused and lacks original thought).   Whoa !!  Just reading that definition will discourage me from using the offending words.

So, now that I've spouted a bit -- my task is to find another word than 'biggie' to refer to my 2010 efforts.

Have a great Monday & week,

(p.s. 'peeps' is defined as a high-pitched sound (says nothing about 'people'); and 'pals' are defined as good friends or in expressions of anger, as in "back off, pal.)

HANUMANASANA (finally)

Saturday, Jan. 9, 2010 -- mark the date!  Why?  Because after months of preparation and waiting, I finally taught hanumanasana as the apex pose in my 9 am class.

What's the big deal? (you might ask)  Well, each time I have prepared and worked towards teaching a sequence leading to this particular pose, the class composition has just not been right.  That is one of the perils of an all-level class -- I am never quite sure who will walk in the door.  At one end of the room may be a very experienced student; at the other, a student newer to the practice who might never return if I threw that pose at them.

Once again, don't get me wrong, I teach the group; but, so far, the group has been small.  So, you might say, I am in a preparation and cultivation stage.  Preparing - i.e., making the name of the class more approachable (Level 1, instead of Anusara-Inspired™ Level 1), so people will come (or, as one person said, not think the class is too 'fancy').  Cultivating - keeping the class truly basic, so I don't scare people away (who me?).

Yesterday, tho, in walked a group of students all with enough experience to work safely towards the pose.  Then, the challenge was in my court -- as in, do I have the 'moxie' to teach such a pose?  Especially when you consider that my hips still have a few more inches to travel to get to the floor.  About halfway through the class, doubt raised it's ugly head -- I found myself looking at the group and wondering "why do I think I can teach them anything new or "ah-ha" about this pose?", "what audacity!"

Then, I remembered that, in my carefully-crafted intro, I told them we were working towards the pose (using a wise teacher's admonition that a student who knows they are working to a challenging pose, and that all the work in advance is good and safe preparation, will work with a bit more intensity).  I had committed myself; no way could I back out without looking like a coward (in my mind).  And, as I looked around the room, I could see that each person was capable and mindful enough to give the pose a go.  Therefore, I also was not able to blame backing out on their lack of wherewithal.

We must move on.  Shove 'doubt' out the back door and continue.  Well, long story short -- everyone made it.  Not quite to the floor, but there were a few ah-ha moments along the way.  Have you ever thought bringing your back heel to your glute (in a kneeling lunge) would be an ah-ha moment?  Well, it was in this class.  And, a good preparation for hanumanasana (a-la Desiree).

Doubt desist darkening Leslie's door !!!

Have a restful Sunday,

IS IT A 'JANUARY' THING?

I know I mentioned yesterday that the YogaHour classes were well attended this week -- same thing for Gentle Yoga.  Wednesday's Gentle class has been strongly attended for a few months now, but the Friday class has limped along attendance-wise; that is, until yesterday.

As I sat in the office at 9:45 I began to hear the door opening, shoes being stowed, footsteps on the stairs -- and it continued.  Right up until the start of class!  And, like Wednesday, when I walked into the room to start class, it took a few moments to quiet the group.  That same friendly energy, everyone talking, laughing, waiting for their class to begin.  Love it.

We 'journeyed' through the body, starting at the head and progressively moving down to the feet.  Gentle movement at first, then we moved to the wall for some standing poses.  I am encouraging wider stances, and - where the student is able - the wall gives a stable support for the back foot.  Then, I tried something rarely seen in my Gentle Yoga classes -- a partner pose (clasp wrists, back up and stretch).  They liked it -- who knew!?!?   Lesson here:  never underestimate my students.

So, back to my question -- is the increased attendance I've been privileged to, the result of January intentions/resolutions?  or, a trend for the future?   No matter -- I will enjoy the enlivened attendance numbers and - if I do my job well - these and more people will discover the value of yoga in their lives.

Today, 9 a.m. Level 1 (notice I've shortened the name - as much as I'd like people to know and understand 'Anusara-Inspired™'; for a while, I'll keep it (the class name) short.

Have a nice Saturday and weekend,

SMALL JOURNEYS YIELD BIG RESULTS

I took my students on journeys yesterday -- journeys away from their center, their comfort zone.  All thanks to MariaCristina.  Her recent blog was the source of this inspiration (Is that stealing?  I did give her credit for the original thought.), and I did modify it to fit my and my students' situations.  The thought was SO good, I couldn't resist.

And, Wayne used a similar theme in his class.  I used to think yoga teachers had a secret network, where they shared ideas and class plans.  It would never fail that I'd go to one class, then the next day arrive for a different teacher's class only to hear and do many of the same things!  I even asked once or twice about this.  To be told that 'no, that's just how the universe works - how the energy moves'.  I believe it now.

Both days this week, YogaHour has been very well attended -- is it the New Year? or something else?  No matter, I have been thoroughly enjoying having great energy in the room.

Yesterday's class was a mix of old (not age) and newer students, but almost everyone had been in my class prior to yesterday.  The one new student was obviously well-trained in her yoga.  So - as rarely happens in my classes - I was able to teach the entire group the same things, offering just a couple modifications.   Able to practice some of the 'drills' Christina Sell has been offering us through the mentoring course, and able to enjoy and marvel at the steadfast and graceful movement happening in the room.  What Fun!

As I re-read this post, I must say that some of these students started yoga with me.  So, to see the results of their studentship and my teaching is indeed gratifying.   Some might say "why are you surprised, you know this stuff".  I suppose it is because I am just experiencing students who began studying with me (with no previous knowledge) and are routinely coming to my classes; therefore, I am now witnessing the results of my work and their committed effort.  Good stuff.

Gentle Yoga this morning at 10 am, then an appointment to learn more about my Mac.

TGIF,

JUST AS I THOUGHT . . .

Gentle Yoga yesterday was FUN.  Fun to see my students, fun to teach, fun to laugh -- a great group and unlike so many yoga classes you might find yourself in.  This one, the students talk to one another, share stories, introduce themselves -- amazing and wonderful.

In the spirit of being 'free spirits', the students feel comfortable and secure enough to give me a bit of my own medicine (as in, guff).  That doesn't mean they don't pay attention and don't do the things asked of them, it means that they are able to do those things with a lightheartedness.  And, if it (the work I am asking them to do) gets a bit much, I am sure to hear about that, as well.

By the way, I looked up the word "guff" before using it -- I found words I had never used or heard of before.  Check these out:  piffle, poppycock, malarkey, hokum, codswallop, flapdoodle -- and that's not all.  Check out guff or nonsense in your thesaurus.  How about if I had typed:  "give me a bit of my own medicine (as in, codswallop)".  Would you have known what I meant?  I wouldn't have; I do now, tho.

Back to the topic at hand.  We used the wall a bunch yesterday -- what a great tool to teach students principles without wearing them out in more intense poses.

Then, it was on to the Jail.  We have recently changed from teaching men to teaching minimum security women.  Whole different atmosphere in class; and, to be honest, I am struggling with that.  The men were respectful, listened carefully, did all they were told.  The women?  Well, no offense ladies, but in this setting they are less-than-attentive, complain (whine?) more than the men, are less willing to give some poses even a try.  That's not a blanket evaluation, because there are some who do take the class seriously; and, you can tell they are not appreciating the ones who are talking, whispering, giggling, etc.    Forces me to put on my 'stern mother' face and voice, which is not what I want to do in teaching situations.  Maybe I could use "don't give me any of your flapdoodle today"; think that would work?  Enough.

Don't you love when things come full circle?

So, today -- Wayne's class, then YogaHour at 4 pm and Level 1 at 5:45 pm.

Have a nice Thursday,

A BIT EXCITED . . .

It seems like forever since I've seen my "gentle yoga" students.  Will teach the class this morning at 10, and  am sitting at the computer pondering what to teach.

This class requires a certain nimbleness -- as in, you are never sure who will walk in and what that student will be dealing with physically.  The longer I teach this group, the more 'nimble' I become.  I will create a plan, a sequence, etc., and some days walk in to a group in which there is one person who no way can do what I've planned.  You might say "but, you're teaching the group".  Yes, but - in this case - it's a smaller group, some with special considerations, so 'teaching the group' doesn't always work.

To me, this kind of teaching is my choice.

I've met with and heard from several newer teachers in the community this past week.  All looking for places in which to teach their new skills.  In each case, I've asked them to tell me what type of class they are comfortable teaching and what population they prefer.  As new yoga teachers, it is always comfortable to teach what we know best and that usually emulates our own practice.

One of the blessings of my teaching so far is that I have been thrown a few curve balls that have enhanced my teaching skills.  For example:

• Volunteer Teaching in the Justice System:  Has taught me how to teach a class using only my verbal skills -- no way are we allowed to touch prisoners.  So, I have to become creative; I've learned how incorporate one of my earliest lessons - saying an instruction 3 different ways (taken from my first Teacher Training with John Friend).  Because not everyone hears an instruction the same way.  What a way to expand my ability to speak instructions.
• Teaching at the Community Center for the Deaf:  In addition to some signing skills, this experience taught me to think ahead.  If someone can't hear you, then how do they know how long to stay in child's pose?  If you've been teaching Anusara Yoga for a while, you'll know that it is EXTREME multi-tasking.  Add to that, thinking ahead; what will we do next and how will I communicate it to the class.  
• Speaking to a group of IRS managers about how to relax:  Wow, that was a bit tougher than I thought.  Imagine 200 people sitting around tables in a huge conference-type room.  They've been in meetings all day, they're in street clothes, and they're looking to you to tell them how to relax!  That tested my ability to talk for 2 hours, to give them exercises they could do at their desks and/or at home, to teach them those same exercises while in the comfort(?) of this setting.  For someone who  used to hyperventilate at the prospect of speaking to even 10 people, this was truly a growth experience and revelation for me.  

Just like Trichonasana, my whole teaching experience has been growing and evolving.  All these less-than-typical teaching situations have given me gifts I would have scoffed at 5 years ago.  

Last night, I heard from a teacher in South Dakota who is developing a yoga program for Iraq and Afghanistan Veterans.  Wow!  The things we can do when we put our minds to it and when we step out of the conventional classroom and - maybe - our comfort zone.  

Have a great Wednesday,

CHANTING & OTHER NOTES

Well, each day I have chanted the Hanuman Chaleesa, per the '30-day Yoga Tigress Challenge'.  I have not, yet, felt the inclination to do the pose (hanumanasana) -- just hasn't fit into my practices.  But I will, because that was a personal challenge from over a year ago.

Story - a good friend who I see at many of the trainings and workshops I attend, was the hit of one workshop when he demonstrated his hanumanasana for the group.  That was inspirational.  To see someone about my age, who - I remember - had a hip issue a few years back, doing the pose with ease caused me to think "I can work towards that, also".  And, I have worked at it.  I am further into the pose, but not to the floor yet.

Other Notes:  Going to San Francisco to John's Immersion training in February.  Several reasons to attend:

• First, this will be his opportunity to introduce the changes the curriculum committee agreed upon for Immersion Trainings last month.  
• Second, it's the kick-off of the year's "Melt Your Heart, Blow Your Mind" world tour for him.  Not that I want my mind 'blown', but I do think it will be exciting and energizing to begin the year with this training.  
• Third, no Tucson training this year.

For 5 years, I have trooped down to Tucson in February.  The first couple of years, I attended just the weekend workshop; following years, I stepped up and began attending the week-long trainings.   It was a perfect venue -- the Historic "Y", close to the University; which has been sold; thus, no more venue.  So, change -- this year we go to San Francisco.    

Then, a weekend in Driggs, doing a workshop with Christina.  That will be fun -- practicing with people I know and with a teacher I have great respect and admiration for.

But, before all this February stuff, I will do a teleconference series (3 classes) in January with Sally Kempton.   A meditation and contemplative workshop focusing on the goddess energies - their impact on the world and on us individually.  I have never studied with this teacher before; heard great things and have read her book 'The Heart of Meditation'.  Will keep you posted.

So, the study continues.  If any of my students are reading this, please note the study never ends. If it did, then the practice could become boring -- just going through same movement, stagnating so to speak.

Wayne's class this a.m., YogaHour at 4 pm.

Enjoy your day,

POST #250

Yes, it is -- astonishing for me to think that I have been writing this blog for almost a year (I think I started around Valentine's Day 2009).

In the beginning, it was a bit of a stretch to put my thoughts on 'paper'.  Then, it got easier; I felt myself becoming more animated, more free in the writing.  Then - when I attached it to Facebook - I felt pressure, pressure to write; pressure to write well - worrying that the larger audience, consisting of many more friends and peers, was sitting out there and judging me (big ego, eh?).  It was not quite so easy to write then.  So, I discontinued the automatic link to Facebook.  Occasionally, when I feel truly 'inspired' in my writing, I'll post a link.  That takes much of the pressure off, and I am moving back to the animated, free feeling I experienced in the beginning.

I just finished my 'homework' for Christina Sell's on-line mentoring series.  Today's assignment, write a  class plan to introduce and teach Trichonasana to beginners.

I have never thought of Trichonasana as much of a 'beginner' pose; maybe because it took me a LONG time to get to it, and I still find myself working hard in the pose.  Now, when I do the pose, I remember Christina's teaching of the pose in July at The Yoga Center, where she asked us to place 1/3 of our weight into the lower arm, then LIFT the front foot.  My version was NOT pretty; but each time I do the pose since then, I notice more and more weight moving into that arm.  And, I visualize taking that foot off the floor.

All this to tell you that 12 years into this practice, I am still learning even from the 'beginner' poses.

We have 2 more sessions with Christina (12 in all).  It's been a great experience for me -- so, here's an endorsement.  Uninterrupted teaching, lots of great information, and lots of tips for putting it all into the play of our teaching.  And - for me - it makes the play more fun, more meaningful; I hope my students would say the same.

Enjoy your Monday,

HANUMAN CHALEESA

Songs in praise of Hanuman.  The January 'challenge' posed by Amy in the "30 Day Yoga Tigress Challenge" on Facebook.

Sounds simple enough.  Sing/chant the Chaleesa 3 times a day for the 30 days of January.  I can do this.  But, wait -- the chaleesa is 40 verses long -- something I had not realized before yesterday.  Had never seen it in print, just heard it chanted.  Now, I know.  40 verses.

One of the 'challenge' participants wrote that he/she is beginning by memorizing 4 verses a day.  Do you know how long it took me to memorize the Anusara chant (which is 4 verses total)?  A long time; as in a couple months before I really got it.  So, memorizing 4 verses a day appears to be a stretch for me.

I have started, tho.  Chanted it along with Krishna Das (his ssllloooowwwww version) yesterday 3 times; and again this morning.  Then I just listened to it (maybe it will osmose into my consciousness).  Amy does say that having it playing for much of the time is helpful to being able to memorize it.

But, that's not all -- when we practice, we ought to try hanumanasana 3 times, as well.  Didn't do that yesterday, but might try it today.

The good of all this:  verse 38 -- "Jo sata baara paata kara koee chootahi bandi mahaa sukha hoee"; translation:  'whoever recites this a hundred times is released from bondage and gains bliss'.   Verse 39 goes on to tell us that 'one who reads this Hanuman Chaleesa gains success. . .".  So, bliss and success plus a significant mental exercise.

I have read it, I am chanting it.  Having started yoga at an advanced age, with cynical inclinations well implanted, I'll keep you posted on the outcomes.  I am finding it a soothing way to start my mornings.

Enjoy Sunday,

MY FIRST BLOG OF 2010 !!!

As we drove home yesterday, I had lots of time to think about 2010.  What it holds, what I hope to accomplish, the things I need to keep working on, even visualizing my hopes and dreams coming true.  I have set an intention that it will be a good year -- even tho I know there is a lot of work, personally, to be done, and acknowledging there will be a lot of issues related to family.

One year, when I was newer to yoga and Sanskrit, I used the word 'bhavana' as in 'set your bhavana (resolution)'.  Then, I thought Sanskrit was a more 'black & white' type of language; today, I know differently.  Depending on the translation you read, words can mean several things depending on who is doing the translating.

Today, bhavana still sticks in my head.  So, I 'googled' it -- Wikipedia defines it as 'development of' (i.e. citta-bhavana -- development of consciousness).  Sort of close to resolution.  When you set a resolution, you may be hoping to develop something.

So, I'll use bhavana again this year -- this time in a way perhaps closer to it's correct translation.  It will be very applicable, as I work to continue 'developing' my skills as a yoga teacher and yoga student.

My best to everyone for 2010!