THREE WAYS . . .

A written mis-communication yesterday led to my pondering the 'three ways' rule and it's application.

What's the 'three ways' rule?  When teaching, I need to have three ways to say an instruction. Why? Because not everyone is going to understand an instruction on the first round - they may try to do it, just like I say it, but it's not really 'clicking' with their body or their mind. Say it again, in a different way, and it 'clicks'.  I was told this by JF in my first teacher training with him.

An example:

     ME:   "sit up straight"
     STUDENTS:  "what?"
     ME:   "from your hips to your armpits, grow tall; lift your heart and extend the crown of your head to the ceiling"
     STUDENTS:  Sitting straighter, but lifting chin.
     ME:   "as you sit taller through your torso, release your chin slightly - your gaze straight ahead"

This example happened yesterday in YogaHour. Just following the 'miscommunication incident', I used communication as the word for the class. I also told them about the 'three ways' rule. A light-hearted group, the first "what?" was meant simply as joke on me and my theme (I had also commented that it was o.k. in my classes to say 'what?' whenever an instruction needed further explanation.).

Throughout the class, tho, I found several places where I used the rule. I had to find 'three ways' to say instructions. The interesting point is that when I used it, it wasn't for the complex - it was, many times, for the simple instructions (like "straighten your knee"). Perhaps we get into poses, our bodies get set, our minds embrace where we're at, and when someone comes along to change (or enhance) it, inner rebellion happens and we don't respond immediately.

My own personal example is that for the first several years of my practice, teachers repeatedly asked me to 'straighten both elbows in down dog'. I always thought 'what? they are straight'. It wasn't until someone asked me to 'hug my forearms to the midline', that I felt the strength of both arms working and the instruction 'clicked'.

All this to say, I never should begin exchanges via e-mail or Facebook that might better be handled verbally.  But, if I ever do it again, I'm not sure the 'three way' rule is good for written communication - by the time I find the right way to say something, too much damage can be done (topic for another post).

Today's class is Gentle Yoga at 10 am. Some of them read this, so I may be employing the 'three way' rule for them, as well (pranksters, that they are).

Sending my love to AJ, Jeff & Harper Grace. Such grace AJ is displaying in this difficult time.

Have a nice Wednesday,

TEACHING & PRACTICING

I missed yesterday due to computer issues -- thinking it's my internet connection, but I did devote valuable computer time to updating software yesterday. Time that could have been used writing a blog entry, but wasn't. Oh, well.

Subbed for Sheldon on Sunday. I'm always a bit nervous when teaching for someone who is more vigorous in their teaching style; so this is good for me -- kickin' it up a notch. Turns out that no one who regularly attends his class attended on this morning. No set expectations - a good thing. Multiple levels in the room - a challenging thing. On the one end, very skilled; on the other, returning from injury so a bit tentative; inbetween, solid practices.  In these circumstances, I return to 'default' mode. I taught a sequence leading to the variations of vascistasana; easy to modify, easy to take to advanced variations. So - my thought process is that I can have everyone in the room in some form of celebration (or, organic extension). Make sense?

Monday, taught the Level 1 at Kula. Kula will 'cease to operate' on June 30, so this was my last class. I wonder where my few regular students will go? Feel bad, since I didn't really have a chance to tell some of them or to say 'see you later' - somewhere.

Noon brought a 3-hour practice with Adam and some of the group from Kula. Interesting that mid-week, and mid-day (12-3) brought so many people out. It was fun and certainly 'hip-opening'.  Even a foray towards scorpion using the walls for most.

Got workshop approval notice for John in Park City in August -- thought that might not happen, since I applied late. More exciting than that? To have a student tell me that he had taken my advice, had applied and was accepted. So nice to watch the people who have been in your classes step up. So now, waiting for Immersion note, as I guess many are - supposed to come June 30 (tomorrow!).

After my last Park City workshop, I wonder if he (JF) will expect me to do all 8 sessions (or, will he remember)? One thing about John - if it's worth remembering, he will. He might call me 'Linda' instead of 'Leslie', but he does remember the things I do (or can't do). I'll forgive him the name part, since I suffer the same malady; it's also a bit funny after all these years. Always 'Linda' - every time, at least once.

Just re-read this post -- sounds a bit clipped; as though I were typing bullet points about my life. Busy day -- taking one car in for service, on to Wayne's class, then to airport, then to teach YogaHour.

Hope your Tuesday is a good one,

ON SATURDAY . . .

Well, you already know about my early morning yesterday -- computer and blog time.  I notice a couple people have become 'fans' or 'friends' on Facebook of "The Art of Attention". Not sure if it was my blog or just their own curiosity; no matter, just interesting how the energy moves.

I finished with the computer, after deciding that a class plan with 'current impossibilities' would be a good thing - a theme about acceptance, gratitude, and growth. I think acceptance and gratitude are great; but, if I leave off 'growth' - not so good. If I only accept and am grateful, then I kind of close the door to growth. Kind of like my bakasana - pretty good at it now. I could accept that and be grateful. Continue doing it for the rest of my time on the mat. Forget that there is more to be done and explored in the pose - variations that I've approached, but not conquered. Not easy things; things I might want to think I'm not able to do. That is a place I don't want to be; there's still space for growth in that bakasana.

Quickly got ready and made my way to The Yoga Center. Swamp cooler did get fixed, so not too warm in there. Checked out the room, did some paperwork as I waited for students to arrive.  Filming the class, so hoping for a decent turnout.

Enough to film - camera on.

My sequence unraveled a bit, as questions developed during a foray into vascisthasana. Several in the room were having difficulties - heat, wrists, arms. Easy to solve the heat issue - turned the fan on. The wrists and arms led into a discussion of hand placement, hand strength, and the movement of prana through the supporting arm.  It will be interesting to see how this class looks on film.

Class over, home for lunch. Then, up to Snowbird for a practice with Jen & Matt. Great fun to do 3 hours of yoga with people I know and some I don't. Laugh a bit, sweat a bit, discover I can get a bit further into some poses than I could a month ago.

On today's schedule?  Subbing for Sheldon at 10:15 at Kula.

Hope you have a nice Sunday,

CURRENT IMPOSSIBILITIES

I read the two words 'current impossibilities' in an on-line course for changing our behavior and attitude towards ourselves and others. I was led to the course out of curiosity about Elena Brower - Anusara® Teacher (extraordinaire, I think - I'm not exaggerating), from New York.  (A reminder -- Elena was to lead the 10,000 person+ class in Central Park this past week. She started the class, only to have a thunderstorm roll in.)

When asked by a friend about the experience, albeit short, Elena's response:  "AMAZING. It was great. I gave them 10 minutes of pure heart."

I think it's interesting that there was no complaint, no statement like, 'darn rain' or 'could the Park Service have let us do it anyway'. No blame. Just acceptance and gratitude for the 10 minutes she did have in this situation.  Lots to contemplate in these last 2 paragraphs.

As I wove my way through her blog, website, etc., I came to a site called "The Art of Attention". Lots to contemplate here, also. What caught my attention first, tho, was the statement "If you're comfortable with your current impossibilities, stop here."

Now I'm wondering what are my 'current impossibilities'?  Here's a short list:

• Older
• Heavier
• Less flexible
• Philosophically inept
• Socially, a bit underdeveloped

O.K., so that's a short list (I probably could go on, but why ruin a nice morning). If I examine each, what   and why is it a 'current impossibility' or is it?

• Older - well, not a lot I can do about this. Can't turn the clock back physically. I can, however, be more youthful in my attitude.  Resist the temptation to pull the 'age card'. 
• Heavier - this I can change; it doesn't have to be an 'impossibility', unless I choose to let it.
• Less flexible - yes, I am. I accept that and I work with that. More disciplined work might change it more quickly.
• Philosophically inept - I feel this every time I write a class plan, theme or story; as in, what's the philosophical link. How do I express this link so that I feel authentic about it and others embrace it. Practice and study.
• Socially, a bit underdeveloped - how I wish I had stepped out of the comfort zone and into yoga in my 20's, 30's or early 40's. Just look at how I've changed in the past 13 years (if you don't know me personally, you won't be able to relate --- that may mean everyone reading this post). The change, to me, is palpable.

Well, I just put 5 'current impossibilities' to rest.  They are no longer in the 'impossibility' category. Each requires work; I can do the work. 

The important thing to note in this exercise -- I am not comfortable with having these 'impossibilities' as a part of my life. 

On another note, I met a most amazing student yesterday -- a student who has come to yoga in her early 50's. A nurse by profession, she is waking up to her body. Says she always thought yoga would be good for her, but didn't have an opportunity to give it a committed attempt until recently. In each class, she finds and comments on the 'ah-ha' moments. She is so aware of what is happening that it's tempting to throw her into the lake of knowledge and, perhaps, have her sink (remember the sponge analogy). Over-saturate her with all the lingo and nuances of the practice; slow down, pace myself. 

Love it when students take the time to tell me what/how yoga is affecting their lives. So good to hear.  

Teaching at 9 - Level 1 at The Yoga Center, then practice from 1-4. 

Hot here; hope your Saturday is a good one, 

TGIF . . .

As I typed the title, I wondered why -- my 'work' weeks do not look at all like they did 17 years ago. No more do I have weekends totally free; Friday signaling the end of work, the beginning of play. Yet, old habits die hard. I celebrate Fridays even tho the old meaning is different today.

Take this Friday, for example.  I will teach this morning - Gentle Yoga (hopefully, the swampcooler guy will arrive in a timely fashion, be able to quickly fix the issue with the cooler, and be gone by 10). Then, it's a relatively free afternoon (from teaching). There is a lot of paperwork and a newsletter to be done, so I may just stick around for a while and take care of those things.

Saturday, I teach at 9 am; then, hope to drive up to Snowbird (local ski resort with a great hotel/spa), for a practice with Matt & Jen. Always good for me to practice with friends; takes me a little further into the poses than I might push myself if I am alone.

Sunday, I offered to sub for Sheldon at Kula at 10:15.

So, no weekend away from yoga. Fortunately, yoga has become a cornerstone of my life and the fact that there is no weekend is not a negative.

Going through my notes looking for a 'pebble' of knowledge to share. I came across notes from a workshop with Desiree Rumbaugh. These quotes, while a couple years old, are still applicable and still worthy of contemplation. The one starred is the one I use most - so true, I think. Contemplate and decide which one (or more) works best for you:

1. "Anusara Yoga equalizes a room."
2. "This practice of yoga keeps us growing."
3. "You must be strong to become flexible."
4. "People who do yoga sometimes stay weak - they back away from the work."
5. "The reason we do yoga is to feel better."
6. "The chant is a blessing to make this different."
7. "It's only a dance -- as yogis, we don't care so much, but we care deeply."
8. "Most people who quit yoga, do so because they discover it is work." ***

Enjoy your Friday,

HEADED BACK . . .

Yup, back to my SLC reality this afternoon. I believe (I haven't heard otherwise) that all my subs were in their designated spots, and that classes went off as planned. I did hear, however, that the swamp cooler is not working at its prime cooling level (not what you want to hear if you own an upstairs studio in a warm climate). Initial reports were that the pump may have died - a simple issue to repair, but getting someone there while I'm out of town is a logistical issue. I hope that the repairperson was able to get in during one of the classes yesterday and take care of the problem.

I suppose I'll hear more later on that issue.

On this visit I accomplished a few things - and developed a plan, of sorts. This planning depends on the sale of assets, so that must happen first. In the meantime, I need to cut care costs wherever possible -- meaning I may have to move my Mother again. This is something you do not need to hear about, but just sharing.

Contrary to my good common sense, I attended another cardio class last night. I certainly am lacking in the 'move with the beat' skills. But, I kept myself safe, got my heart rate elevated for a significant period of time, and sweat a bit. All good things.

The photoshoot results are in. One thing for sure -- Leslie is now officially on a campaign to drop some weight (aka 'diet'). Photos do not lie, and - while they were good photos - they show me at less-than-desirable weight level. I will use the face shots, the studio shots, and a few where things are a bit obscured. Certainly would not fit the category of 'yoga model'. Live and learn - still.

Hope you have a good Thursday,

REMINDED . . .

I just read a blog and the author's story reminded me of a student's comment to me after class last week. A story/comment worth sharing. A story of the little-recognized effects of yoga on our lives.

Student B arrived in my class about three months ago. Like many women, she had spent many years taking care of family, perhaps working, but not much time had been spent on her own physical health. She came to me to try yoga, to "remember her power" (my words for what I commonly see).

One thing I witness in women and men who have not done much physically since high school or college, is a loss of 'body awareness'. This particular student fit perfectly into this mold - little body awareness, but - at the same time - she maintained a relatively fit-looking physicality. Deceiving. Put her on a mat and ask her to step the right leg back, and it became apparent. I am sure her body contained the strength to do the movement, her emotions did not trust her body; she didn't know (or remember) to what extent she could move.

B has come to class each week, sometimes twice a week (with a couple exceptions), since starting my class. She is anything but a giver-upper. Her coordination and strength improves each week.

Last week, she waited after class and told me of an unexpected result of her yoga practice.  She had traveled to attend a family celebration - a celebration that required a good bit of organization.  Problem was, no one had attended to many of the details. As the event began to unravel, B stood up and took charge. While it wasn't her job - she was only an invitee - she made decisions, she delegated, she took control of an otherwise-chaotic situation. The result? Event happened, event was a success.

While some may have done this, yoga or not, B gives credit to the yoga for her ability to stand taller, to project a confidence she had not before, to get the job done. She took charge.

I love these stories. They make the study, the planning, the teaching, the cajoling, the patience needed at times, the insecurity at times - they make it all worthwhile.  They help me stand taller.

I should never underestimate my power or my ability to affect peoples' lives - even if it's not physically visible at the moment.  As I said earlier, B's practice improves each week. Her poses are stronger and more aligned each time I see her on the mat. She's like a sponge; one that was wrung out to the point of almost being dry - each time it's as if the sponge were sitting in a small amount of water and is slowly, but determinedly, moving towards fullness.

Have a nice Wednesday -- sun is shining here. Hope it's shining where you are.

Oh?

I post this blog on Facebook whenever I have written something that others might find useful or of interest. Otherwise, I may write in it and just let those who routinely visit the blog find it as part of their regular reading routine.

Yesterday's post, I put on Facebook (tho, I'm not sure why). The response from a friend:  "Oh?"

I have wondered, for 20 hours, what that meant.  Could it be:

• Oh? You're contemplating change?
• Oh? You're going to plan?
• Oh? Why plan, you aren't that old.
• Oh? John said that?

Maybe I should ask that friend what the meaning was. Maybe she'll read this post and tell me. Maybe I should just stop fretting about it. Maybe, maybe, maybe.

So, my day yesterday was somewhat uneventful -- met with the realtor and went over details of making the house look more fit to sell, visited an assisted living facility (we may be looking at a move in order to shave some expenses). On today's schedule:  some yoga with Karen, an appointment with an eldercare attorney to discuss financial planning to maximize resources, squeeze in a visit with parents.

I am anxious for the yoga (especially after the cardio class last night - my cardio was o.k., but my ability to move 'with the beat' was woefully lacking and causes me to remember my humility). As to yoga, right now I plan to attend 2 classes; the first, a class for seniors (looking for new material for my teaching toolbox); the second, an all-levels class with Karen.  Both are at GreenStreet Yoga in Coeur d'Alene.

Back to the cardio class. It was fun, there were 12-14 women participating, and I did sweat. However, the yoga teacher in me (especially the alignment knowledge of that teacher) wanted to come screaming out -- as in 'don't go so deep in those tricep dips that you stress the front of your shoulder -- stay in control of the movement'. There were several moments like that. Moments that I made decisions about what to do for my own body's health; and worried a bit about the others. I stayed in control, tho, didn't blurt anything out; remembered to honor the teacher (the cardio teacher), by listening, doing what she said (almost), and smiling whenever possible.

So interesting to do something so very different than what we've become accustomed to.

I understand the sun is shining in Salt Lake; here, cool and foggy -- supposed to burn off and be a nice day. That would certainly elevate my mood.

Hope you have a nice Tuesday,

CHANGE . . .

I am in Spokane dealing with parental issues again.  Besides, it was Father's Day yesterday -- a good reason for a visit.  While I'm here, I'll help where I can -- meeting with realtor, meeting with lawyer, settling some outstanding financial issues, maybe making a doctor's appointment for my Mother.

Right now, tho, I'm sitting with a cup of coffee and my computer, checking e-mail, catching up on Facebook, and watching the rain from my cousin's family room window (oh, and writing in the blog).  Finally summer in SLC and I flew away from it !!!  House clean (for the housesitter, no less) and I flew away from it !!!  Oh, well.

A few months ago, I believe I commented about a friend's statement to me as we talked about our parents and their situations. She said, 'no matter what or how much you do, it will never be enough'. Finding that out, first hand. My mother is settled into an apartment in an assisted living complex, my father is in a skilled nursing facility down the road a bit. For my mother, who is struggling with depression (or dementia - since I hear they mask each other pretty well) it's o.k.; for my Dad, who is sometimes very sharp mentally, but physically unable to live elsewhere, it's not such a pleasant situation.  Try as we might, we can't force recovery on either person - we can only watch and try to make good decisions. Decisions that aren't always liked (by parents), but decisions nevertheless.

Sorry to dump on the blog, but once in a while . . .

I also wrote a few months ago that I would try to do a better job of planning than my own parents, so that my son and stepdaughter do not have to make these kinds of decisions without a plan. Add to the list, I will try to remember this time of my life and be appreciative of all efforts made. Aging is not easy and until you face it head-on, you really don't have a clue what's in store - hopefully, I am able to face it gracefully.

This relates in some ways to the friendly blog debate I witnessed recently between a more mature instructor and a fiery, younger instructor. One's viewpoint - we change as we age and that may affect the way we approach our yoga practice. As this person ages, she finds she has to be open to her practice changing from a fiery, energy-charged one, to a more contemplative, measured practice. Both are good. Both will serve us - just at different times of our life. We are not able to predict how our lives (or our practice) will change as we grow older (and wiser).  (I'm trying to relay the message here - hope it resonates with someone.) Basically, that different things are appropriate at different times of our lives.

I think it relates to the teaching John gives - that we can change our bodies, even create change for our children, if we work on new patterns of movement & alignment. A similar mental shift might also happen with the appropriate effort. Setting a goal, working towards it, implementing it and - voila - shift happens. Personally, I saw it happen when my son was born. My family is less-than-demonstrative and my tendency is to do/be likewise. I made a commitment at the time of Derek's birth to hug, cuddle, smooch, talk, etc., etc., etc., so he never doubted the love I felt for him. It worked - the shift happened. I see it in him as he relates to his children, his wife, his friends.  Enough.

I brought my video camera; not because I'm going to teach, but so I can download a couple videos onto the computer and then - hopefully - onto a DVD.

Going to try to get in a one or two classes at Garden Street Yoga (Karen Sprute-Francovich). And - going to a cardio class of some sort this evening with my cousin's wife, Susan, and a few of her friends. Haven't done anything like that for a LLOONNNGGGG time -- got to keep an open mind.

Hope your Monday is a good one,

THE GREAT RESISTANCE . . .

I attended a class last week in which the instructor talked about 'shri' (divine beauty). The context - that sometimes circumstances make it hard to see the 'shri' in all circumstances and people, but that it can happen if we soften. The personal story attached to this referenced students who will not - no matter how much cajoling - carry out an instruction (in this case, feet parallel).

We talked after class and shared ideas on how to deal with students who resist our instructions - is it that they don't like us? is it that they can't do it? is it that they don't want to do it? is it the way we are teaching?

It reminds me of S.F. earlier this year, where John made it clear that he gives students freedom to be expressive, but does demand students follow his lead. During the course of the week, I watched a young woman meticulously set up her mat and many small items that created a puja, of sorts. During our practices this student would do many of the poses, but was clearly in her own world - moving her arms and hands in distracting fashion, taking poses to places not asked for. After a couple days of noticing and correcting by John, she arrived and set up her mat; then disappeared, not to return.

I have to suspect that he (or someone) had a talk with her and suggested it would be better if she made a choice -- participate in the manner being asked, or not. Simple.

But, just try it -- tell someone they should choose coming to class or not. Doesn't sound easy; doesn't sound like something I want to do, hope I never have to do.

Once in a while, tho, in walks the student with expectations different from my own. Anxious to be in the class, but not anxious to do much more than the minimal work. That should be o.k.; but I have to tell you, for me, it's frustrating. To hear, over and over, reasons a pose can't be done, about muscle aches, about weak arms.

What to do? What to do when you have other students ready and eager to follow your lead, but one clearly not 'in the room' with everyone else?

From all this, you guessed it -- I had it happen. What did I do? I was patient, tried to be pleasant, tried not to get flustered, as I tried to accommodate this student and others (others who were doing o.k.). I walked away, however, shaking my head; wondering why -- trying to understand. Student was fit, had done yoga before, was flexible. I've had students resist certain poses before, but never every pose. So, maybe it was me, the way I was transmitting the teaching, my presentation of the material. That's not to say I wasn't doing it well, it's just one of those communication things -- maybe I reminded this student of someone she didn't like; an old school teacher; or, some authority figure. It could happen.

I'll just take a breath and move on. I doubt - unless I really read her wrong - that I'll have to tell her to make a choice.

The shri in this? That in typing and re-reading, I am not feeling all beat up about it. I know that my teaching will not resonate with everyone; I also know that it does agree with many. I did my best; it just wasn't or isn't always going to be the 'best class ever' for everyone. The fact that I'm o.k. with that is shri enough for me.

Today? Wishing everyone a Happy Father's Day.

Enjoy Sunday,

CREATURE OF HABIT

Woke the computer up this a.m., worked for a few minutes, then everything went down -- no internet connection from the house, so have to turn to the mobile connection. Thank goodness for that.  One thing this teaches me is how much I've become a creature of habit. I have my routine; don't mess with it - that is, unless it's my choice.

So, back on-line through the mobile connection, things are better.

I spent a few minutes reflecting on this reaction, wondering what relationship it has to my yoga life.  There are a couple, I can think of --

First, I often teach for others (subbing classes). When I enter a class as a sub, it is to teach them well; however, it won't be like their regular instructor. Sometimes I tell students that. It soon becomes evident how much other people are 'creatures of habit'. There is a pattern they've become used to in their practice - a way that their regular instructor leads them through sun salutations, or takes them into standing poses.  I know that when they come to standing while I still have everyone in a lunge, or step back as I ask people to come forward to uttanasana.  Habit.  Time for the 'beginner mind' reminder.

I do the same -- get used to my way of doing things.  What does this mean? Not a negative, necessarily, but a good reminder. A reminder to always listen - carefully.  Especially if I'm with a new- or different-to-me instructor, either in a class or workshop setting.

Habit can also get in the way of my progression in poses that I may not enjoy. I avoid them. Like the plague. Unless I'm in a classroom or workshop setting. In my own personal practice -- I stick with what's comfortable, what fits in my comfortable habit pattern - that means the 'dvesha' poses (poses I don't like) do not get worked on as often as needed.

This blog entry is about to end. Because, my habit is to spend time writing blog entries; time I don't have this morning.  Well, today, I'll have to break that habit and get moving.

Hope you have a great Saturday,

NOTES, QUESTIONS, NOTES . . .

A 'notes' day - finally.  This week, inspiration has escaped me; each morning, as I sat to write, I wondered 'is it Friday, yet?'  Hoo-ray, its Friday -- here goes:

1.  First, a big note of congrats to Tiffany on approval of her Certification video.  Tiffany teaches at The Shop (with David Belz), and I have attended a few of her classes, and I've practiced alongside her at worshops & trainings.  Great teacher with great skills - both as a teacher, a massage therapist, and a person.  Congratulations to Tiff !!!

On to the more mundane, but still important:

2. On my website, there is a page called 'contact us' (similar to most websites).  Through this page students, or potential students can ask questions in relative anonymity.  Today's question was 3-part and caused me to think about each a bit more thoroughly as I answered:

• Part 1 - 'how do I feel about the lds people?'  I've come to answer this question very simply - I have many fun and hardworking students who are LDS, so the simple answer might be - 'I think about them, as I do all of the student - with gratitude'. I do believe it is a challenge for them to attend yoga - it is not a mainstream activity, and - with the strong social ties to the church - attending a yoga class requires a bit of independent action and making time to come to class. If you live here, you'll understand; otherwise, maybe not. I recently heard that Gordon Hinckley practiced meditation -- not sure how much or often, but a practice of calming our minds in these days is not to be discouraged. 
• Part 2 - 'what about back injuries?' Just ask me about back injuries. I am liable to write a 1,000 word essay on the subject. Or, as I answered, I simply stated that through a committed yoga practice - especially one like Anusara® - we are able to strengthen the support system of the back, re-align to alleviate pressure on nerves and joints, all this to make our backs feel better.  I don't know the person who asked the question, so I can't speak to the emotional side of this injury. I have come to realize, tho, that many people identify with their physical (or emotional) struggle. For example, "I'm John Jones, and I have a bad knee."  Take away part of that and they are simply "john jones". That's sometimes difficult for "john jones", strange as it sounds.  
• Part 3 - 'I'm overweight.' Many people struggle with their weight, and here is where I think yoga 'shoots itself in the foot' through publicity efforts. If we really want to reach mainstream America - why, oh why - do we publish pictures of mainly strong, fit, dressed-to-the-nines, and younger populations in our magazines, catalogs, and other marketing materials?  Even my photo shoot the other day, will show me (albeit older) standing in a stream -- how many 'normal' people do that?  I did answer the question, stating that through yoga, cortisol levels are stabilized and we are able to bring our weight under control (if that's what we want).

On questions, I've learned to state facts -- I used to be a zealot, answering and cajoling, trying to get everyone on the boat with me. The old saying "you can lead a horse to water . . . " is so appropriate in this situation. These days, I give the facts and it is up to the recipient to act on them one way or the other. And, I must not get too emotionally involved; 'just state the facts, ma'am'.  Hard, tho, when I know how much yoga has helped me, and as I see little 'magic moments' for my students almost every day.

3.  Speaking of 'magic moments', I took one of the YogaHour classes towards the pose, galavasana, this week. Used the trusty wall. My walls must have more hand, foot, head, and backside prints on them than any other studio in the valley, maybe the state, who knows. I use the wall, a lot. In getting settled down into the entry point for the arm balance part of the pose, I find the wall to be most helpful for students. Cross the leg, innerspiral hips, backside goes back (the wall is somewhere back there, sometimes as just a mental 'crutch'), bring elbows to front of shin -- then, assuming all is going well, fold & plant hands.

Granted, the leg extension can't happen with the wall back there, but the lift-off can happen. For this class, lift-off brought about shouts of glee from the group. Fun to watch and be a part of.

4.  I almost broke the 'golden rule' of Anusara® yoga therapy this week. Almost. My photographer mentioned that he had tried yoga once, came away with a tweaked back and spent several months in physical therapy as a result. I sent an e-mail the day after pictures were taken to thank him. In that e-mail, I mentioned that if he would like to explore yoga again, I am pretty sure there's a way to do it without 'tweaking' the back. If he wants more info, call. So, I answered the question that was NOT asked. Couldn't resist, tho. Had to do it. I pointed that out to him, and dropped it - no more will he hear about yoga's benefits from me (unless he asks). Remember that 'lead a horse...' phrase.  

5.  'Notice how clapping can change the atmosphere of a room.' I took this from notes from a dharma talk given by JF in Santa Fe in 2007. Why? Because, I learned yesterday there is power in clapping for the individual students, as well. I've recently encountered two students, good friends to one another, and they have begun showing up in my class. One came last night. Her comment to me: "___ was so excited about class last week. She said you had her demo a pose, and then everyone clapped." I had not thought about clapping from the demo'ing student's perspective. Being asked to demo is flattering; having everyone appreciate your efforts makes it even more meaningful.  

O.K., my 'notes' fix for the week is accomplished.  Hope you have a great weekend.  

Enjoy Friday,

ONLY THE STRONG & WELL PREPARED SURVIVE (in comfort) . . .

We have an outdoor concert series here in SLC hosted by Red Butte Gardens.  2010 looked to be a GREAT line-up of entertainers (Chicago, Willie Nelson, Steve Martin - on the banjo, plus many others), so we purchased a sponsorship in order to secure tickets (and to make sure we attended most, if not all).

Last night was the second of the series - Steve Martin on his banjo, with some comedy thrown in as he fine-tuned these instruments between songs (as this happened, all I could think of was Benjy Werthheimer's meticulous tuning -- similar scene).

Forecast for the day had been for high winds, with rain and thunderstorms later in the evening.  We had the wind all day, and, as I left the house for the concert, the rain was beginning.  These concerts happen rain or shine, so 'buyer beware'.  The friend who went with me (Howard's out of town, bummer) and I were well prepared -- many layers, umbrellas, boots, gloves, rain pants (me), hats & hoods. All this, plus a thermos of coffee, put us in good stead to sit outside in a cold rain. An event like this is not time to think "I have to look good"; rather "I must wear what will keep me warm and dry".

We arrived early for the sold-out performance, had a bite to eat, and huddled under the umbrellas until the performance began.  First, of course, was the lead-in act (or whatever they call it). Good, but long - just my opinion -- but then, sitting in the cold rain longer than absolutely necessary isn't my first choice of activities.  At about 8:30, Mr. Martin and the band traveling with him arrived on stage (the stoney river something? - they were good, but overshadowed, obviously).

I wonder how long the man has played the banjo -- he mentioned that the last time he played SLC was 40 years ago(!?!?!), so at least that long. It was a very good concert, dampened only by the weather. Certainly, not for the 'faint of heart' - audience and/or performers.

Earlier in the day, I taught Gentle Yoga -- and had a great group in attendance. I don't always ask what people would like to work on, but I did yesterday. One mentioned her shoulder blades were sore after last week's work. I think the majority have decided to stay silent, as they've learned their preference may be another's poison. And, this group is not shy about letting everyone know (even me) when something is not their preference (that doesn't mean we don't do the work, however).  We did a bit of shoulder work, then moved down to the hips.

I closed the class with a reminder of one definition of 'gentle' - gradually increasing (as in 'gentle slope'). I always need to remember the reasons people come to 'gentle yoga'; perhaps they have an injury or have been traveling or are just stiff or new to the practice. These reasons mean I can't throw every pose in the book at them; but, I do still have to challenge them a bit.

Finished up, ran a couple errands, then off to get a haircut.  Good job on the cut, Khaled (maybe he read yesterday's post).

I just re-read this before 'publishing', and thought - this isn't really much about yoga. Then I thought - I wonder why I don't usually ask people what they want to work on? I think I know - because many times, I'll get a request for 'poses to help with digestion' or 'poses to counter insomnia' - like that. To tell the truth, I don't know what poses are best to help with digestion or counter insomnia; I guess that would be my answer. So, I avoid the question.

Still not much about yoga in here, but going to 'publish' anyway.

Teaching at 10 at Kula (everyone's yoga), then taking Pilates at 1, teaching YogaHour at 4 at The Yoga Center, and teaching Level 1 at 5:45 at The Yoga Center -- Thursdays are busy days!

Hope your Thursday is peaceful,

PHOTOS

For longer than I can remember, I look enviously at other peoples' beautiful pictures as they show up on Facebook, their blogs, or their websites. I finally took the plunge and found someone to take some pics of me (maybe we can call this a #400 celebration gift).

First, finding someone is no easy task. There are many photographers in SLC, and many who have worked with the various yoga instructors around the valley. I decided I would find someone different, and began my search through 'Google' - googling Photographers SLC. After going through many websites, I found a young man whose website was clear and understandable, and whose work looks very good. We met yesterday, decided to do a two-part shoot (one, to promote the studio and teaching I do; the other, for my 'ego' - to satisfy this long-standing desire to have 'cool' pictures of myself). I also am asked for photos on occasion, so this is not just an ego-satisfying activity - there is purpose.

He (photographer) came to the YogaHour class yesterday. This group is wonderfully welcoming and relaxed, so no problem for them that he was there shooting pictures. The one issue for me - remembering to stand a little straighter and try to hold my stomach in a bit.

After the class, we made our way up to Neff's Canyon - a little-known canyon here in SLC at the north base of Mt. Olympus (south of Millcreek Canyon). From the parking lot, there are great views of both the mountains and the Valley.

After we did some face shots with mountain and valley in background, we moved into the canyon to a creek. Discarded my shoes and began to attempt some yoga-looking poses (using the UPA's, no less -- especially 'Open to Grace' - as I'm standing with one foot on a small rock, the other on a larger rock a bit upstream.). I soon realized that my feet were going numb; this is a stream fueled by the snow melt, after all.

We even got in some shots of Howard and I (and the dogs).

It was fun. A different activity - a change-up in the routine - after all, yoga in a cold stream, is not something I do every day, or every month, or ever?

I hope the pics turn out well - I always have high expectations, like when I go in for a haircut, that things will go well. Not always do some things (like haircuts) turn out as positively as I'd hoped. I am trying to stay 'middle of the road here' - if expectations are too high, disappointment can follow. Out of 180+ shots, (the 'blinking' shots are not included in this count), there have to be some good ones. You'll know if I post some on this blog.

Today's schedule?  Teaching Gentle Yoga at 10 am, haircut in the afternoon. Getting ready for a family visit next week. Going to see Steve Martin tonight at Red Butte Gardens - playing his banjo. Hope the weather doesn't interfere -- wild winds forecast for today.

Have a nice Wednesday,

AND, #400

I spent a few moments thinking about this post before starting to type.  It seems that when the pressure is on, the creative processes are not (or may be well hidden). So, be forewarned -- this will not be the most inspired, most thought-provoking, most mind-blowing post you've read from me. It will just be another in a long line of writings. The number 400, doesn't mean wonderful, it just means 400.

Not to belittle the accomplishment - but, also not to raise expectations.

I did teach yesterday - a small class at Kula, which was fine. Interesting the reaction to a small class - from students and instructor. I can either go in and feel depleted due to the lack of energy (numbers) in the room, or I can feel o.k. with the small-ness and teach to what is in the room. It used to be that my reaction was the former - as if, the small number was a reflection of my presence or my teaching ability. Students react similarly and they either love it or hate it (the small-ness). A reflection of comfort in numbers?

No longer do I let myself feel that way - a small group is a combination of factors, many we have no control over. Being a new teacher at Kula, people don't know me. Having been a student in many of the classes at Kula, there may be a perception of 'what can she teach me?'. Being older (yup, there's the age card), perhaps there's a perception that I won't be energetic enough. Add to that all the community stuff - on vacation, school's out, weather is nice, work schedules, etc., etc., etc. Some things are beyond my control, even how I am perceived.

I also think a small group has to be pretty stalwart -- has to hang in there with me as others learn about me and my skills (what I have to offer). It seems that's the way it happens - a few come to class regularly and faithfully, and gradually that grows. I and the students have to be comfortable with the word 'gradually'.

The small group allows me to develop skills that a large class doesn't always leave time for -- the luxury of getting to know the student(s), answer questions, get through the foundation and form of the pose and get into refining a pose, while a larger group might be sweating bullets as they wait to come out of whatever pose I have them in.  I do know that, when the class is small, a frequently heard comment is 'you notice a lot'. Yup, I do and, many times, I apologize when it happens; warning them that I am a bit 'nit picky'. I get 'nit picky', not because I want to wear them down, or point out their faults, but because I want them to feel good in their poses, to feel each pose as a work of art. That can't happen if I - as the teacher - let things slide. I do remember to look for the good before the 'nit picky' hits.

One thing that is always on my mind is the following advice:  In many of JF (and other) trainings, emphasis is placed on getting the room ready. Arriving early to straighten props, spiff up anything that looks amiss, move a bit; all this, to set a tone, an energetic pulse that will carry forward into our teaching. Whether 2 or 20 people arrive, the process of establishing that pulse is important. It's our intention, it's saying 'this matters to me'.  Then - if the class is small - I am able to welcome them with the same intention: to teach because it matters to me; giving them (the students) my best effort.

On with the day - class with Wayne, then an open afternoon for laundry, etc., then teach YogaHour at 4. Having a photographer come in to take some shots of the studio, me teaching, then some of me alone. Never seem to have a picture when someone wants one; gonna solve that problem today.

Enjoy your Tuesday. Tomorrow, #401.

POST #399

Let me say it again -- it hardly seems possible that something I began 16 months ago, I am still doing and doing regularly.  Onward . . .

A little sore after the practice on Saturday. A tip from Skeeter was relayed to the group -- that Inner Body Bright means not just getting taller and longer, it also includes getting broader.

Give it a try - get long AND broad as you practice today, pay attention to what happens.

For me?  An effortless ustrasana - one breath I was thinking 'longer & broader', a few breaths later I was gripping my heels. Same thing happened when we did a few 'camel droppings' (I think that would be the accurate name), using the wall to walk our hands down. Broaden, lengthen, create brightness in all directions - not just out through the top of my head.

It's interesting how I get a mental image of IBB (inner body bright) and make it into a lengthening effort. There's no word in IBB that says 'long' or 'broad'. Perhaps as I work on this more, I need to think "inner body glowing", just to re-frame the concept, beginning to think of myself as a lightbulb (for lack of a more romantic image), with light emanating from all aspects of the bulb.

A similar thing happened (this need for 're-framing') when it was pointed out that lengthening and broadening involves the entire torso -- not just the front body. When I started to work on that one, pulling my lower ribs back in (instead of flaring them out front), many of my poses changed, got stronger, more vibrant, less 'taking it in the back'. I believe the knowledge came at almost the same time from two sources - first, from a workshop I was attending with an Anusara® instructor; then, as I worked with Cindy in Pilates (keeping the ribs 'knitted' in front is a big deal in Pilates, so I have to give credit where credit is due).

Post #399 should be more exciting; but, it isn't. Perhaps I'm saving something big for #400 -- it hasn't come to me yet, tho, so - no promises.

The first-ever Immersion in South Dakota finished up yesterday. Pictures are on Facebook (look for Doc Savage, if you aren't already his friend). Kudos to him for pulling this off with BJ, and for gathering a very photogenic and dedicated group of Immersion students.

Also, another blog to add to my list of frequently-read missives:  Kim's blog - authenticselfyoga - contains good information. Kim is an experienced yoga instructor who, for the past year, has been plunging into her Anusara® studies. Her perspective as she discovers the magic of Anusara® is refreshing. Check it out.

Teaching at 9:15 this morning at Kula - Level 1; then an open afternoon. I do have an appointment with a photographer this evening - just to meet. I never have a professional-looking photo ready when someone wants one of me; then I see everyone doing 'photo shoots'; so I decided, why not? Suggestions for a location? Many people use the Great Salt Lake - the reflective power of the lake and the desolateness make for great elements. It's been used a lot, though, which makes me think somewhere else would be better. We shall see if he has any creative ideas.

Take care & enjoy your Monday,

INTENTIONALLY 'FORGOT'. . .

I started to write in this blog yesterday morning. Soon realized that I had very little to offer and there were other things I could better devote my energy to at the moment. So, I signed out, missing an opportunity to get to the magic '400' a day or two sooner than it will happen -- whenever that is.

Yesterday, I began to write about the '400' mark. I marveled that I have done all that writing in the space of 16 months - not bad, for a project that began with big question marks in its future. Writing has come easily to me, much more easily than talking (unless it's to a class of students). Put me somewhere that small talk is required, and I fail miserably (or, maybe many of us fail miserably).

Point? I have, over the years, come to believe that we love talking about ourselves, our families, our successes, even our problems. When in a 'small talk situation', it's important to keep up the conversation. What? I ask someone a question about themself, they respond in kind. Many times, the former happens; the latter doesn't (I'm as guilty as the next person.). I have to believe, then, that many of us are not very good at small talk. There, I feel a bit better.

Instead of writing in the blog, I planned my class for yesterday morning. I decided to video (even if enough people weren't in the room), and also decided to continue with the theme of 'softening'. Each time I use it, I find more reasons to soften, more words to use in place of soften; I even remembered to do as JF had recommended -- explore the opposite (harden) and use some of my exploration in the class.

A year ago or so, it was suggested to me that it takes years to cultivate a class into a video-able (new word) state. Meaning, my video must show my teaching skills, both as I move through and speak to the class, and - as importantly - how my skills are reflected in what's happening in each student's pose. So, a class of new-to-yoga or new-to-me students will not be an ideal class to video.

The Saturday morning class is a mix -- some have been coming regularly, some show up on occasion (but know me), and every week someone drops in -- a new-to-yoga student, someone who has not participated in my classes (or Anusara® classes).

As much as I understand this suggestion, I also think much can be seen of my skills with a few unknown-to-me people in the room. How I handle the needed shift in a class plan. How I handle the late arrival. How I deal with a skewed down dog, or locked knees. How I explain the alignment, the reasons, the style itself. I think all of these are of value to a video reviewer; not just how I conduct a seasoned room of Anusara® yoga students.

On the flip side of the coin, it would be much easier to stay on track, to remember my theme, to remember the words and phrases I had planned to use, to keep all the 'balls in the air', if everyone understands what I am telling them from the get go.

Back to the other side of the coin -- how wonderful is it to walk past a new-to-yoga student and have her whisper "marvelous", or past another new-to-me student and have her say "I'm working hard" (as if that was her last expectation). Wow - I just hope those moments are reflected in the video. And, not on video - the 3-month-young yoga student who came up after class to tell me how much better she feels after these classes together. Whoa -- be still my heart! There's the goal, the reason -- students leave feeling better about themselves.

As I wrote the previous paragraph, my fingers want to hit the 'delete' button. Why? Because it sounds a bit (or a lot) like I'm touting my skills. Well, for 55+ years I have hit the 'delete' button. While I don't want to run amuck in self-aggrandizement; it's time to say (and believe) I can do this, I can make people feel better, I can make people laugh, I can teach without forgetting where I'm going or what I hope to accomplish. Thanks to my teachers, I've been given a tool chest full of skills and knowledge and I'm doing my best to apply and use them in my classes.

My final video may be of the current class, or it may be one of those 'invitation' classes. Whatever it is, now that I've convinced myself, I hope the video reflects my new-found confidence.

The morning class went well.  I did - for real - have 3 new-to-me students (one was new-to-yoga, as well). One person did arrive late. Everything I've written about happened, even the comments. I video'd it. Time to review and - perhaps - send on to Sundari.

In the afternoon, there was a 3-hour practice at Kula, so I decided to get some time on my own mat.  4 successful handstands, progress in some other poses, camaraderie of the group -- fun time.

Today? Run errands, check out a new cell phone, rest.

Enjoy your Sunday,

FRIDAY NOTES . . .

Friday morning, listening to the birds sing, having my coffee, laundry in the machine - it must be time for 'notes'.

1.  First a couple apologies -- I was to have attended a book club meeting to discuss the Upanishads (Eknath Easwaren's translation) last night. Thursdays are always long days to begin with - 3 classes to teach, 1 class to take, plus whatever other parts of my life fill in the spaces. That, coupled with a bit of confusion about a late class (too much to discuss here), and a broken water dispenser leaking all over the retail space floor, caused me to miss. Just too much for one day -- sorry, Jen.  Besides, next time, I may be more into this translation.

2.  Second, go back to yesterday, it's not April's blog, but Katie's, that I mentioned - April, in her generous manner was simply sharing it with us through Facebook. I love that she does that - shares stuff. And, I'm sure that sometime in the future, she'll find time to write a blog, or articles, or a book, or something. Lots of yoga teaching and knowledge in that lady's history.

3.  Third, go back to #1. As I've begun reading this translation of the Upanishads, I've had a revelation. I truly dislike 'Introductions'. I know they have a purpose, especially in this type of reading. But, they are so loonnnggg. Just my personal observation.

4.  One of my Thursday morning students is learning English, which makes teaching yoga to her a bit of a challenge (she is a new-to-yoga person). I'm pulling on the skills I developed when I taught the group of deaf women from a while back. Lots of demos, lots of made-up signing, like that. She's a great student, good body awareness and lots of potential.

I did have a somewhat horrifying thought, tho, yesterday. I noticed her mimic'ing my arm gestures - gestures that are not part of the poses. I worry these may carry forward to other classes - wouldn't that be a sight; student pointing at backside dramatically indicating that the glute muscle must aid in the bending of the front knee, as she moves into Parsvakonasana. To counter that, I repeated each pose without the hand gestures, just to make sure she understands the gesticulating hands/arms are not part of the pose.

5.  Some of you know my morning routine - get up, sit, check e-mail, write in blog, walk dogs, do other housework - as there is time, and off to teach or take a class. Yesterday was similar, but because it had rained, the earth was soft enough to quickly go out and spend 20 minutes roughing up the soil, pulling weeds, making a couple flower beds look a bit better. As I dug, I thought -- there's a story and a theme here. A theme about softening. The soil was soft from the rain, easy to move the 'claw' tool through and get the weeds out by their roots. I used that theme in each class - relating it back to my story and our philosophy as when I soften it's a balance of the strength I've cultivated, an opening to new knowledge, new possibilities. When I soften, I grow.

6.  I find myself teaching arm balances in many classes this week. Must be the energy BJ left in her wake. For students, it's an awakening to their power; for me, it's a fun and rewarding challenge.

7. What would 'notes' be without the tip of the week. I love this part; as good for me, as for anyone. Why? because I'm re-reading my notes looking for something relevant and, in doing so, reading lots of stuff I've heard over and over, but - perhaps - have forgotten (or, not forgotten, but just lost in the wealth of knowledge being shared). So, I pulled a few bullet points -- things we may know, but have 'lost':

• Allow the pose to grow before stepping in; unless there is a red flag somewhere (red flag = dangerous mis-alignment)
• Hyperextended knees - how can we be sure? feel the back of student's knee, if bulging then knees are hyperextended. What do we do? Ask them to back out of the pose and start over. This is one red flag, not to be ignored (per JF). I usually have students with this tendency bend their knees, firmly press their feet into the floor before straightening the knee. I find this action mitigates the tendency to lock back.
• Why are we on fingertips in lunges? 1) to create space, 2) to strengthen the hands, 3) to strengthen the arms (especially those triceps), and 4) to give us greater sensitivity in the pose. Contrast between flat hand and fingertips is a good demonstration of the power of the fingertips
• In every pose, teach some element of quiet - balance the action with quiet / softening (there's that theme idea). I tell students that I knew I was 'getting' a pose when I could take one or two un-stressed breaths while in a pose.  

Better go walk the dogs -- they are impatient this morning.  

Have a good Friday!

STICKING MY NECK OUT . . .

First, kudos to April R. for stepping into the blog world - makemorebeauty.blogspot.com.  One post so far, a good one.

Now, back to the topic at hand. Two days ago, as I was talking over ways to attract people to the studio, to my blog, into my life, etc., a friend suggested I list my studio on Facebook as a way to communicate studio activities with my 'fans' and friends. I admitted that I had thought about that action. Something was holding me back, tho. I know the studio has some very loyal fans out there. I also remember the campaigns put on to garner fans ('be the 400th fan and . . .' - like that). I just can't play that game.

So, I'll wait on that front for a while, because I'm obviously not ready.

In the meantime, comes an e-mail from BJ asking where/how to 'follow' my blog. Good question. There is a feature on this blog that allows readers to boldly tell the world that they read what I write. I purposely left that feature in the background when beginning the blog. Who wants the world to know that just one or two people regularly read my writing - because, many would argue if that's the case, then why am I spending the time doing it?

Two comments - first, why am I spending the time doing it? In the beginning, it might have been to garner worldwide fame and fortune. Now, however, through this writing another side of 'Leslie' has emerged. A more confident and curious part of her personality continues to manifest itself. A more giving side, as well. As in, I know this stuff; now, why don't I share it?

On telling the world who reads this blog. Step back to the ugly 3-letter word 'ego'. Maybe my number of readers won't measure up to others. Ah, the real reason comes out.

So, to stand up to this ugly friend - ego - I am going to 'stick my neck out' here and add that feature into the blog. If I'm brave enough, maybe readers will be brave enough to tell the world they read this missive. We'll see. You'll know that ego has won, when the feature disappears from the blog.

Interesting that I've come to handle 'ego' very effectively in my yoga practice. I find myself able to do my practice in a workshop like BJ's, work with/around my limitations, and rejoice in the accomplishments of others - without feeling pangs of envy, etc. But, put me into the world off the mat; the world where people tell you if they like you or not, and that 'ego' friend returns every time. Standing up to it, looking it in the face, might be the way to combat it. Who knows? In the yoga classroom or workshop, I've learned to slay 'ego' in favor of murdita; maybe the same effort - the effort of accepting whatever happens as I appreciate others' efforts - will work in other settings. Full, complete effort (purna) on and off the mat.

There has to be a theme in there; right now - however - it might sound like a 'poor me' theme, so I'd better let it rest and ponder it for a while before throwing it at a class of students. I'd better be able to offer a positive slant to it when I take it into the classroom. I must remember I want them to leave feeling better about themselves.

If you are still reading, I hope you'll forgive this rambling. Big steps often revolve around relatively little things in life, events that have little, long-term meaning. Yet, when I do take a big step, it feels like I'm stepping off a cliff (or sticking my neck out).

Teaching at 10, Everyone's Yoga at Kula; pilates at 1 with Cindy; YogaHour at 4 pm and Level 1 at 5:45, both at The Yoga Center (my place).

Enjoy the day,

HUGGING IN

All week, month, year(s), I've been reminded of the power of hugging in. Especially in my legs. I practice it and - for sure - I teach it.

I received a note from a Florida friend 2 days ago, reminding me where I first became aware of the power of my legs.  Santa Fe, 2007, Advanced Therapeutics with JF. We're doing parsvakonasana, with mucho emphasis on the back leg. As the assisting instructors roamed the room, one stopped next to me to make an adjustment and help me realize just what John was teaching and asking us to do. That in this pose, as in others, the back leg doesn't just wait for it's next movement - it's actively working, foot pressing into the floor - inner thigh muscles activated. After that session, I felt those muscles for a couple days. And, I've never forgotten the result.

What? That by strengthening and using those leg muscles in a standing pose like Parsvakonasana, I reaped the benefit of stronger legs in all poses. I especially notice it in arm balances, with the leg over a shoulder or resting on the triceps. That comforting hug in of the leg, a result of activating those inner thigh muscles makes anything seem possible, even if my expression of a challenging arm balance is not quite the same as the person next to me.

Additionally, I remember the first time I felt that hug as I put a leg over the shoulder. My reaction? Whoa -- where did that come from? Then, I remembered - inner thigh work.

Why share this with you. Well, it was fun yesterday to teach an arm balance after asking students to work their inner thighs. Then, to tell them of the connection. I'm not sure they were as excited as I was as I relayed the information. But, now that they have an awareness of 'why' I'm asking them to do this work, I believe they will begin to notice the results show up in other aspects of their yoga.

SO. COOL.

I will probably never forget that instructor and I will always be thankful to her for her encouraging and demanding assist. She made sure I got it, before moving on to help others.

Congratulations to Doc Savage on being recommended for Inspired™ status by BJ. Good work! I looked at the Anusara® roster, and believe he is the first in South Dakota. Go Doc!

Teaching Gentle Yoga at 10, at The Yoga Center; then a bit of paperwork, general clean-up at the studio. Fun, Fun, Fun -- Gentle Yoga, that is.

Hope your Wednesday is a good one,

WHAT NOW / NEXT ?

The excitement has died down a bit now that the workshop has ended. BJ and I are planning a future date, but nothing in stone, yet. All in all, it was a great weekend.

I used much of what I learned as I taught yesterday. For the first time, I taught some hand balances that I had not taught before. Why hadn't I taught them? For starters, I'm not very accomplished at them and - unless I'm really warmed up, they don't even come close to looking like much more than a rough version - requiring a good imagination to see the full expression. That means, my verbal skills must be very refined to teach the poses.

I've heard over and over that to teach a pose, it's not required that I be able to do the pose. I do, however, have to have knowledge of the pose and the verbal side becomes many times more important without the ability to demo. It's also helpful to have a room of students who are 'ready'.

"Ready" students presented themselves in the two classes I taught yesterday. In the morning, students were strong in their yoga, excited about Anusara, yet a bit deprecating about their ability to balance on their hands. Perfect. We warmed up, and took a ride into vascistasana, bakasana (working towards extending one leg), and astavakrasana. Just one of those poses might have been enough - but an eager audience is one just asking for more than one - so, three ought to do it -- right? (You can tell that I was a bit eager, as well.)

The afternoon class, which I was subbing, is a group up for any challenge. When I asked what they had been working on, I got the response "lots of sun salutations". That answer spoke 'change it up', to me. And, as we warmed up, they looked "ready". Stayed with vascistasana (top leg in tree), and basic bakasana. A bit of tumbling, but strong, stable poses the second time around. Fun to teach and to watch.

So, what is next?  More personal practice; while steady is good, kicking it up a notch never hurt anyone. More travel (first to see parents, then to visit son & family). Training with John in Park City (if I get accepted). Thinking seriously about the 'Grand Gathering'.

The first 'Grand Gathering' I stayed away from.  It's difficult for me to function in a room of 150+ people; all I could think was - 800 people. This year, it's not quite so intimidating (see, growth & change does happen after 60). Plus, this offers opportunities to study with some people I haven't experienced before. Good stuff.

Busy Summer - take it one step at a time.

Today? Wayne's class, then teaching YogaHour at 4 pm.

Have a great Tuesday,

A COMMUNITY OF HAND BALANCERS . . .

Sunday morning with BJ began at 9:30. On the schedule? Hand balances.

As people arrived, it was clear that many had similar 'issues' as me -- more than a few sore muscles in the room. Not necessarily a negative, at least it gave us introductory comments for one another, like "hi, how are you? I'm feeling more from my glutes than normal, you?" Something like that. Good conversation starters.

We sat. BJ took a few minutes to talk about community (or 'common-unity', as she phrased it a couple of times). About how we are all part of a community -- be it our family, our circle of friends, our yoga class companions, our work group, city, state, world --- on, on, on. Her point - that as part of community, we all have an impact; our actions will influence others whether we know it or not. All this she brought back to arm balancing and the need for the whole 'community' of our body to participate in order for a safe, successful arm balance to happen. A bit of community support - as in cheering from workshop participants - would also contribute happily to our efforts.

We warmed up. I'm feeling stiff, but nowhere as sore as yesterday (big sigh of relief). BJ took us through standing poses in order to loosen hamstrings, open hips, teach hugging the midline -- all things (plus more) needed to effectively ready our personal community to balance on our hands.

The fun began. Challenging, hard work. Refinements offered, received and implemented - voila! A community working together to accomplish a goal (or, in some cases, work towards a goal).

Personally, I like arm balances - now. My first was bakasana, and I've done well with that one over the years. Why do I say years, because it seemed like years to become comfortable with my ability to get and stay in the pose. Then instructors began introducing me to handstand, vascistasana, and the myriad of other arm balances out there. Limiting factor for me, hips & hamstrings (upper back, too, because melting the heart - letting the shoulderblades move onto the back - is a big 'community' player in these poses). I do notice my hamstrings giving it up a little for the sake of the community these days (and my back - well, while not perfect, the change is amaaazzziinngg.

So, some progress for me. I've learned to never take anything for granted; any progress is GREAT progress. Another important point for me to remember in these poses -- don't compare myself to others. That would be like the 'kiss of you-know-what'. Instant depletion. I have to support my body 'community' emotionally, and that can't happen if I'm comparing myself to others in the room.

I took BJ's advice and focused on my community, yet I supported and cheered the others in the room, the bigger community. All the while, remembering that we are all different - different bodies - different emotional make-up - different skillsets & abilities.

A fun morning, that - once again - ended too soon.  When she returns, we'll be doing longer sessions, I guarantee it!

Going to try to post a few pictures - first time on the Mac, we'll see how it goes.  (There are more on Facebook.)

Paula's beautiful vascithasana . . .

Jen F. pressing up - look at those legs; everything's working!

Jen H. moving from bakasana to handstand (she then went back to bakasana, and lightly hopped back to plank) . . .

Definitely not an arm balance, but Kim's 'community' needed to experience Hanumanasana -- beautiful!

Hope your Monday is beautiful,

ANOTHER SUPER, OVER-THE-TOP, SHAKTI-FILLED DAY

Some of you reading may not be familiar with Sanskrit, and - therefore - when I throw a word out like 'Shakti' you are thinking 'what?'  Shakti is a Sanskrit work that means, in part, 'empowerment, or the agent of change'.  While our entire life is comprised of 'shakti', I think it's safe to label yesterday 'super, over-the-top, Shakti-filled'.  Read on for details:

Saturday with BJ began at 9:30 for 2.5 hours (plus) of standing poses and backbends. New and more faces in the room - how exciting !!! (Unless you're the coordinator of an event like this, you may not know that feeling.)

What 'feeling'? You schedule a great, fun presenter. You repeatedly remind students and friends. You publicize. You fret and worry whether people will attend. You know what fun it will be, how much your students and others will learn from her/him. Finally, when you see a bunch of people in a room, waiting to experience what you've 'known' for a long time, it truly is rewarding and exciting.

Yesterday morning began innocently enough. We moved through lunges, down dogs, planks, standing poses - over and over - lifting our hearts; working our shoulders and shoulder blades. Warming and loosening that stiff upper back. We all know where we're headed -- backbends. By savasana, we had stood in poses, twisted in poses, folded in poses, been upside down, played camel and camel droppings, done wheel (some stood up from wheel). End result - a bunch of people excited about approaching and, perhaps, crossing threshhold in their practice. LOVE IT. (Oh, and - for Doc's benefit - we used mucho towels; thank goodness the swamp cooler was turned on for the season on Thursday.)

So, lunch.  Fortunately, past experience has taught me to eat lightly - especially since we're going back for the second session of the day -- forward folds and twists.

An afternoon session, I've begun to expect, will be - in general - less strenuous. Not necessarily true when BJ is working the room. As she stated, any pose where the hip is flexed forward is a forward fold -- that leaves a LOT of poses to explore. I felt my 'light' lunch more than once(?). By 4 (the scheduled end-time), we were still going strong. Ended 30 minutes late, but no one minded. Most frequently heard comment afterwards? "that kicked my ___, wasn't it great?"

The whole day was great. The best part? Watching BJ, watching students laugh and enjoy themselves while working very hard. Having my mat next to Karen and Clytie during the day gave me an opportunity to glance sideways, moan or laugh, then get back to work. Fun, memorable times.

So, this morning?  HAND BALANCES - with BJ, no less, the Queen of Handstands !!!  Eight hours of sleep and a few Ibuprofen ought to leave me in good stead for this one.

Hope you have a nice Sunday (and, think of us),

BJ's HERE; THE RIDE BEGINS

A 'shakti-filled' beginning to the workshop. Not a ton of people, but those that are attending will have a great ride -- I can already tell.  Big smiles as our first 2 hours ended last night. Old acquaintances renewed, new friendships made, camaraderie of the kula reinforced -- LOVE IT !!!

Our first night focused on therapeutics -- Utah has it's share of wrecked shoulders, and tight quads/hips, so BJ had plenty to work with. She reminded me of our history together, as each time she asked a student to do something, she'd look over at me and either say "remember this, Les?" or give me that "you know this one" look. Good and bad.  The bad - I didn't always remember. The good - what I'd forgotten will be new material to work with.

Today's work? Morning - standing poses and backbends. Afternoon - forward folds, twists, pranayama. Many of the same people will attend, plus we'll see some different faces. Looking forward to it.

Over dinner, we talked a bit about blog writing. Now that BJ has begun to blog, there's pressure from her audience to continue. For me, I didn't have that pressure. I just wrote to write and to share, not thinking about the audience, because I hoped over time - if I did o.k. with it, it would grow; otherwise, it (the blog) might fade like the sunset. BJ has so many followers and friends already, that the audience is sitting there panting -- the pressure is on.

Who listened to John's conference call yesterday? I did. Any expansion on the topic of our philosophy is not to be missed. I especially enjoyed the expansion on the origin and history of Kashmir Shaivism. I had never heard it explained that way - that the name 'Kashmir Shaivism' was coined by scholar J. C. Chatterjee in the 1800's, as he studied the many tantric schools. This name, John explained, is a bit misleading in that not all the tantric scriptures referenced by Chatterjee arise from Shiva and not all are from Kashmir; but the name stuck and has become a well-known reference point for tantra studies.

As John's studies continued over the years, it became apparent to him that the Kashmir Shaivism 'label' was not exactly what he had in mind; so he began to explore new names for the Anusara® philosophy.  Hence "Shiva-Shakti Tantra" - an inclusive vision that is broad, including all the 'god and goddess schools', not excluding any school of tantra.

John spent about 20 minutes talking, then the call was opened to questions. If we had a question, we were to press 1 on the phone (like raising our hand). The final question, was one I had (but was hesitant to ask --- remember a post a bit back about questions). "How can we succinctly tell our students about this philosophy - one clear sentence?" Response: "Anusara is a hatha system, with a triadic organization. The three elements being the UPA's, the kula or community, and the Shiva-Shakti tantric philosophy of intrinsic goodness (we look at everything and find goodness)."

My summary -- there is no change in what we have come to know as Anusara® philosophy; just a more accurate name for it. Shiva-Shakti are Sanskrit terms that come from the same place as hatha yoga, and recognize the two forces of balancing and reconciling.

I am sure there are other translations of what was discussed yesterday. It was good for me to hear him speak this way. No distraction. I could simply sit and listen, totally focused on the voice and the message.

Wish me good energy for this backbending morning!

Enjoy your weekend,

NOTES & OTHER OBSERVATIONS

The end of a busy week, and the beginning of an even busier weekend.  BJ ARRIVES TODAY!!! And, she's already forewarned me -- she's full of SHAKTI and ready to PLAY !!!

If you are reading this and are anywhere in the vicinity of Salt Lake, come on over -- there's space for more mats and it promises to be great.

Now, to the topic at hand, NOTES:

1.  I made several observations on my behavior yesterday. (A minor 'alibi-ike', as I call them, remember it's been a busy week, month, year for me - sometimes bordering on mind-blowing - not of the John Friend vernacular).

• First, I decided to patronize a friend's flower shop to purchase a pretty arrangement for the workshop. The problem? I called 5 minutes before starting a class. The order-taker-person was new (I hope), and therefore very thorough and slow. I was needlessly impatient.  I started the class, therefore, 5 minutes late - not good, a bit flustered, and cursing (under my breath). Not good, Leslie; not good.
• Next? I received news that we (my husband and I) must be in court in Idaho in early July - the result of a fishing license infraction (purchased a resident license - we have a home in Idaho, but don't vote there - wrong thing to do).  Received that news with a less than equanimous demeanor. More time sucked out of my Summer .
• And next? It has finally decided to get warm here. The studio I own is on the second floor and heats up quite nicely - not my students' favorite climate for their yoga practices. After several attempts to get someone out to service and turn on the swamp cooler, a repair person arrived last night at 7. I guess I was saving my equanimous nature for this event - I was irritated, yet grateful, that he finally arrived and got it turned on.  

2.  On the good news side of things - teaching was good yesterday. My class at Kula was fun, and we had a couple breakthrough moments.  I call breakthrough moments any time someone does something they doubt they can do - we did "L" at the wall, in preparation for handstand. At least one student was fearful; and others worried about their wrists. Turned out the fears were unwarranted - all went well. Next time we'll take it away from the wall.  

My YogaHour class was a first time into headstand for one student. The others were in various stages of development. What began as "huh? I've never done that.", turned into "I kicked myself up". (This is always a bit envy-creating for me; I remember working for a LONG time to kick up to headstand. But, I do rejoice in the fact that there was not much struggle for this student - it can be a bit defeating to try and try and try and try . . . )

The final class of the day, a Level 1, we stayed low. Remember, the room was very warm - with only a small fan cooling us. One student is participating in a long bike ride this coming weekend, so it was good to work on hips, hamstrings, quads, etc.  

3.  Participating in John's conference call this afternoon. I wonder how many signed up for it and how it will go. He's having an open forum discussion of philosophy. I believe most people were invited; and I think most people would want to participate -- how do you get hundreds on a conference call and answer the many questions that will result. Or, maybe he's divided us up into batches; doing one section at a time. Curious to see how it goes. 

4.  I've taken a moment and looked at my 'notes' book, for a tip -- I've been working with this one, so I'll share it (it's from John's Level II teaching training, Oct. 2009):  "Tell students why we are doing what we are doing - what benefit does doing a particular movement provide the student."  I've learned I can overdo this, but I also know that people are curious and appreciate a few explanations each class. Desiree also gave this instruction in the first Anusara® teacher training I attended 

Well, got to sign off. This will be a weekend of 'going with the flow'. BJ's life is anything but calm. My task will be to serve her and serve my students. I do plan to have a good time, and do some good yoga.  

I may not blog again until Monday, or I might, you never know.  

Hope your weekend is a good one,

ONE MORE DAY . . .

BJ returns to Salt Lake City tomorrow to do a weekend 'playshop' at my studio.  It will be fun, fun, fun (and, I suspect, hard work).  I have to tell you that life has gotten in the way of a strenuous yoga practice on my part.  Slow and steady would be a more apt description of my practice these past 3 months.

I read Karen's blog last night (linked here as 'Garden Street Yoga'), and feel a bit better about the 'slow and steady' part.  She took an opportunity to compare her practice today (in her 50's) to what it was 10 or 15 years ago. That our perspective changes; what was good 10-15 years ago, may not be the path now. I like that. It doesn't give me license to be a slacker, but it also acknowledges that change in our practice - our emphasis, our choices, even our stamina - will happen.

On another note -- I was told two days ago that I'm a bit more rigorous in my teaching than some others. That may be because of what I wrote in yesterday's post -- today, for me, it is more important for students to 'show up' (to do their fullest practice), and sometimes that's challenging in itself - even if we're just doing basic stuff.

Facebook is a good resource for me on what others are doing.  Doc is doing a minimum of an hour each day on his mat for the next 100+ days; many are doing pincha mayurasana (forearm balance) for 2-3 minutes each day for the month of June; others are working their shins in, thighs out; and many more of my friends are devoting hours each day to their asana practice. I will find a midline, work slow and steady - because I think steady (for me) is the important component right now.

My perspective on this is different from yours and others.  This is valuable for me to realize, because this different perspective is revealed to me each time I step in front of a class of students.  Their priorities are not the same as mine, which requires me to really examine my audience, try to figure out their priorities and work with those, all the while moving them in the direction of my goal for them -- a full, rewarding yoga practice that leaves them feeling good about themselves, even if we are just doing tadasana (mountain pose).

Now, back to the earlier comment about my 'rigorous teaching'. I say this, not because I want to tout my skills as a teacher.  I say this because I have a tendency to put myself down as 'older and not as flexible' as many yoga instructors (my anava mala or sense of imperfection). These comments validate my efforts, and I appreciate the validation more than I can tell you. This is helping me realize that I can still be a powerful instructor despite my age or flexibility. Slow and steady goes it.

Have a nice Thursday,

SHOWING UP . . .

I remember once being in a workshop or training and the instructor thanked us for 'showing up' and continued on that theme throughout the session.

In yesterday's YogaHour, there were just two students.  (I think June first might have been a Yoga Holiday for my students, based on all class attendance -- oh, well.) No matter, these two have been faithfully attending in these YogaHour classes; one for about 8 months, the other - for the last 3 months.

As happens with a smaller group, Leslie gets nit-picky. Not a bad thing, just something to be aware of if there aren't a ton of students in the room. A smaller group offers itself opportunities to embellish and enhance poses. Example: For one student, down dog has gradually become deeper and deeper - in the shoulders (not something we're striving for). I offered a verbal adjustment (verbal always precedes manual, according to John); when that didn't work, I got physical - holding both triceps up close to the armpits and resisting the student's attempt to 'dump' (ugly word, but it works). Comment afterwards: "The sub on Friday was on me the whole class for that same thing.") Nit-picky is not just a 'leslie trait' - whew!

Reflecting on the class, I emphasized shoulder blades and glutes (4 corners, kind of). Used the glutes to move into the bent knee of Parsvakonasana. When I first learned that (a Desiree workshop), my reaction was 'huh?'. Then I tried it. My glutes have never been the same. They had a nice, soft life before - nothing to do but hang out. Now, tho, they have purpose - they help with movement into the bent knee poses, they work hard during poses like trichonosana - anything to make my hamstrings feel better. I've asked them to 'show up' and their power to improve my yoga has been impressive! Everyone (and every part of everyone) needs purpose and to actively participate.

The title of this blog, 'showing up', was meant to convey that I 'show up' for class. And, more than that, that I 'show up' in my poses. So easy to stand in tadasana with little attention to legs or shoulders; after all, it's 'just' tadasana. A quote from a friend: "there's no 'just' about it". Because when I don't 'show up' in tadasana, it's a darn good bet that something - attitude, alignment, action - will reflect that in my subsequent poses.

As I closed the class yesterday, all I could think to say was 'thank you for showing up'. They attended class, but - more than that - their work reflected a desire to 'show up' in each pose. Great work!

Gentle Yoga this morning, then maintenance at The Yoga Center (meaning I'll clean, and the plumber will come to turn on the swamp cooler and fix the toilet) - all in preparation for BJ this weekend.  WHAT FUN! (BJ, that is).

Hope your Wednesday is a good one,

EARLY, EARLY, EARLY . . .

Up early to drive home from a nice Holiday weekend in Idaho.  We arrived Saturday afternoon, fired up the woodstove (it's cold here, still), and settled in.  I could give details (what we ate, what we did), suffice it to say it's been a nice, relaxing weekend with a little fun (our style - flyfishing) thrown in.

No yoga classes to teach or to take. Our flyfishing guide yesterday, tho, was curious about yoga; giving me an ample stage from which to 'talk' yoga. I learned, from this conversation, that I've become very comfortable with the language of yoga, the language I use almost every day. Why comment? Because I got a good reminder that there are many people out there who have no idea what I do (or why), and when I use words like 'anusara' or 'ayurveda', those are words totally outside their vocabulary (just like 'tippet' escapes my lingo - tippet is a fine line attached between our regular fishing line and the fly we are casting. I briefly googled it -- too much info to write here, but it helps the fly land more effectively in the water - I think.)

He may not have known much about yoga or ayurveda, but he certainly knows his craft and used many of the skills we use teaching yoga to help us catch some BIG fish.  He used well-placed instruction on our casting - where and how; and was complimentary when instructions were carried out. Firm, yet not overly pushy; knowledgeable, but without giving too much information. Nice sense of humor, yet not lax in boat rules. Something else I noticed - when one of us was getting more attention than the other, he quickly offered the other a bit of advice. Savvy guide.

Fun weekend, now back to work.  Short post, just to stay in touch.

Have a great Tuesday,