TAKING THE SEAT

I taught my Gentle Yoga class yesterday morning, then subbed Sam's two classes in the late afternoon/evening.

Spring and road construction around the studio are taking a toll on class sizes this month, but - hopefully - people will get their fill of yardwork and bike riding, decide to brave the gauntlet of yellow cones and flagmen(women), and get in for their yoga.

All that to say that the classes I subbed were small, but still fun to teach.

After each, students came up and commented on how much they enjoyed the classes. Not just the new students, but students who had been in my classes many times before. Causes me to wonder -- what did I do different this time?

One of the 'older-to-me' (meaning: have experienced my class before) students explained that my confidence level is visibly improving. That each time he comes to my class he notices I am more comfortable -- more comfortable in the 'seat of the teacher'.

What is the 'seat of the teacher'? It is that place where we become the guide in our classes. It is a position of trust, and of serving our students.

I got out my oldest version of the Teacher Manual for Anusara Yoga and looked up 'Seat of the Teacher'. In that section of the Manual, we are asked to follow a set of guidelines structured to set us on a path of honoring our role, honoring our teachers, respecting our students. The guidelines include ethical codes of behavior to be followed. And, if in doubt, we are asked to follow the 3 S's of Anusara Yoga:

• Shri - Life-affirming
• Satya - Truthful
• Svantantrya - Freedom-enhancing

Having a student tell me that I am settling into that 'seat' is a wonderful compliment.

Have a good Thursday,

MY EXPERIMENT IN VERBAGE

Maybe some of you have figured this out, but bear with me -- because it causes me great excitement!

When bringing students up from uttanasana (a standing forward bend) to tadasana (standing), there has - in the past - been at least one or two who will come up with their gaze at the floor. This usually happens with newer students, used to exercise classes where the instructor asked them to roll up from a forward bend. I call it 'leaving their head behind'.

I've tried saying 'don't leave your head behind', I've explained skull loop - which takes some time out of the other students' experience, and I've reminded, reminded, reminded, ad nauseum.

So - my experiment in the last two weeks of teaching has been to guide students back to standing with the phrase: 'come to standing as you lift your heart'. It works! As I scan the room in each of the classes I've taught, nary a student has come to standing with their head dropping forward like there was something interesting on the floor to look at. Each student has come up, lifting their heart -- head up, gaze forward !!!

With their gaze forward, many will glance at me -- only to see me standing there, grinning like a proud parent (or grandparent). As time passes, and if my experiment continues to prove successful, it won't be necessary to explain the grin; it (the grin) might even disappear. But, I won't forget.

It's always the little things.

Have a GREAT day!

CLINGING

to the belief that my hamstrings are tight has become a way of life, a mantra for me. But, that doesn't mean I'm not trying to hear something new -- one that says "they're tight, but - bit by bit, practice by practice, things are getting better".

I went to Jen's class last night -- like Matt's, fun and challenging, especially for the hamstrings I mentioned above.

She took us into vasisthasana and visvamitrasana -- very different types of arm balances. Both, if taken to the full expression, offer significant lengthening of the stubborn hamstring muscles. She also threw in an utthita hasta padangusthasana (UHP) - my goal pose for this year. (I think she did that just for me.)

Leg still isn't straight in UHP, but I have been working the hamstrings almost every day. The pilates is helping, as well.

So, I no longer 'cling' to the belief that those hamstring-challenging poses are not available to me. Now, a door opens and change can begin.

On the agenda today: Wayne's class, Pilates, YogaHour, and subbing a prenatal class this evening.

Enjoy your day,

'BACK TO MONDAY' NOTES

First, here's a new pic of Jack taken as he and his Grandpa RJ waited for the BIG train ride (see April 14 blog for details).

Second, about the quote -- it is so true. For me, for students, for teachers, for almost everyone. Until I, or you, or whoever, is/are ready to hear something new and different, it will not take hold. How many times have you heard "I'm trying to get my friend, husband, wife to come to class". I tell people -- in their time, they may come - don't push.

It follows in line with John's advice: "Don't answer the question that hasn't been asked."

More on that later, maybe, now on to other notes:

I am extremely excited about Christina coming in July. So excited that I am pestering her with e-mails -- today's was about the name for the workshop & agenda. I just hope I didn't offend by being a bit presumptuous. Anyway, if you're reading this, you do yoga, and you can get to Salt Lake -- be sure to plan on her workshop, July 17-19.

In preparation for the workshop, I'm holding a couple mini-workshops. I'm discovering that many students believe workshops are only for instructors. Wrong! It's an opportunity for students to broaden their knowledge, to step out of their comfort zone, to step into a room filled with other students (including instructors) and have fun.

May 16, Jen will hold a "De-Mystifying Backbending Poses" workshop from 2-4:30. It's a Saturday, and Jen is a great, fun instructor. Suitable for all levels -- even those with some level of back discomfort.

Then, in June, Robin is holding an afternoon "Intro to Meditation" workshop. Date to be determined. Watch the website for details.

All leading up to July and the BIG event.

Went to Matt's class yesterday morning. So much fun because it is a challenging class, but filled with relaxed energy -- if that makes sense. I found myself demo'ing eka pada bakasana I (with Matt's help). That's the way all this works -- we get to a comfort point in a pose, then want to expand. I am fairly comfortable in bakasana, so - when he mentioned EPB - I asked if there was a way to do that with a partner. Good way to get to demo -- WILL I NEVER LEARN!

The rest of the day was pretty quiet. I finally finished reading one of the longest and heaviest books I've ever attempted, puttered around the house and just relaxed.

Enjoy your week,

TEACHING PROGRESS

I taught two classes yesterday morning (subbing Jacqueline's Basics class, in addition to my own Level 1).

When I took over the Saturday morning class, I was advised to 'not make it too easy' -- the implication being that people coming to a 9 am Saturday class are looking for a more energetic, challenging experience.

And, my tendency is to look out at the group, see people struggling, and back off. That's not necessarily a bad thing - I certainly don't want people to get discouraged, but it may not be what the group is looking for. It also does not allow them growth in their practice.

Yesterday, I had a breakthrough, of sorts, in teaching this Level 1 class. I have always admired the teacher who can sequence a class, moving to the apex pose while pointing out to students that pieces/parts of the poses leading to the apex, and the apex, have already been accomplished as they were warming up. The implication: you (students) have already been here in a number of different poses, now let's put it all together.

My breakthrough was that I did that, in a manner of speaking. Moved students through poses that included shoulder work, lunges, hip openers -- until we reached the apex for that day. As we worked, I was able to go back and remind them that they have already done a part or piece of the pose in this sequence, moving from warm-up to more difficult/challenging poses.

Result -- I think people left feeling good and challenged.

Another result -- I had fun and felt good about their experience. In hindsight, I could have put in more languaging relating to the theme, but - this new experience while teaching took over and I forgot, except briefly, that part of my job. I'm not going to beat myself about it, tho; it just felt like too much fun.

Have a great day!

CONFIRMED

Well, I am very excited to begin planning for Christina Sell to visit The Yoga Center in July (July 17-19) for a workshop.

It was all pretty 'flukey' -- I read Christina's blog faithfully and noticed she mentioned a couple out-of-town cancellations. So - what the heck - I sent and e-mail and asked her if she'd like to come to my studio and, if so, what dates would she be available. Response: Yes; July 17-19 would work nicely.

Fortunately, those dates do not conflict with any plans at the other Anusara® studios (all 3 of them) in Utah. (What an unenviable job for Anusara® studios in BIG communities to communicate to avoid conflict.) So, we're good to go.

Preliminary plans are for Christina to do a 4-part workshop; Friday night, Saturday and Sunday morning.

Now, on to planning -- publicity, travel, etc.

Have a great weekend,

REMEMBER -- LIFE IS GOOD

Friday is a good day to end my pondering of this week's quote.

I left my sign languaging class last night feeling good. The group of people that has distilled (it started as a very large class, then they split the group), is fun -- not afraid to laugh, tease a little, make mistakes, and admit they don't know. My kind of group!

The YogaHour class I taught yesterday afternoon was fun. The fact that it is growing, with everyone in attendance having attended one of these classes before, is a good sign. And, they are a great group -- willing to give poses a try, yet aware of limitations and ready to express those concerns. FYI, I am more than happy to have a student tell me they are not ready to try a pose; rather than feel forced into something. Been there, done that.

Birthday shopping for my mother-in-law was successful. What do you buy for a 80+ year old, who has all she needs and has been giving stuff away right and left? I decided she needed a good, and fun hat, to keep that hot Arizona sun away. Found it, bought it, it will be delivered this weekend.

Pilates with Cindy in the afternoon felt good. We have moved onto some of the equipment. It's a challenge, but I am enjoying it. I have to admit the prospect of being longer and leaner is a thought that gives me pleasure. (Learned the sign for 'vain' last night -- better remember it!)

Notice a trend here -- all my good experiences in just one day involved a connection with other people: friends, retail people, students, not to mention family.

It's important to take time to notice that connection and what it offers to my life.

Enjoy your day,

FLASHBACK

to my blog of Feb. 24, and continue to ponder the 'Favorite quote . . .'

The line "Make a connection with everyone you encounter." reminds me of one of my first blog entries -- that of listening.

Such an easy way to make a connection -- look someone in the eye (aligning) as they talk to me, and give them my full attention. It's not rocket science; connecting can be as simple as remembering someone's name, acknowledging their efforts in class (everyone's efforts -- the student who needs bolstering and the student who is 'advanced'), smiling at people in the grocery store - on & on & on.

So easy and so effective and filled with so much potential to affect peoples' lives.

I taught at the Jail yesterday. 3 new-to-me students, 3 brand-new students, plus one young man who's been coming to this class for many weeks now. It would be very easy for me to enter the room and focus only on what their crimes may have been. That would make my (and their) experience less than meaningful. If I did that, they might come back, but it would only be to escape jail life for 90 minutes each week.

For some reason, it is easy to teach and not wonder or worry about what causes them to be in this situation. Don't get me wrong -- I know they're in for a reason (some, not so pretty). The acts of teaching, of looking for the good, of remembering their names, of offering encouragement and alignment tips, of being willing to be there -- all this adds up to making a connection, albeit brief.

This connection, in particular, has the potential to offer someone a remembrance that 'life is good'.

Yoga for the Deaf this morning -- 4 weeks into my 6 weeks of signing class. I now know the signs for cat & cow; that will make that pose fun to do -- plus I know my numbers, so I can tell them how many times to do it. It IS the little things!

Living With Intention

I've decided that John's quote/poem deserves more than one day's comment.

So, this morning I've been pondering "Live your life with intention.". First I went to my Thesaurus and entered 'intention'. Came up with words like: meaning, purpose, plan, objective.

When I look at my 'yoga life', I probably could (if asked), answer 'Yes, I am living that part of my life with intention (meaning, purpose, plan, objective).' Having said "I will strive to be a Certified Anusara Instructor" gave me that. My intention is to be Certified, which offers me lots of opportunities to live with a plan, purpose, objective. I know what to do -- read, study, practice, video, teach, work hard -- work REALLY hard.

As I look at the rest of my life, I wonder if that is suffering for all the intention going to yoga. How do I get intention back into housework, yardwork, caring for aging parents, grocery shopping, maintaining two houses, pay bills, etc.?

When I started yoga, for a long time I wondered what 'set our intention for this practice' meant. Now that I teach, I need to reflect on what I tell students as I define that statement for them. I tell them that their intention can be as simple as planting their hands firmly on the mat for the next 90 minutes, or it can be much more complex. If they choose complex, they must remember that this is just the start of the journey. Their destination may not be reached in the next 90 minutes.

Likewise, I need to start simply -- find a way to do it all (start the journey), yet not let it overwhelm me. One of my characteristics is to procrastinate (who, me?). If I can't do it right and 100%, it becomes overwhelming and I go into 'why do it at all' mode? Note, I do pay my/our bills tho -- that can't be procrastinated upon.

So, it's easier to go back to the safety zone (yoga) where I know all the expectations, plus it's fun. What's fun about housework? or grocery shopping? or managing households?

Ah, pondering -- maybe I shouldn't do it too much. Or, maybe I should do it more -- it brings out a lot of stuff out that I've been avoiding.

Sunny and warm here for at least the next couple days, then a bit of a cold snap is expected. Hopefully - no snow.

Enjoy Wednesday,

MONDAY NOTES ON TUESDAY - AGAIN

Boy, I got carried away and forgot that yesterday was the 'notes' day. Oh, well, that means you get it today.

This week has already held enough stress to last the next few weeks. Unfortunately, I took our 13-year-old dog in yesterday for her final 'sleep'. She was a big, mixed breed that we adopted when she was about 5. Good dog; her only fault was an aggressive dislike of small, white dogs -- a problem when walking. But, her quality of life had become very limited in the last few months - she was almost blind, nearly deaf, and her activity this past winter consisted only of walking (limping) out to the front yard to 'do her business', then back in to lay by the couch. Each movement looked painful, even tho we had given her the recommended pain meds.

The vet and her staff were very caring and made all the needed efforts to get me in and out with the least amount of hassle. It is never easy, but Sadie went to sleep very peacefully and I know, in my heart, that it was time.

Thankfully, it is a busy day today -- going to Wayne's class this morning; then to an evaluation with Cindy, my Pilates teacher-in-training friend; then I will teach a class; and finally go to my sign language class.

Right now, the other two dogs are begging for their morning walk.

Life goes on.

LIVING WITH SKILLFUL MEANS

When I select a quote for the week (see top right of this blog), I go to my collection of quotes and see which one is applicable to my situation at the moment. (I think I mentioned before that the collection has a plethora of quotes about setting goals and sticking to them.)

Today, tho, I am very firmly set in my goal, and my advancement towards it. I don't sense a wavering, or a lack of intention. So, those quotes don't appear this week.

But, I do see the application of the one line "live with skillful means" to my situation now. To me, it is such a strong statement of how our actions affect the lives of others.

If we are devious, discontented, untrue to our stated intention, people will know and people will turn away - it might take them a while, but they will turn. On the other hand, if we are able to stay on track, work within the system to accomplish our goals, treat people kindly and with respect (as well as ourselves), the Shakti (Sanskrit for 'sacred force' or empowerment) will positively affect the outcome of our efforts.

That all sounds pretty heavy for me to be writing; but as I write, I am reminded of the 3 things my husband and I instilled in our son's psyche as he was growing into an adult. These aren't original to us -- we heard them from Lou Holtz (of football fame), but they apply to all our dealings with other people:

1. Do what's right (we know in our gut what's right and what isn't - it's there, we must pay attention)
2. Do the best we can (we also know when we aren't giving 100% to an activity, a relationship, a goal, etc.)
3. Treat other people as we want to be treated (pretty self-explanatory)

FYI, today our son is a successful businessman, living with his family in San Diego. He embodies all three in his life (tho he is a bit slow to return calls to his Mother). I could write paragraphs about my pride for him - but, I won't do that here.

When I remember these 3 'instructions', I am able to 'live with skillful means' and, as a result, am happier for it. I believe the people around me sense it, as well.

Enjoy your week,

SATURDAY

5 hours of yoga yesterday -- Wow!

How does that happen? First, my morning class turned into more of a practice than me teaching it due to the make-up of attendees. Fun Stuff! Then, I went to Kula's practice from 1-4:30 - also fun.

So, remember that pose I'm working on (eka hasta padangusthasana - EHP)? In the morning we worked towards it; in the afternoon, I also asked for hamstring stuff. Be careful what you ask for! All good, but there was more hamstring widening, lengthening, strengthening, (can't think of any more good words here), than one person with significantly tight hamstrings should wisely wish for.

There were moments when child's pose was a considered option. However, as the oldest in the room, I hardly thought that would be a good example to set, plus I do have my pride to consider.

This morning all feels fine -- even the crick in my neck that plagued me all day has resolved itself. Must be all that alignment stuff.

I'm even thinking about more yoga! What is that about? Didn't I get my fill yesterday? Wasn't that enough? EHP, tho, has implanted itself in my thought process and I am hankering to warm up those hamstrings and give it a few more tries. We'll see how this day progresses.

SKEPTICAL

The $4 class I mentioned yesterday appears to be taking off nicely. While not huge numbers yet, a class at The Yoga Center that pulls in 5 within the first two weeks has promise. Granted, it's a bargain; but, the class still must offer students something in order for them to alter their day and get to the studio at 4 pm.

I already notice 2-3 regulars and in the last two classes there have been a couple people new to me and the studio. People who come in, meet me, and wonder (perhaps skeptically) what kind of class they will get. Good question, who doesn't do that when they attend a new class, new instructor, or new studio?

The unfortunate part of that is my reaction. I tend to get nervous (tho, I hope it doesn't show). I feel I have to prove myself (which I do, but only prove that I am a nice person teaching a comprehensive, safe class). I wonder what they think of me -- will I measure up to their expectations?

The fortunate part is that the nervousness goes away once I start teaching.

Before I taught yoga, I did fundraising and occasionally was called on to speak in front of a group. I was extremely nervous in those situations, so I took public speaking classes and I practiced -- it didn't help. By the time I finished the first sentence, I was breathless and could not continue without that nervous, wavering voice.

Not so with teaching. I wonder why. Is it because I've found my niche? Is it because I know what to teach and how to teach it? Is it because I own the studio and as 'the boss' don't have to prove my teaching ability to anyone (except my students, mentor, eventually the Certification Committee, John Friend -- to name a few)?

Or, could it be because the end result for me in teaching is chitananda (chit-awareness; ananda-beauty) -- those same reasons we do yoga.

Teaching gives me a whole new insight to myself, and when I look out and see unbidden, smiling faces in a well-aligned pose, my heart leaps and I just get excited and happy.

Enjoy your day,

THURSDAYS (& TUESDAYS)

In Tucson this year, Darren Rhodes described a new class at his studio -- Yoga Hour: one hour long, $4 cash, using a one-word theme/heart quality.

I came home, pondered it a while, and decided to replicate that class at The Yoga Center beginning in April, Tuesday and Thursday afternoons at 4 pm. I also decided to take on the classes as an opportunity to teach more (one of my goals for 2009).

Much to my surprise, the class is growing -- not huge numbers, but classes at my studio grow slowly - so growth, this early, is a good sign.

Students like the time of day, they like the price, and one hour at 4 pm is a good length for the demographic that chooses to attend -- long enough but not so long that it interferes with evening plans or dinner preparation.

Best of all, I'm having fun teaching it.

I do, however, need to start keeping a log of classes -- what I teach, when, to whom. Just so I don't start to repeat myself. Maybe I should have been logging classes all along (I think I remember hearing that at some training), but - now my hand is forced. A simple matrix including date, class, theme/heart quality, apex pose taught, and a space for notes to myself.

ANOTHER snowy morning -- white is pretty, but enough already!

WOULDN'T IT BE NICE

if every class were filled with many smiling faces, all eager and ready to hear and do your bidding? Wouldn't it be nice if all students embraced the 'beginner mind', stepping back and allowing you (as their guide) to lead them to a new pose or view of a pose? Wouldn't it be nice if all students believed they can do an arm balance or a difficult balance posture or a backbend without discomfort?

That all comes with trust. Trust that I (as their guide) will keep them safe, will give them appropriate instructions/modifications, will keep them safe, will make it fun, will keep them safe, will take them to the threshhold and - if just for a moment - take them across. All while keeping them safe.

I started skiing at the age of 30. My son was 4, I'd recently divorced, and - as a single mother - I needed something to do with this active 4-year-old. HE LOVED SKIING. I did not. When you start anything at age 4, the fear level is significantly lower (if existant). At thirty, it's VERY high -- like, how am I going to work if I break a leg or arm, and feed this little guy? (End result: I learned to love skiing, but not without a lot of angst, worry, dread. Now, at age 59, it's fun.)

I think the same can apply to yoga and some of it's challenging poses.

So, my job is not just to teach students how to get into a pose (safely), but also to help them believe they can get into that pose. It's a fine line -- cross it too quickly and I may lose a student; take too long and they might get bored and go away.

Now, it's not only the group I'm teaching to, it's the individuals in that group. Because each individual student is different - different goals for their practice, different abilities, different body structure, different attitude.

I am loving the challenge; but, it is a challenge. It's not enough for me to stand or walk around the room spouting instructions. I must look at the whole group, then the individuals within the group, and teach to both. All while keeping everyone safe and feeling good.

Raining here -- more snow in the mountains, but I'm liking the rain -- I've shoveled enough this year.

MONDAY NOTES ON TUESDAY

Well, the 'every day' blogging is now history -- I missed Monday (in case you didn't miss it). So, here it is Tuesday and I'll just pick up where I dropped off -- no berating myself, no feeling guilty, just get on with it!

I spent yesterday with my family -- husband, grandsons, son, & daughter-in-law. My 2 1/2 year old grandson, Jack, LOVES trains. He is an avid Thomas fan (has more engines that he knows what to do with). Has been unwavering in his love for the train table for over six months now.

So, we had a big lesson in diksha (threshhold) yesterday. Howard and I suggested that - since Howard needed to fly out of San Diego in the afternoon - we take Jack with us on the train from Carlsbad to downtown San Diego. Jack and I would then meet his Daddy (my son) and return to Carlsbad on the train.

We didn't tell Jack about this plan until early in the morning, because of the anticipation it would cause (not to mention the constant questioning "train?", "train?", "train?". My fear was that as the day progressed, he might decide that going on the train with Grandpa RJ and Baba was just too risky, too out of his comfort zone, and would refuse to go. Departure time from the house was 2:30 p.m.

At 2:15 p.m. I went downstairs, ready to pack up, and found Jack with his shirt and shoes/socks off, playing. Not a good sign, I thought. But, his Mother quickly got him dressed, packed his backpack, and we were ready to go. But, I wondered, would he really go? We had to drive 2 miles to the train station, so we loaded up Jack & suitcases, started the car, backed out of the driveway. Jessie (Mother) stood in the driveway, waving as we started to drive away.

Did he fuss? Did he start to scream "Mama, Mama"? Did he cry and refuse to calm down?

No, he smiled bravely at her and waved exuberantly. We were off. The train ride was great -- he noticed everything, he watched the beaches and sights as we rode south, ate snacks, and - when we arrived - he confidently walked (holding my hand) from the train to the cab to say goodbye to Grandpa RJ. We then went into the station to wait for his Daddy, for the return home.

Needless to say, he feel asleep as soon as we put him in his car seat back at the Carlsbad station -- I am sure there was a lot of emotional stress involved in this trip for him. But, what a trooper. And, what an example of how the loves of our life (for Jack, trains), will expand our view of life.

What a day! Worth missing a post.

SUBBING

I subbed one of my studio classes this past week (I'm trying to teach amap - as much as possible - to improve/refine my teaching skills).

Students progressing is a great thing to watch. It's even more fun when you haven't seen someone for a while, teach the class they regularly attend, and see a truly heart-opening cobra or thighs parallel to the floor in vira II, etc. -- Wow! Why should I be surprised? They've been attending Jen's Anusara-Inspired class regularly and she's a good teacher, so this progress with our method and an effective instructor is to be expected. Good work, Jen.

In San Diego with Jack (in pic), Brady (his 6-month-old brother), and their parents, so this is short - too many fun distractions. Coloring Easter Eggs, playing with Thomas the Train, reading books, crawling on the floor -- all part of being 'Baba' (grandma).

Hope you have a good Easter Day,

IT'S ALL ABOUT WHO COMES TO CLASS

On Thursday, I teach at 9 am at the Sanderson Community Center for the Deaf and Hard of Hearing, here in Salt Lake City. I've been teaching this class regularly since January. Population is small: 3 regulars who vary in their level of hearing loss plus 1-2 hearing.

This past week, my regulars arrived (a side note, once they arrive all my signing skills leave me -- what's that about?). We started to set up, the door opens and in come 5 students new to me. All hearing and fluent in yoga.

Class started quietly, as it usually does, but - as I got into teaching - I found my hearing voice and began speaking. Then, I remembered -- what about the primary audience for this class? The ladies who have little or no hearing skills. Had I forgotten them? Luckily - as I'm sure they've learned over the years - they are resilient and observant. They were following along by observing their neighbors. Also luckily, I noticed my tendency to fall back on that hearing voice, and went back to trying to sign as I talked.

As I reflect on the signs I tried to use - plus those that I have learned in class these past few weeks. I wonder what they see me saying? Because some of the things I'm signing are "leslie-isms", as in 'made up as I go along'.

It was wonderful - tho, to watch the interaction between the deaf and the hearing (at least those who knew sign language) after class. I'm sure I learned something from that -- if only that states are fingerspelled according to their abbreviation.

Point of this post: In any class, I can't forget there is someone who may not have the skill of the others, who may be dealing with an injury, or - as in this case - cannot hear me. Everyone must get my attention and my teaching. I'll teach to the group, without forgetting that one student who might need a bit extra of my time/effort.

Enjoy your day,

SOME DAYS

are harder than others to come up with ideas to write about in this blog. But, having made a commitment to myself, I'll start and just see where it goes -- hopefully, less of a diatribe than yesterday.

Just finished reading the "YogaNerd" blog. Good stuff -- a crick in her neck led her to (finally - her words) look at the whole picture and notice that her right side body was collapsing. So, the sequences are about lengthening, especially the QL and the psoas. Her crick (unresolved with neck and shoulder work) went away after this lengthening work. (http://www.yoganerd.blogspot.com/)

When we look at a student, it is important to remember Zhenja's experience -- that, for example, the sore shoulder may be related to something not actually in the shoulder. I had a young man come in to renew an ad, and - after we finished that business - he asked me a question about his shoulder. So, remove the suit coat, have him stand normally as I walked around him getting a good view of the TOTAL; ask some questions about activity, work, etc. In looking at him, I noticed his right shoulder was lower than his left. He didn't believe me, so we went to the mirrors (people criticize a yoga studio with mirrors - but they do come in handy at times). He could see the drop - proof positive.

Our tendency at this point is to instruct shoulder loop, and maybe not think about the affect the right side body is having on that shoulder's tendency to drop.

So, we did a bit of shoulder loop work -- especially, since his posture was starting to go 'south'. Then we talked about the side body, and even the legs - how keeping his feet parallel will seat the hips and allow for greater support of the side body lengthening as he stands. He is in great shape, but his work creates an environment where it's easy to slouch. Lucky for him, posture is an important factor in his mind -- so, I think he's still remembering our work.

If we've done a therapy training, we are so full of good and helpful knowledge that we sometimes try to fix the issue without studying the entire person and asking some questions first. One thing you will notice about John (or whoever you are studying with) in these trainings, is that once he hears a student's story of injury or pain, he asks more questions and he observes. Then, and only then, will he start to make suggestions/changes/adjustments.

It's that whole SSA stuff:

1. S - SENSITIVITY -- look at the student, ask questions, approach them with a caring, inquisitive, helpful attitude.
2. S - STABILIZE -- once we determine what might be causing the discomfort, we stabilize that part of the body with a firm, yet compassionate, hand.
3. A - ADJUST -- only after we have used our sensitivity to determine the probable cause of a student's discomfort, stabilized the portion of the body we suspect is the issue, THEN we do the adjustment.

If you rush in and adjust first, you should spell it backwards, and - as John says - you may become this instead of the teacher that makes the student's life more comfortable.

Enjoy your weekend -- I've got a housesitter for the critters, so we are going to San Diego for Easter with Jack (pictured above) and his brother, Brady.

IT'S THE LITTLE THINGS ...

Just spent the first 45 minutes of my morning trying to figure out how to get the ® symbol into this blog. But, I figured it out and now I can write the many next installments of this blog using ® and ™ where correct and appropriate.

After reading and signing my Anusara-Inspired™ contract and studying the new website, it becomes apparent that the use of these symbols - just like how we name our classes and label ourselves in the Anusara® world - is of importance to John and Anusara®. Therefore, it's up to each of us - as teachers, students, studio owners - to honor that. (Remember, one of the qualities of a good yoga teacher is to remember and honor our teachers.)

Hate to go on a pet peeve discussion this early in the morning, but so long as I'm on the topic - here it is. As an Anusara-Inspired™ instructor, I have signed a contract with Anusara® to list classes on my teaching schedule as Anusara-Inspired™ not Anusara®. Because I'm a born & bred 'play by the rules' kind of woman, I adhere to that for myself and my instructors.

It troubles me that some studios feel they can push the envelope, labeling classes as Anusara® when they are being taught by an Inspired instructor. That creates a situation where the studio owner is placing the instructor in jeopardy of losing their license with Anusara®, not to mention the misrepresentation of that class to students. (It also doesn't say much about the fortitude of the instructor who allows it to happen.)

(The use of Level I, Level II, etc., is a way of skirting the issue. If you read class descriptions, there is no mention of these classes being taught by Anusara-Inspired™ instructors. They are careful to talk about Anusara® without coming out and calling it an Anusara® class. )

So something 'little' just got 'big'. Breathe, Leslie. You've said it, now let it go.

I can celebrate - tho - I now know how to do something new with my blog that will make me feel better about the way I type it in the future.

Thank you for listening (reading). To any readers who are not teachers (or who don't know me), you've just seen my fiery side. A shock, I know, but it does exist.

Another snowy morning -- will this ever end?

IT'S OFFICIAL

An e-mail this morning from Wendy Wiltrout, announcing and explaining some of the features of the new Anusara® website.

My 'glitches' are almost solved. Jimmy is being very responsive -- even answering e-mails at 11:30 pm, midnight, whenever. Kudos to Jimmy & others responsible for the new site.

I've asked Jimmy if there is a possibility that Anusara-Inspired™ instructors can have a 'lounge'. Ever since I first noticed the 'lounge' feature and realized that I couldn't get it in, I've wondered what's in there? what secrets does it hold? why can't we go in?

Karen has a framed sign in her studio, Garden Street Yoga. It is very ornate, gilded, and sits in front of a gold curtain. What does it say?

"Nobody gets in to see the Wizard. No way. No how."

Or something like that. It caused me to chuckle -- it also is how I view entrance to the 'lounge' on the Anusara™ website. I want in! (Another reason to pursue Certification.)

Jimmy's response: Good idea - he and the Anusara™ staff are testing out some new features, and that may be one that gets added.

What a 'boon' that would be. A place for us to ask questions, discuss, communicate; and - importantly - a place for Anusara™ to offer information designated just for the Inspired instructors -- i.e. changes or additions to the reading list, other changes in the curriculum, etc. We would even welcome Certified Instructors to visit -- because they have lots of good stuff to offer.

If you see potential in this idea, let the Anusara™ office know -- in particular Jimmy (you can contact him thru the website).

Blogs are good for campaigning, as well as communicating.

Enjoy your day,

PATIENCE

The class I attended yesterday was at YogaTejas in Driggs. It was a Level 1, taught by Bridget (who co-owns the studio with Cate Stillman).

Nice class -- she used Durga's story plus the qualities of powerfulness and patience as her theme/heart quality. As we progressed in her sequence, she related parts of poses back to previously done work. I think that instills in the student a bit of "I've already been there, this should not be a problem." I enjoy that.

I mention patience in the title, because I have spent quite a bit of time on the new Anusara website, and e-mailing Jimmy at Anusara, with questions, issues, etc. I just sent him an e-mail, thanking him for his time and pointing out that we may be best friends by the time I get through. I am sure his patience will be tested over the next few days, weeks and - maybe - months as the site becomes de-glitched.

Be sure to check the website if you are Inspired or Certified. As I mentioned yesterday, I was not on there (I am now). Some people, for some reason, did not get pulled over from the old site. Then, when you look at your listing notice that there are a number of questions & bio info spaces. You must login (top right) and then you will be able to edit your profile, fill in the spaces and answers.

This is short -- gotta get ready to drive back to SLC.

Enjoy your Tuesday,

MORE NOTES

I've decided that once a week (maybe Mondays?) I will just do this 'notes' blog. It will be a good change in focus from the other six days, and offer me an opportunity to write just whatever comes into my head, thru my hands, and onto the blog.

Working on that pose I've been asking for input on. Marlene, I tried supta padangusthasana (SP) with success -- at least holding the big toe. But, that gives me hope. I could take the leg out, while maintaining good alignment in the remainder of my body -- that's a good thing. So, I will keep doing hamstring stretches per Cindy and Marlene, practicing SP (which is a laying-down form of utthita hasta padangusthasana (UHP)), continue to work on taking the leg out using a strap while standing (the balancing adds a significant challenge to the pose). Keep you posted.

Logged on to the new Anusara™ website this morning. I guess it went on-line on Sunday (yesterday), and it looks good. On my laptop, it's a bit slow coming up -- but that could be my laptop since everything is slow this morning. I also noticed my name is NOT listed under Anusara-Inspired™. Breathe, Leslie. I tried to contact them thru their website -- error message. Breathe again, Leslie. So, I sent an e-mail to John, since his is the only e-mail address I know. I'll call them in a few minutes. I am understanding about new websites, getting the glitches out, kinks straightened, etc., etc., etc. But, why did they have to leave my name off? Keep breathing, Leslie.

Talking to Anusara as I type -- so, hopefully, this will be resolved a.s.a.p.

I am talking better with my hands, as a result of the ASL classes. Problem is, that as I study the signs for certain things (from books, printouts), each community develops its own variation on some of the signs. So, I tried one in last week's yoga class -- 'see you next week'; turns out that this community uses a bit different sign -- so, they all looked at me a bit inquisitively, figured it out, then told me what they use. Flexibility (as in UHP) is required in all parts of our lives.

Hope to go to class this a.m.

50 & COUNTING

50 is not my age (I'm older), it's the number of blogs I've written since starting this venture. Amazing to me -- amazing because my tendency is to start strong & fizzle -- so, blogging and yoga must be a good fit. As I write this, I am also reminded that I am still writing a weekly letter to my grandson, Jack. (See new photo -- while it's a few months old, it is a better representation of his current look - cute, huh?)

Actually, I think of blogging like writing letters to myself. Reinforcing my knowledge, my strengths, acknowledging my weaknesses, and just chatting (I am VERY good at talking to myself, just so long as I don't answer!). It also appears to commit me to a plan of action -- how can I reneg on a commitment I make to my family, friends, peers, students, community, the Universe and myself.

That brings me back to utthita hasta padangusthana. I have received one comment, plus a couple personal e-mails in response to my blog: PIN (Pose Input Needed).

FYI, since some of you are new to Sanskrit, utthita hasta padangusthana is a standing balance pose where you hold one foot and extend the leg to the front, then out to the side -- while still holding the foot.

Looks like my fear is realized -- the hamstrings are key; there's no other 'magic bullet'. So, daily warming up, and then a bit of lengthening work is needed and I must be diligent. I've been doing more of that this week, just have to keep it up. Thank you for your input -- anyone with a 'magic bullet' is still welcome to comment.

I have applied to the Anusara™ workshop in Park City (September) -- maybe, just maybe, I will be diligent enough to let my neighbor have the pleasure of holding my heel. That's assuming I get in (I have a real reticence to saying I'm going, until I have that acceptance e-mail in my hot little computer.) .

Going to take a walk with husband & dogs, then work on those hamstrings.

Enjoy Sunday,

VIDEOS . . .

For those of you reading this and new to Anusara™, video'ing myself as I teach is an important 'stone' on my path towards Certification. If you are in my class, know that I am not video'ing you (tho you might be seen on the camera); the purpose is to eventually demonstrate my teaching skills to an evaluation committee comprised of long-time Certified Anusara™ yoga teachers. Many videos are not going anywhere, they will be viewed by me and give me valuable information on areas that need enhancement.

My plan is to just set the video camera up in The Yoga Center. Whether it is on or not, will remain a mystery to students. Hoped-for result: students won't spread themselves to the far corners of the room in fear of their backside being recorded in down dog. I also will get more comfortable with the camera and my voice (as it sounds on the camera).

Speaking of the camera -- I took it back to the store for a brief lesson on operation. Didn't get as much help as I expected or wanted. So, I am back to the manual.

Wayne's theory: the video process is actually a well-disguised arm of the Certification process. As in, can we do it? Can we operate a camera, teach in front of a camera, evaluate the video, then - when right - get that class video OFF the camera and onto a disc? Oh, yes, we need to teach effectively on the video, but just the process of video'ing ourselves is a BIG challenge in itself. It is another measure of just how badly we want to be a Certified Anusara™ Yoga Teacher.

The camera will be in the room this morning, so get ready . . .

POSE INPUT NEEDED (aka PIN)

I have thought for a while that setting a goal and working towards a specific pose is a good idea. The thought came to me while reading Christina's blog. Each year, she does just that -- if there's a pose she wants to accomplish, that's her pose goal for the year (this year, it is to grab her ankles in kapotasana) -- a worthy and challenging goal).

Mine, while valuable, is less lofty: I would like to stand straight, hold my foot and take that leg straight in utthita hasta padangusthasana.

My experience with this pose is mainly during workshops/trainings. I - until now - rarely do it on my own.

Many of you have been in a workshop/training when John will ask for this pose -- everyone gets their leg up, straightens it, extends it out to the side, and then their neighbor holds the heel. My neighbors rarely get that opportunity, since my leg is still bent. Or, if I do get it extended, it's so low that they practically have to do a "side uttanasana" to reach the heel. That adds a little 'extra' to their experience; it does not, however, make me feel very good.

So, I am putting it out to the Universe -- I need help. I know that these components are essential:

1. Stand straight (IS/OS, side body long)
2. Bring leg up, clasp foot, with knee bent
3. IS again, maintain upright posture
4. OS as you take leg forward, pressing foot into hand

I also know that warm and lengthened hamstrings are an integral part of the pose. But, I get stuck when my hamstrings begin to scream and my back starts to round. Some of that 'stuck' is caused by fear that something is going to explode.

Suggestions?

At my first teacher training with John, he told us that we need to have 3 ways to say every instruction. This is because each student learns differently, and what rings for the majority may not compute for one -- so, we may need to re-phrase for that one. I am hopeful that someone will have a re-phrasing (or a component I'm missing), and I'll get it.

Enough -- just send a little bit of energy and your thoughts.

Enjoy Friday,

SELF PROMOTION

Self promotion goes right along with the theme I've been using this week -- that of cloaking (as in throwing it off or - at least - opening the buttons a bit. That's because, one of my weakest points is the ability to acknowledge my knowledge and let it shine. (Interestingly, Wayne's theme on Tuesday was 'stand in your light'. ARE YOU TALKING TO ME?)

So, I've been self-promoting this morning on Facebook -- put my blog address in as I joined two Anusara groups. Then, I mentioned it again in my newsletter to students. Plus, I talk it up in each of my classes and have it posted on my website. All this, as a result of an article forwarded to me by a friend re: 'how to get people to read your blog'. There's more, but this is a good start.

Today will be a busy one -- I teach at the Community Center for the Deaf and Hard of Hearing this morning. My intention was to study some of the signs I've been learning (refresh my memory) and maybe use them during class. I better get this blog done, walk the dogs, and - hopefully - carry out that intention.

Then, I have scheduled myself to teach a new class at The Yoga Center (based on one Darren & John described in Tucson) -- YogaHour. I'll let you know how that goes. Classes at my studio grow notoriously slow, but most do grow. Especially at 'bargain basement' prices.

Then, it's back to the Community Center for the Thursday installment of my ASL classes (I'm going twice a week - Tuesdays & Thursdays!).

Interspersed in all this will be a couple short trips home to let the dogs out. They've gotten horribly spoiled this winter -- because one is getting very old and we worry about her on the steps, we have let them all stay inside during the day.

All this to tell you that I am moving into the realm of self-promotion, because - I realize - if I don't do it, no one is going to do it for me. Oh sure, there's good word-of-mouth. But, I also have to 'stand in my own light'; otherwise, all the good 'word-of mouth' in the world is not going to attract people to me. Students might come for a preview, but if I am meek, shy, reticent, and don't effectively take my seat as the teacher -- they probably will NOT be back.

Website back on track; no worm (that I'm aware of); so far, so good!

STRIKE FEAR IN MY HEART . . .

Just logging on -- checked e-mail, looked at my facebook page (BJ & Marlene contributed a couple of good youtube videos - one of Darren Rhodes and the other of AcroYoga, both impressive).

Next, check my website. Horrors! It doesn't come up. Now what -- I've been coasting along without a website person for a year. The site has been reliably self-sufficient, and I haven't had the $$$ to hire someone to become familiar with it 'just in case'. Besides, if it's not broke, why fix it. Well, now what, Einstein?

Maybe it's the worm! Or, maybe, since this has happened before - just once - it is a fluke that will be o.k. in an hour or so. Send positive energy that it is the latter possibility, please.

My view on websites: Example -- let's say you are going to a restaurant that has been highly recommended by your friends for the GREAT food. You drive up, the parking lot and restaurant are poorly lit, the awnings outside are torn, the doorstep is clogged with debris, the glass in the door is dirty. Does it give you pause? It does me. I think websites can be viewed the same way -- they are the first impression someone may get of us. And first impressions are lasting impressions.

Therefore, my website maintenance is of high priority. I get a lot of compliments on it (if you could view it now, I'd send you there -- darn). And, a majority of people are coming to my studio because of the internet. I can only assume they look for yoga in SLC, check out the websites, something clicks with them and they come to the studio. Then - assuming all goes well with the next step (their yoga class) - they continue coming to the studio.

Word of mouth (as argued by one of my yoga friends) is good, too -- but only if you are not running your website in the same manner as my restaurant example.

Boy, I was wondering what to write about this morning. Thank you, Universe. Please, tho, let my website be o.k.

Wednesday -- Gentle Yoga at 10 a.m.; Jail Yoga at 2:30.

p.s. Editing this post to tell you that it's back -- turned out it was a server issue. Whew! But a reminder that a website person would be a valuable tool to have, just in case.

Enjoy your day,